---->M-I-A<----- Angel burns inside for me, devil burns inside of me.

新年不過兩三天

2012-01-28T15:05:00.000Z

2 months before this Chinese festive, I got serious mental illness.
When it is approaching, I have no choice but to face it.
Seeing friends are doing very well, some of them change big car, some of them even planning to buy property.
I want to do all but yet to reach there.

Went back few days, only. Who doesnt want to accompany your precious family longer?
The longer I was with them, the more I felt sorry.
Sorry, because I have yet to deliver What I promise to myself.
Again and again, again and again, the choice has been justified.
我没有后悔,只有遗憾

One more thing, a friend of mine was doubting my purpose, a purpose which initially and in the end was just to meet.
可笑。
As if....to contribute millions to my company and the beneficiary is my name.
小錢看不開，自然大錢不會來。

明年今日之回来。

2011-12-29T15:51:00.000Z

在看着照片的同时，发现有一个人不见了。
此人，正是在下。

太快了

2011-11-20T15:29:00.000Z

还有一个多月就12月尾了。
妈的，时间总是在你们无聊的时候让你觉得它太多，但却又不知不觉的飘走。
想抓住，才发现这个想法太无知。
今年根本没有什么resolution 可谈，因为我今年废了一整年。。。好惭愧的说。。。
减肥？咸丰年前已经放弃了啦。。。
收入增加？我还用了不少储蓄呢！！！
我唯一的目标就是settle掉那令人烦恼的loan. 结果。。。

走了一个肥的，来了一个壮的。
今年最大的收获就是垃圾掉了，拣到个宝。
收到最贵的生日礼物，吃过最好的食物，见过最亲切的长辈，得到最多的礼物。
真的。。。20112011 的2319 我好怕。
因为，24快过了，25来了。
我还有2年的时间把自己像水一样给嫁出去。
成家之前最重要的是什么？
鸟你！收入稳定啦！
嫁不嫁出去还真的不大重要，重要的是$$$$.
(我管你觉得这是犀利眼？重物质？还是$$$眼睛？）
换句话说老娘只剩2年时间来巩固事业！
眼看一切来着，但前面却有一片玻璃阻挡着。
无助无助。

不要让爱你的人失望太久；不让看低你的人笑太久。
别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。
就算我变，也只不过是策略改变。
快了。。。
快了。。。

正常的，不正常的。

2011-10-31T15:50:00.000Z

头痛，似乎变成邮差，偶尔会敲上门来送信。
好些日子了，那许下的诺言好像无法达成，再过一些日子眼皮又会再垂一些，原来双眼皮胶带也抵不过岁月的重量。
没有办法说不纳闷，看着不熟悉的自己把自己所熟悉习惯的自己踢得越来越远。
很想，很想，非常着急的把自己带回来，不是那熟悉的自己被踢远了，原来只是怂恿夏娃亚当的毒蛇把眼睛给遮住。。。

放弃的念头像邮差，有时会敲上门来送信。
不！不要阅读那些信！
从来计划中的计划都会实现，只是这次。。。怎么。。。有些阻碍。
准备的一切，是不可能就这样结束！
创业难，守业更难。
可能。。。开始真的遇到不少挫折。
自己一定会赚回所失去的"Pride"，谁有意或無心拿掉的，都回一一拿回來。
立志，永远不会难；做到的才不简单。

笑吧！
那蜡像似的笑容！
上色的蜡，谁也没有办法看透蜡后面的颜色。
因为，就算笑着蜡像告诉你它伤心，你也不会相信。
因为，就算它给你真心，你也只会觉得蜡做的心不算心。

Good Question

2011-10-05T15:43:00.000+01:00

Do I have a gun to force you to take out all you money from you ATM and investment stock?
If the answer is no, then you will know why this question pop out.

Today my friend asked me a question.
"Have your friends' attitude changed upon you changing your job?"
YES and NO.
Yes, they are people changed their attitude; and No. If there are friends who don't change, who are those people who changed?

I appreciate those who give me a chance by asking me questions on this field.
Thank You.

Cheers

2011-09-15T11:31:00.000+01:00

Don't really blog about what I think directly, that's why most of my posts are not reader friendly.
Just to cheer myself up.
*aghast*
can't put a proper word here.
It's better not to put.
ask how, don't ask why.

What is Regret?

2011-08-18T20:25:00.000+01:00

What chosen is chosen, what said is said.

There must be sour, sweetness, bitterness and hotness; all I have prepared before make the choice.

The moment I was looking for car is the moment I was planning for this, so there is impossible I'll give up.

Only one reason to make me give up---- I'm not myself and I wanna let myself to be another useless hopeless creature.

The mind to be persistent is strong, however sometime somehow there will be swinging....

"Why not I go for this and part time do this?"

"hey, fuck u la....what you want to be?"

then, then mind will wake up again.

Nevertheless, result speak everything.

I though that is easy, but it is not as easy.

In fact. it is as easy as it is difficult.

Yo...you know you must.

No matter what.

You know where is the problem, if you dare not to say, I'll confess on behalf.

- Afraid. You worried. and fuck u again, what the hell are you worrying? the words they talk about you? come on, you better worry the moment when everyone having good life while you are still driving the SAGA! and even pathetic, you gotta see people's face when you are down in a bad condition.

- Not enough activity. hey, what most frequent happen on you is kena FFK. then you know the problem, so you gotta polish it.

- Procrastinating. hopeless on this la weiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. For things to change, you must change yourself first, you have taken the first step, and the rest are what you GOTTA take.

In your dictionary, there is none REGRET.

there is only "YOU GOTTA BARE THE RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERY DECISION YOU HAVE MADE"

Although there is one person, always doing some destructive things like harassing you through phone, demotivate you through words.

Let say, if one disagree what another party is doing, most probably, in this modern, civilized and democratic society. the one might just advise you but truely the one should hope you can do well on your decision.

This ridiculous particular one, is not only disagreeing and discouraging, this person not even want you to be successful in your decision.

What a JOKE!

Marry a rich nice man is a fairy tale. Come on! which business man doesn't want their wife to be mindful one, to be able to help him one? Idiot will thought the rich nice men nowadays are still like those old days men. If there is any, the wife must be like the old time wife. This is like the ecosystem.

back to the reality, there is no regret!

and I swear, I'm gonna take back all the pride that has taken by others.

I was given a formula to success

2011-07-23T07:55:00.000+01:00

talk about my name.

Mia Foo Mee Ngan

in Hokkien, Mia= destiny. Mia Foo, sounds like bad destiny; Mee Ngan, sound like 'Meng Ngang" 命硬in Cantonese, either name is not a good sign.

Although I don't have a good childhood like most of the people.

However, I got whatever I want in my life, provided I really go for it.

I blamed at luck at times, after think deeply, I'm actually better off than many people, at least i have what they don't have.

Everyone talks about opportunity.

Friend, you wanna have a better life in the future, no doubt. else why the hell you wok so hard for?

For some people, no matter how hard they work, theirs hard works are not recognized.

For some people, they are looking for opportunity but there is no one to tell them that this is an opportunity.

I'm the lucky one, which I have ald told Jason (my best dude) before, I have what I want, even I don't have it, there are somebody to help me. But of course, I need to really work my hard shit out to get it. there is no free lunch in the world.

I got the formula to success.

I got the formula to success

The Only Thing You Can Do Now

2011-06-18T13:55:00.000+01:00

Let me answer the title before start the post.
The Only Thing You Can Do Now, is Do Well!

得力说；“看着你用华语写的部落，我觉得我们很近。”
在我爽着的时候，得力又说：因为都是粗口。
妈的。
突然很想得力看3D肉蒲团看到进医院。
不然让那只Jot Bat看 3D肉蒲团看到claim PA，然后才后知后觉得发现大飞机打到受伤是不受保的。
都说别得罪没有第3只脚的动物。

老娘的兽行。。。不，是受薪日子快要结束了。
很快就要步入另一个阶段。

如果不是受到刺激，我是不会踏出那安全圈子。虽然我懂终有一天我会出来。
这几个月，发生了好些事情，好坏没关系，反正都是将来的故事。
现在我只有一个目标
就是做好现在要做的事，发展好现在要发展的事业。
就如以上所说的，the only thing you can do is DO IT WELL.

老娘的妈超反对。
她说对面街三姑的儿子的女朋友的表姐出来呆在银行，慢慢做几年后月薪４千块。
哇！！！　
（＝。＝）
都未见过大蛇O 屎
2-3年后老娘驾Harley Davidson 和Mini Cooper 啦！

这是目标。
我会到达
无论多辛苦
我会累
我会哭
我会怕
slap9 我假如我因此而打退堂鼓。

各位，再聊。

oh-so-irritating

2011-05-22T12:12:00.000+01:00

I think i can't keep it any longer.

Human's brain has the most complicated structure compare to EVERYTHING in the world, human's mindset too.

So, the more you don't want to recall, the more it comes back.

yea, you!

you bad mouth others without urself noticing it, and you thought how great yourself is?

you critic on others, which you shouldn't. That's so private, you didn't pay a little respect to the one you loveD.

you peep on others email, which is fucking unethical.

hello! you are really fucking first class mentality, third class practice.

the more i critic you, the more it reflects how stupid i was and how naive i was.

you shouldn't even exist in my blog, fucker.

I should leave a big mark on your face on that day- that day after the silent storm.

牛～

2011-03-01T17:56:00.000Z

听了一段很有意思的话。
把它改了一下，变成自己的话。

“几乎没有多少人能够抵挡金钱的诱惑；金钱不是万能，不过它能够保护你爱的人和身边的人不被金钱诱惑。”

震撼。
这两个个别本来没有威胁意思的单字，在我听完这句话之后深深地往心上插上旗帜。

钱是万恶啊。
多少人因为它做尽坏事，自尊道德尊严亲情爱情理智，通通被撕破。
能够秉持艺术之梦，不像万恶之首折腰的，小女子只有深深地敬礼。
而那些对金钱嗤之以鼻,　鄙视着他人对金钱的热诚，说着自己不会为金钱的作出违反自己原则的人，小女子对他们也来个深深地鞠躬。　

人啊～
要是今天有人给你１万，叫你离开身边的那位，你头也不回的走掉；
当那人说１０万，你的脚步依然大步迈向自己的天堂；
当那人说１０００万，你的脚步停了一下；
１０００万。。。脚步困难的往前踏多几步；
１亿。。。你还能不回头吗？
是低估了筹码的号召力？还是自己的道德理念站稳住脚？

身边不少人被金钱害死。
先说大老虎。
认识多年的朋友为了数十万，陷他一脚，至今仍然不见，老胡仍然爬不起。
小老虎？
为了一笔听说客观的数目，被骗了５个数字。丢了不只是钱，是信任，是亲情。
再说最近身边朋友发生的。
就被骗了一座别墅的钱，过百万。还一辈子也不懂又没有能力清债。
要是这个时候有人给他１００万，叫他离开，不要管这些事妻房子女，你是他，你会走还是留？１０００万吧？走还是留？
话别说的太尽。

我又发完一番伟言／危言；不爽就别看吧。
这社会还有言论自由。

晚安。　

The First Impression

2011-02-10T15:14:00.000Z

That is the first image u left for others.

You can say nothing, you can do nothing, but it will still leave people an impression of the image you carry.

24th.

Through out those years, what image i left for others?

And what should I give others in the future.

Rebel...I think most of the people in secondary school would agree

Act like a boy....definitely this is agreed by most of the people

Big Sister... don't know is it because of my size in those days

Strong women.....Tough women....

This is a heavy word. A very heavy description, indeed, HEAVY.

What trained me to be one? Until these day I already feel numb to tell again.

But if there is a choice, will I prefer to be one?

Ya, definitely....but can I have a little privilege, a little rewards, a little request?

I would like to be a strong and tough female who can be pampered, can be taken care of.

'You are very independent, you are very tough, you are very special, you are different, you are...'

it's been not less than 100 times I'm praised in this way. My pleasure =)

But if given a choice, can I choose to be the one who can hide in side an even stronger arm?

The biggest joke ever is: men thought a strong and tough one doesn't deserve protection.

What is the point of being strong then? while I lose all the privileges that a girl deserves?

Biasa dah, tapi biasa pun mimpi nak dapat protection jugak.

I'm just a species of chromosome X.

By the way,

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy 9th Chinese New Year.

Flame 2

2011-01-24T16:36:00.000Z

Light + Matches.

A box of matches was abandoned, Gerald brought it home, and so happen it was put under the light.

The light said let me illuminate you, hopefully my heat could dry up the dampness in you, so you can shine as how you should be.

The matches in the end burn themselves not because too much of the heat from the light, but the purpose they are created to.

Like a pencil and an eraser.

Pencil: I'm Sorry.
Eraser: For What? You Didn't Do Anything Wrong.
Pencil: I'm Sorry Cause You Get Hurt Because Of Me.
Whenever I Made A Mistake, You're Always There To Erase It.
But As You Make My Mistakes Vanish,
You Lose A Part Of Yourself.
You Get Smaller And Smaller Each Time.
Eraser: That's True. But I Don't Really Mind.
You See, I Was Made To Do This. I Was Made To Help You
Whenever You Do Something Wrong.
Even Though One Day, I Know I'll Be Gone
And You'll Replace Me With A New One,
I'm Actually Happy With My Job.
So Please, Stop Worrying.
I Hate Seeing You Sad.

Sounds touching. Shed tears when first heard this.

Everything was created for one purpose, eraser was made to cover the pencil's ass; but the matches is made to start up a flame, not to be heat up by the light.

Matches are flammable, easily burn up...

You might have forgotten this since you started to use lighter.

-The End-

Flame

2011-01-22T09:23:00.002Z

除了战斗之外，我一无所有。

You Will See Me in TIME Magazine!

2010-12-31T15:20:00.000Z

Year by year, that's why, I'm turning into 24.

Since 2002 Dec, I decide to make my life to be abundant one, life is meant to be abundant, isn't it. I declared to my classmate: " one day you will see me in TIME magazine"

17,18,19,20,21-- I said I wanted to focus on study, so I scored top 9th in Advanced Dip, but it doesn't mean anything. I focused too much in analyzing cause and fact. I focused too much in study drama--> damn this!

22-- I said I want to strive for success when I stepped into working life.

23-- ...

2258, everyone in FB pouring their true heart, true wish towards the new year.

- This is not a good year, I want to have a better one in year 2011

- My resolution in 2011 is to bla bla bla

- Year 2010 treats me like shit! 2011 give me luck!

If you can imagine how my face and body language shows, *shrugged + nod*

Why resolution must be set in the end of the year but not when you noticed something wrong?

90% of those ppl who wrote that will repeat the same shit in end of 2011, and wishing for a better year in year 2012. Come on...let Mia reminds you, if Mayan is correct, u left 10 months in 2012 only.

What i wrote above support the fact of why humans' mouth and eye located at front but not back.

We talk we look forward but never look back and see what went wrong, and never correct from the mistake.

I dare not, DARE NOT to declare anything this year... What I know is to do to try whatever I can I could I should. My target set in year 2009, it still knocks at me every single minute; my wish in year 2002, i'm still looking forward to it, if this is achievable. I was scolded of not being focused... I thought, I can multitasking, aren't I. I can, I really can.

You should never ask a deaf how sweet is Carpenter's voice, they will never know, If they knew, they must have forgotten too.

A blind man shall never been asked how beautiful the rainbow is.

You will never know if you never know; you will never know if you were not part of them.

I'm young, I can take risk, I can bare risk. I'll do WHATEVER I can to achiever what i want and what I've set.

in this journey called life, we all are either die too soon or live too long.

the word of regret is forever deleted in my dictionary.

We are human, we learn from mistake.

Branches.

2010-12-23T18:12:00.000Z

it's been a very long time didn't clean up and decorate my house.
I'm very tired, and very sleepy now, but i want to write this down.
Today my department give up incentive.
Incentive means...get it if you meet the budget. Honestly I've been trying very hard to reach my target but things just didn't run that smooth.
The instinctive me-- I guess, should be a very aggressive one. Just don't like the feeling of losing.
Don't need to be the best but at least second best!
there are few questions in my mind.
1. Should I or not delay my plan-- when actually i don't really have a very concrete plan to run as alternative. If delay means delay again and again;' if don't delay means I give up the battle here.
2. Should I or not give myself a burden-- to buy a car.
these 2 matters are interrelated.

I also don't know how. Feel like getting direction of spirit.

My Business

2010-12-18T10:49:00.004Z

Find this !

will be continued.

To make a move

2010-12-04T16:42:00.001Z

yupe, I love the red mountain logo so much.

since 2 days back the rythem of the theme song was keep surrounding in my mind, and I agree this is a good song.

Recently i'm starting to absorb as much financial knowledge as I can and started to read those financial newspaper, share market news, stocks, everything regarding to investment; and also fall in love with a book called:" why we want you to be rich"

A very good point that I've picked up(as far as the half book i've read)- Society now has been changing from diamond shape (which Rich and Poor occupied the tip of top and bottom while middle class has occupied the middle part of the diamond) to a shape of concave lens and the middle part is getting thinner, soon the middle class will distinct from the middle. In short it means, rich will get richer and poor will get poorer. This is the problem, so they( the authors) want us to be rich is because they dont want us to be part of the problem, they want us to be part of the solution so the hypothesis they made will not happen.

Thus i've been contemplating to start another journey; to be more precise i don't only think this after read this book, even earlier i've been thinking of this. The killing point is that, sayonara is hard to sing.

to be cont.

Lend me a pair of sincere ears.

2010-11-06T15:29:00.000Z

End of year 2010. Aghast.

None of any vocabs or words could describe the mood now.

Scientifically or logically, everything happens has a cause; every individual's story can be traced back. Hence, from my history, I should not just end up like this. Every folks praised me could be someone- in their mind someone must be holding authority, with good pay; when I enter college, peeps around though I must be someone, too- with capability, with good pay. Me myself thought that would be a good show, a show cost more than 50k. Pathetically this show ticket sold in low price.

Didn't the previous post mentioned I feel like myself is like an useless freak, peek at others picture in fb- and think how could someone lose so much weight, what bag is she using... what an valueless action! Couldn't I spend the time in something more valuable like starting own business? I'll have a strong determination for diet when seeing someone lose weight, but damn it, I'll only jealous when seeing someone has achievement.

The longer I stay in this place, the more I find myself non-capable; the longer I stay, the more I turn myself to a typical working people; the longer I stay, the farer the gap is, between me and them. Every gathering, compare their look with mine, I find myself getting smaller. Every talk, they are talking what is next plan when to buy car what house to buy, I can only listen with a smile- If you zoom into the smile, yon will see the ingredients of bitterness, and jealous. I used to show how strong am I, how tough am I, but I forgot tough and strong need the support of the s sign.

Every chat with friends, those lost contact for quite sometime, the first thing they ask must be: HOW ARE YOU?

actually my answer is: I want to die.

I already exhausted, don't bother to complain, no energy to complain. Do you know how pain is this?

The stress is from the s sign.

If we have enough, my mum will not has illness like now--mental illness is hard to cure.

If we have enough, my family will not like what it is now, quarrel break down the communication, less communication freeze the bond.

If we have enough... at least, no fake smile.

I really...really...really want the courage to jump out from this comfort zone, encouragement from some important person as support, the request not high right? The most support i need from, is the one who most demotivate me and give the most discouragement. It is like crawling into the tip of a con.

Set Me Free.

P.L.E.A.S.E.

Can the light beam in?

The Fox and The Tail

2010-10-29T15:02:00.001+01:00

I'm Foo, not Fool.
The beauty of Chinese make Foo become FOX-- 'hu' 狐
so MeeNgan Foo actually is Megan Fox, don't you think that is not just a coincidence?
okay, that's all for today bullshit.
The thing is like this, long time ago, there were 2 foxes. A fox mama and a fox daughter, fox daughter loved mama's tail very much. She said the tails was very soft, very nice to hold, holding it was like filled with happiness. Mama told her, she had the tail too, it was just right at her back side. Since then the fox daughter wanted to catch her own tail like how she hold mama's one, but neither she touch nor hold the tails. Until one day she was really frustrated, she cried to her mama. "i can't catch my tail..........i cant catch my happiness~!!!!!!!!!!!"
mama said:"you walk ahead, dont look back.... see, ur tail is following you as you walk ahead, your happiness is be with you as long as you walk ahead"
-end-

We get inspired by story, but seldom we act like the story. That's why I never see people wear glass heel; that's why i never see a girl keeps her hair so long untill can throw down from castle and let a guy climb up.

But if the story could get you to grin for a while, this is what we should be grateful of.
Guys, have a nice day.

It Just Happen

2010-10-12T18:02:00.000+01:00

got back home at this time, not this late, I think half an hour ago.
I wanted to wash cloth and take bath, but just one minute before I want to take up my pail with unwashed cloth, my housemate put his cloth in the machine; and his roommate was using the machine before him. >.< lll
what to do, wait until they finish lo.
then when I realise I should take shower first and wash others cloth with hand, my another housemate stepped into bath room. arghh!
what to do, wait until my turn lo.

sometimes, things happened, what can you do? blame the situation or blame yourself of not acting n such way so that the things happened wont happen? Things go well or not, sometime is not up to our human's control, there must be a reason of such thing happen; since we can't control the uncertain factors which ruin our day, why not we control our thought which ultimately is controlled by us?

sometimes, again, things happened just like that. You can explain but not justify.
I can explain why am I into cross so much but can't justify why.
I like just because I like how it looks like, but why am I so particular like this pattern, non justifiable.
I can explain why am I in this job but i can't justify what makes me in to this career but not others?
I can explain why do I believe in this and that but it is not justifiable why so happen this 2 things come in to my life. to be precise: Insurance and Christianity.
So i said, everything happened must have its reasons, so when it happens, just let it be.

one thing I wish to shout out loud very long time ago: I love Western culture, I love English, I love white, I even have doubt am I wrongly reincarnated into oriental country and in a conservative family.

one thing I should not deny is: I was immature when i thought I was mature enough at that age, if given my recent age, I wont be doing that or I could have a better solution if given a chance to do that again, or choose it again, or act it again.
Give me further sight, I want to see further =)

Found out

2010-10-03T11:05:00.001+01:00

Out of sudden, I have a feeling of valueless, if continuing doing what I'm doing.
Other than working; other than being asked what is the NUMBER' other than viewing friends' updates; other than viewing sexy and pretty girls' photos; other than thinking of starting up own business; other than looking for a better way out,other than entertaining those irritating people, I do nothing everyday.

Have a very good idea in brain, but not executing it yet~ say in such way to ease my guiltiness, because I don't know when am I going to start it. We can't deny flame always come and go if it is not kept flaming; this minute the thought of getting this thing done is filled in my mind, next minute i might just give it up. How ridiculous.

Was told I have a chance to present and represent, but candidates chosen are still what they used to see. Hmmm... a little bit of disappointed. If i'm given a chance, ok...I'll accept the challenge. See my title of this blog, I spit in the face of challenge. Ya, i'm waiting....

Seriously, bored to the max on my recent life. Thought of changing keep arousing me, but yet none steps are taken to make a change. In work, I dont act as proactive as before, of course! I've learnt. the more u suggest the more you need to do; it ain't a matter of doing it, but no result turn out or THEY people who occupied bigger table really expect you've done all research and all preparation, when the picture present is clear and workable, they say go ahead, and change a word of praise: WELLDONE. haha, tell u here, urge of getting higher pay is more than desire of listening to welldone, why? Because after welldone, what's next is "now u can do more and I'm expecting you to get me more value. or number.
I also become not so patient in workplace compare to last time. maybe if i were them I'll behave like this too, but now i'm not. So hardly to tolerate them. I almost lost my patient and spoke in a wrong tone, knew it has definitely ~~defended~~ offended them, what to do? what done is done, now i can only glu back the pieces of vase...cracks on the vase, just leave it. I can't serve them like im a slave. I'm paid for my job scope, if you are not contributing to my Kay Pee Eye, sorry, I'm hardly to please you; and also if I have ald told you what to do but yet you didnt do,and also call me anytime and expecting I get ur things done within 1 hour as if i'm working 24/7/7, sorry, your desire is hardly to be satisfied. I think everyone of us need to be taught what is discipline.........

Recently had a lunch with a friend, to be frank, he is my ex. He advised me to know more, M-O-R-E. He said I looked very nerd. hahahahahaha............speechless la, maybe I really am, but will not be in the future.

You know how an animal trapped in a cage? I think i'm the animal, and i can tell how does it feel. I'd rather to be torn in to pieces just to get the shit of the cage, and then the pieces to be sambung balik and Mia is back.

i just found out, there are lots to be improved.

The Best Rojak ever.

2010-09-25T16:57:00.000+01:00

he-ll-o~~

let this be a blog like ROJAK, FYI, if you don't know what is rojak.
ROJAK /roh-jahk, noun and adjective. A Malay salad-like dish with a dressing of a sweet black sauce, prawn paste and chopped peanuts. Also used as a colloquial expression for an eclectic mixto describe the multi-ethnic character of Malaysian and Singaporean society.
For those eat rojak, are those who would like to eat few fruits in small amount at one time, with various of reasons.

let this look like ROJAK.
The only reason is: the typing fella here feels like telling tons of thoughts but none in complete piece; instead of posting few posts, why not make it all-in-one, like how rojak does. Rojak is being served, NOW.

Ingredient 1:

OF COURSE this little dummy likes her JAM.OR.BREAD; else she won't be sacrificing lots of time on the imbalance output and input subject(as capital). That's so right in that track and that projects a so bright picture to her. BUT will the subject gives her what she wants? this is different story. Like her friends who like production so much, will that future projected by the ideal outcome comes true? If you believe in insistence and persistence which in the end leads most Great Men to success, make sure you are in a right track; insist and persistently walking to West to see sun rise is just a joke. Is the capital subject is a joke?

Ingredient 2:

Look back to what she is doing in her capital subject above...this is damn so fail lo. She is always like a ham of the hamburger, insert in between 2 breads and dressing + vege. Trying to be an added value ham, but the situation always make her so useless. maybe, this is another failed ham too. She hatesn of being a stupid. "THE MORE YOU KNOW, THE MORE YOU'LL KNOW HOW LITTLE YOU KNOW". She used to be strong, she wanted to be strong, everyone say she is strong. In fact, she rather to be smarter. Is an abandoned woman who works hard to bring up her children strong? Defintely!Still strong over smarter?

Ingredient 3:

the iPhone 4 has just been launched, look the 3GS. Why not wait another few months to get this? even cheaper! at that situation there were too many reasons to make her made this decision. ANYWAY, 3GS works good for her.

Ingredient 4:
she is too tired.
tired of being tired.
Why should she think so much? Why can't she go directly once identify the direction. Why others can while she is yet to achieve?

Ingredient 5:
She had nightmare, she was about to be murdered. In the dream she thought of many tricks to escape, to save others. In the end, she was rescued, but the rest? No idea, because she was woke up by alarm. Few times ald, few times she thought of tricks in dream to save people.

hey, i'm too tired to think her problems. I have a lots too.
Naturally it will be solved.

room to let @ pindah rumah

2010-09-11T13:28:00.000+01:00

no surprise, I'm again looking for a room.

damn surprise, renting a room/house out could earn so much.

current room and housemates are all right, except too little interaction. Perhaps I don't stay in living room so often, perhaps I wear only pyjamas in room, perhaps I stay in the house too little. It is really all right, except sometimes I have too fruitful imagination that someone is looking at me at the window. Everything is all right except is was a kitchen which opposite is another kitchen of neighbor. Everything is damn all right, i have water heater i have fridge i have washing machine i have internet access. The only thing not right is it is not located in somewhere where near my working place.

again, called few agents and surf quite some web pages. Why is rental cost so much? Why couldn't I myself have a house and rent 2 rooms of it out, to cover part of my installment of the house? come on Mia, can you afford to buy a house now? I whisper to God and myself, how I wish.

a 23 year-old girl has too many dreams to be achieved.
I want my own house, I want my own car.
I want money, I want lottery.

back to the end. I want what I haven't get.

今日好

2010-09-07T16:59:00.000+01:00

今天的部落用中文，不用广东话。

今天过得好。。。

我的打扮好特别；好特别的打扮令我发型好级别~

那花了不超过20块的套装穿的我格外不舒服，内层的线头刺得我浑身起鸡皮疙瘩，特高的领子令到我的短发往外翘，外翘的短发看起来真级别。衣服的线头根根刺着皮肤，人也不自主地提高。。。像是惊弓之鸟，对身边事物特别提高警惕，人也变得特别敏感。看见车子往前驶来，竟妄想它将会撞过来；眼见前方车辆摩托车快要相撞，不禁捏一把冷汗；见老摩托骑士不开灯驾驶，竟变得闷闷不乐。一切一切，就像吹涨的气球；亦像孕妇超肿胀的双脚，层皮薄得蔽眼即能见其下血丝；一刺既破。

今天过得好。。。

走在回家路上，心中想着的过去；级别得来又带点情趣。想着遭遇；级别得来带点苦笑。想着你我他的分别，即级别又混扰。摇头一想，为何变得如此多疑？即使他人对我心怀不愧，对我怀恨在心，对我误会重重，有心占我便宜，他妈的老娘人定胜天。有时候多看一眼那些人的嘴脸，少一点控制都会挥拳向以示敬，只不过越想越无能，追根究底就只有改变自己方能以双眼往下瞄人，那种人。镜子里的自己偶尔过得好辛苦，但之一于二的分别就只是多了一划少了一横，想着想着想歪了，就勒一勒自己，二就变一，一也会变二。

今天过得好。。。

听说我变“干”了。

一个女子变干即变“奸”

变奸没有错，变奸保护自己更是天公地道；只是奸不来的鼠鹿要如何跟豺狼拼斗？

一面数着粮银，一面想着。。。

坐在快乐城看着老婆婆经过，变干的鼠鹿被滋润了一下。

好不快乐哦～～～

补充，是眼睛被滋润了一下。　

今天过得好。。。

级别。

这几天过得好级别。

过去那星期过得好级别。

不过那级别发型的始作俑者－－不过２０块的衣服让我想通一件事。

一件衣服里面的线头令我精神紧绷；一个头脑里的线头令我想的太多。

放松一下，等待旅行吧。　

我想，死在雪山也是个浪漫的悲剧。（鸡蛋！那该死的韩剧烧掉吧！）

放松一下，冲个凉，睡觉吧。

我想，睡醒后我是个变干的女鼠鹿，头颅内不相干的线头也被挑走了！

今天还有两份钟。

明天要过得更好。

言的利，这次我写的部落比你的抽象吧。哈哈！

Respect

2010-08-31T04:41:00.001+01:00

今日我要讲既系: 尊敬-respect-menghormati- "junee-geng"(Cantonese) - "June-keen" (Hakka)

有好多理由令小妹尊敬你敬佩你；但系只有一个理由令我不尊敬你，就是你吾将我放在眼内！我好声好气讲, 有礼貌甘问,皆因我知书识礼, 就吾似D 人, 揸住鸡毛当令箭.
well, i can't stand of using Chinese to type as it is real slow + inefficient; as like I can't stand and can't keep myself to tolerant on your behavior.

If you think that is a way of protecting yourself, what do you think I'll trap you by merely few words? Why can't you just response when people ask you earlier? why must you reply at the very last minute when people ask in a very formal way. ok, you can say you are very busy, but your phone still functional right? or you have blacklisted me from leaving a miss call on your phone? You can say you are sophisticated wolf, and i can say i'm a born jerk.If you say I didn't keep you in loop, my apology; but since centuries ago I made a change of keeping you in loop what, oh~ now is your turn to revenge? Your trick, I know it quite well and witnessed it quite sometime; i understand you don't need to apply the idiot and non-genuine trick on me, oh thanks ya! My sincere and deeply apology if I put an ass between u and me, but i can't help not to think you are that type of person. AND, u know how to cry, I know how to shed tears also.

In this society, not yet transformed to a capitalism society as America does, but the philosophies of a dog can only bark louder after they caught a thief is always exist. I mean, if you wanna be a barking dog, make sure you did something. What makes you yelling on me?
- Age? then you are a real fucker who abuse your years of experiences!
- your achievement? then you are a real failure because you didn't show you have any!
- Race.....? haha, then you are a real prisoner that should be jailed.
- or by the dirt on your teeth which proved you ate too much and smoked too much?
- ooooh, by the annual income that you have more than me....hey, who the hell are you on earth to judge I won't earn more then you in the future?

-You know how to spell RESPECT doesn't mean you do it well.
If you don't respect me at the first place, how do you expect me to respect you?-

I always respect PEACE, if you wan to break the bone, reverse the PEACE, you deserve it.

-

NAH

Determination

2010-08-29T15:58:00.000+01:00

Everyone said I gained weight when i back to Ipoh, this really stimuli my determination of DIET-ing. I never shame of revealing my weight, it is 57 now, there was one time went up to 59. This freaked me out, but since working in the office, the least weight i had was 56; 57 is the fattest moment i had at 4 years back, then I had my very intense diet program, in 2 weeks time, it dropped to 50. *clapssss* but side effect was i dreamt of various of food.

how i had it was:

breakfast: cereal + milk.

lunch : nasi lemak (i didnt know it was diet killer, however i still lost weight)

dinner : oat ( must have it before 6pm)

beside this, i had 2- 3 hours exercise everyday

since then i maintained my weight from 50-53, untill the day before I joined the current company. within 6 months, i gained about 5-6 kg, and the worse is they are planning to make me having 51%growth on my weight =.=ll

Joke is joke, I wont compromise to such 'good faith'

no matter how hard i tried, the least i had was 50, never drop lesser than 49 since 16 years old.

I declared: the war of dieting start today onwards!

-less sugar, i drank Milo and coffee too much in office, cut it down!

-less oil, although i never like this, but since start working till now, consuming oily food is much more frequent then total amount that i had consumed in the past one year.

-less salt (eating with colleagues sometime put me in a dead end, this is peer pressure)

-Have dinner before 6.30pm (which means strictly no supper!)

-Exercise, this is somehow quite difficult, unless I leave office earlier.

today is the first day of Dieting

erm, still consumed quite some amount of food, but they were braised meat and vege, few bites of ayam bakar and i consume a lot of fruit.

Fruit is a must =)

i cant diet without fruit =)

to be cont

Unforgettable

2010-08-12T16:59:00.002+01:00

I was thinking to write a abstract one, to describe my mood, actually nothing to tell, I mean don't feel like telling. So i surfed net, and found clips below.

You will never know how much I loved band, being in military band and orchestra. I was willing to argue with my mum because of it. In fact I shouldn't use past tense, i'm still loving them. It is clear in my mind I love to watch any performances when i was secondary student, and was given a palm-stamp by my mum.

arghhh....without bullshiting, just wanna share some clips with u..

USA nation theme song-STAR AND STRIPS FOREVER.

This is hard...

THE NEW COLONIAL MARCH. previous one is from USA; this is from UK.

I'm damn happy that i'm still able to play the fingering, 80% of it. Hello, i've been away from this more than 5 years okay? See, how much this is engraved in my memory.

ahhhhhh~~~~ this is it! Theme Song of Jurassic Park!

You'll never know how much I'm hooked to this song; behind has a beauty story.

Because of this, i hurt my knee...

I didn't have discman, neither have a CD of it, forget about downloading as that was about 9 years ago...

I took a recorder to record it, when the theme song was playing in the end of the movie, since then the tape accompanied me fro years, until I was form 5...

this is the exactly same version as I always listened to.

then, someone bought me a CD of it. hmm.....all memories.....

this will takes you about 20 minutes if you listen every clip. XD

enjoy~

Law of Nature

2010-08-08T09:58:00.002+01:00

Law of Nature-- it is you will scream when you are frighten out. this is just a very simple example.
This law's content is set by nature and thus it is validity everywhere, according to Aristotle, this is the common law according to the nature. In shot, this is just a common sense or any behavior, response that is deemed as NATURE.

In Chinese proverb, there is a sentence said: one type rice cultivate hundred types of people. How true is it, you will know when you look around. I met somebody, very... petty, this doesn't mean she is stingy in spending, i think "small-town-manner" would be more suitable. She is just nice, but a very typical revenger; and will feel offended if her idea is not adopted or accepted. What i can say is she has very own style, doesn't like means doesn't like, maybe this is called spontaneous. But look from other perspective, she said she will not show good face to people who offend her, when the person is with her she talks nicely with people. Sometime I will think, am I one of the person in her list? Talking bad of me in front of others but talking nicely with me. She said she doesn't like to entertain people, very fake; sometimes I think, aren't you faking almost all the time? She said she hate the person who take care of own ass, I think aren't you doing the same? This made me very depress sometime. Doesn't mean you hate the person, then drag me into water. If you talk about the matter of fair, I think isn't it you should fair to me at the first place? One type rice cultivate one of those person, i'm glad I'm not in this category.
What does this to do with the title above?
according to Law of Nature, this is instinct of every human? but according to my adoption to Law of Nature, I think better keep myself away from telling her gossip (yes,sometimes we do talk about this), better just hear but not listen to what she said(when that is not advice), better get myself away from ANY conflict, better keep myself shut up. To alive this is the formula; to survive, I'm still looking for the formula.
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before end the story, let me show something.

this is what I saw when I on my lappy and MSN.
isn't the 2 most visible picture showing the same pose? haha....

p/s: the eagle is missing the wind, so do the wind missing the eagle.

what for keeping it if dont want?

2010-08-02T17:40:00.000+01:00

if don't want it, what for keeping it?

I've been thinking to cut it short since....N months ago, ok. done now.

look pretty much difference?

i tell everyone, will grow back one.

no worries.

Titleless.

2010-07-29T15:29:00.000+01:00

My hands are on keyboard quite sometime but couldn't even type a single word.

Doesn't this show I have a lot to express but have no way to start from?

So, there are some self-blaming issue-- sometimes i'm really lose control.

at the other side of the coin, how can I not tolerate to those people? say it like: i have to...

but thanks God....someone told me something and from there i realize some others thing.

yea lo! get the right spot light and grow under the right light.

this morning ald felt the wrongness, so msg a friend. He replied: do whatever your goal has set, there is no right or wrong but only win or lose. Hey this is the truth this is the reality; how can one deny this?

but but but, selective listen can be a good approach if it is applied correctly; whatever might be hurtful, forget it, adopt the encouraging part. I mean, hey Mia, you know you are capable of,centuries of pressure suppress on a right stone and make it into a raw diamond, correct approach makes it into a valuable shinning diamond. Let's see how long this diamond needs; I make it 2 years, all right? =)

almost done my self-encouragement part. Time to share some F-up thing.

I've never seen people have such a high pride and dignity when others was asking for their name. fine, dont tell, vertical or horizontal, have to tell after meeting the Lord.

k, time stop here.

to be cont.

faking

2010-07-19T18:04:00.000+01:00

I love my job, love my company, love my colleague.

I gained knowledge, gained experiences, most importantly....

I gained weight.

but why does the title would be FAKING?

it is nothing to do with the post, the content of the title will not be written here, even if it is, you won't realize too.

Zebra protecting itself with the stripes what, this is instinct ability.

Anyway...

back to the content. Simply post up some pictures and from there you can see how much weight I've gained in very short few months time.

2009 Central Annual dinner @ April 5 2010.

I was geisha, digitalized geisha who plays laptop instead of instrument.

2009 National Annual Dinner@ April 16 2010.

normal dinner dress.

2010 staff dinner @ July 17.

Go Green, the only Green element on me was--the vest.

all old items, perfectly fit into GO GREEN concept. Recycle, Reuse what.

See the pictures, you will realize this Mia gains alot weight. WTF. whatever.

When I decided to do means I will do and I can make it. Diet anytime.

Accidentally found an old photo. Apparently I'm not there, they are all with stick. XD

ok, my very first bf is in this photo.

(tips: first row with colored waist bell)

to be cont.

Good night.

wtf Spring and Autumn fact.

2010-07-11T12:28:00.001+01:00

In the ancient China empire- there was once a period called: Spring and Autumn period. Which and which states involved in the war is not elaborated here. Let's zoom it into a one of the state involved, state of Lu, then zoom in into the warriors department..

There was a system to train warriors, so few teams were assigned to train and sharpen those new and existing warrior; however the tactic to be used in the battle field were the same shit: attack, strike, defend...
can you see the picture? no matter new or existing warriors had to go though same shit theories training, but because of the difference in level, they had to be separated into different team.

Facilitator said: "we work in a team, although each has different task"
In the end of the day, whether you can protect the head on your neck was determined by how many warriors left in your team.
what a pathetic fact.

There is no way to let the Spring and Autumn period story put my mood down. After all, shout internally may help the problem.
Or, wash face with cold water will do.

I miss you, can i meet you again?

2010-06-28T17:35:00.000+01:00

I miss you.

yes, i miss you

That was a sunny day; and I was at the land that I dream to be at.

Kinda fed up when peers shouting of disappointed and blaming the burning weather; but I was satisfied by walking down the hot sun, with the self rolled ciggie. My mood was there; and yet part of it was gone.

The scene came into my mind again and again. The famous places always appear in movies as if reminding me I've been there or urging me to go back for once? I swear, I'll be back.

That was a wonderful experience. If i have only 3 months life left, good bye my friends, I will spend all my money to go back there. Not sentimental, but an unrealistic and not mundane choice of ending one's life.

On the way back, i met her.

this has been written down in entries last year.

Was an old lady who can only speak Italian.

"Ciao, bella~"

my last word to her.

i remember her eyes were looking at me.

She smile at me when I look into her eye.

tiredness all gone.

what a kind old lady.

She started to ask me a lot of questions, but sadly I couldn't understand Italian.

Her face of frustration of couldn't make me understand her looked cute; and I was pointing here and there, trying to use body language to answer.

within 10 minutes, we communicated a lot; but both of us couldn't catch a ball.

the only thing I knew was, she was a piano teacher. When she showed her fingers, all bended and distorted.

I can understand how tough Makxim to be a great pianist now

before we get down from the bus, i took out my camera, ask for her permission to take a photo.

She was willingly took with me; and happily squeezed on my face.

My turn of getting distorted on part of my body.

What a perfect match with cute *-----* finger and cute *-----* face.

When we got down, she was waving her hands to us with a white handkerchief. How lovely this old lady is.

Ohhh....

i miss you.

till then, I have a silly request. Can any one knew this old lady, leave me a clue where can I meet her again?
I'm Mia.

as simple as calculation

2010-06-26T14:10:00.000+01:00

Anything with formula, there must be an answer.
So a clever one thinks nothings is going to escape from his strategically calculated outcome.
He is clever, no doubt, but not smart.
because he is dealing with humanized maths.
Simple than additional maths; harder than additional maths. (sorry, my level until additional maths which stopped at Form 5 only, nevertheless, i scored 1A. XD)

Humanized maths is simple, because the formula is what you used to practice everyday; formula is hard because you don't know if the way you practice is a correct one. Or should I say there is no exact formula?
Exactly. Can you say a thief is absolutely WRONG? Undeniably, he is wrong because he steals; but who knows the reason behind of his ethically-not-recognized- stealing behavior? Maybe, he has no choices, death-god is calling his son due to hungriness. Steal, he is wrong, society not recognize; not to steal, his is wrong, because fail to execute the responsibility of being one's dad. hey, this is the humanized maths.

back to my concern.
the story will be never written down.
close one eye, see nothing, but the car is still coming.
if you know what is comfort zone, then you will know what i'm talking about.

till here.
bye.

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

2010-06-16T19:56:00.000+01:00

before this, take note at the title.
" Our birthday are feathers in the broad wing of time" (Richter, Jean, 1763-1825)
Bare with my little plagiarism , I could't find the exact bibliography of the quote above, but nevertheless it is a NICE quote.

ok, very soon, almost without realize, another birthday has came, I've spent 2hours and 28 minutes of my birthday. After all, you will realize birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Let's recall my last birthday at http://mia-patra.blogspot.com/2009/06/22-of-mine.html
that's was my birthday in UK. =)

This year, year 2010. One day before 17 June, I had my first section of small little talk for my company, previously was doing emcee job, finally today I took the first step to talk on CAREER. A plausible one=)

after that, I had my FIRST time driving in KL.
where my courage and guts come from? Didn't I worry and concern so much on "what if I crash?"
choyyyy! eliminate the negative thought! so I drove. Nothing happen, hey, worse come to worst, got sound one ma...if you could catch what I mean. haha

I know Yao was damn gan cheong sitting beside me. You try to let a driver with 6 years license but few months experiences drive your boss car, see how you feel? haha. by the way, his boss is my boss. So I'm glad I took the first step.

Nothing beat a piece of cake with sincerity. A cake from a friend who takes a lot care on me. If you read this, I'd like to say thank you.

Carrer, started with 4 bucket theory. What is your dream man?

I was giving a little sharing on that. I know where my strength at, the only problem is I've been hiding it behind and pushing it to corner. It's time to dig it out.

Hey, others see the strengths in you! your kinder garden teacher until secondary school teacher saw your strength, how could you let it just fade away like that?

It's been a very long time didn't take a photo. Recently look yong shui la. Dont know is it because work under pressure and heavy work load, I'm too tired and lazy to take care of myself.

talk about my hair. It looks messy and curly! hey, I'm not type of rambut keriting one, just I tied my hair too much, and that is the knot left permanently on my hair. The only way to get rid of it is either to do rebonding or cut it away! I'm considering both. But I drop quite a number of hairs....Probably I'll go for second choice.

boy cut dyed with COPPER RED color, or bob hair?

But serious, I need to take a good care of myself.

No one has more obligation to take care of your own self but you.

ok, almost 3 in the mid night. Time to meet Mr Chow; South Africa and Uruguay is still in the match, South Africa already get a yellow card. All the best

*whisper to myself* "happy birthday"

simple thoughts.

2010-06-10T17:15:00.000+01:00

just a photo, but it includes few thoughts.

1- i did something silly, real silly.

2- It tells the fact that i'm missing there. a place with white.

3. I just want to be with my another half like the couple sitting on the candy-bench when we are old.

that's all, finish.

happy happy!

2010-05-28T06:27:00.000+01:00

i don't know bleeding can be so happy..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

what if i tell the truth? more happy or feel releasing?

indifferent.

I'm still as happy as always.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot tells better than words.

猫

2010-05-16T10:09:00.002+01:00

14划

算

算了吧。

Been There.

2010-05-10T17:21:00.001+01:00

How are you? On and Off you appeared in my mind, although I'm moving on.

"we are just two parallel lines, moving but never crossed"

Just like the cameras, you have wide screen function when taking pictures, I have my 8GB memory card to store pictures, no matter how dark the sky is, the picture is captured, the memory is left.

I've to tell myself, look back means stay, stay means no progress. No progress isn't what you want. So, i moved. Moving forward. Human, is a tiredness enabled creature, when I'm tired, when I'm in the mood, I'll stop by, to look back. This moment, I see clearer what is in front of me; I see where am I.

Don't know if you are awared, TIME is the greatest thief. Last summer I was there, and now another summer is coming. You are ready to shout "fucking asian",year by year, every year the same kind of yellow piece of monkeys are jumping in the streets; you shout to the same species, one of the species is missing you so much. I think, I'm not missing you that much, I just miss the time I spent there.

If I could give up everything here, I will move into your armpit..yes, you kertiak. =D

So I salute to myself

you know why, just like a kid push her head towards her dad's chest, then her dad hold her tight with his kertiak.

or like me, lie on your chest, and you hold me with your arm, and buried my head under your kertiak.

I know, kertiak there, is forever cleaner than what I have now.

If you, Jumbo could with me, buried head under the kertiak....

FAINT.

To Be Cont.....

the very first time

2010-05-03T17:42:00.000+01:00

Nothing more than food.

Recently my life is full with work only, as well as absorbing knowledge, you know no ending in learning process ya. I don't know in the future, for now i'd think not enough time to work, it would be good of working full month. However, sometimes a little bit of recharge helps release tension a lot.

So, i went back to Ipoh at Saturday, back to KL at Sunday.

and I tried very good food in Ipoh, in Pondok Mushroom for the very first time. Don't ask why this was my first time, am I from Ipoh?

without further ado(if this could be applied here), here we start the short yet intense food trip.

look at the white light board, you can tell how old it is. 70s? i don't know about the rojak, but the curry mee is the best! Very typical Ipoh taste, I'm not saying KL's not tasty, it is! the difference is KL's spiciness very impact-full, Ipoh's very hometown taste, spicy with fragrant.

This was the first food I ordered. Oyster fried egg, so bad we were, messaged Babee and sent the photos for her, criminally seduce her temptation! XD so happen that she hadn't taken dinner yet, those photos definitely caused her saliva.

was introduced by T-sue babe, she said the grill fish is good. I'm strongly oppose with her! The grill fish is I-CHI-BAN neh! Superb! When I was ordering, I was a little bit skeptical with the size of the fish not as big as what I see in KL, anyway, i chose the smallest one, serve for 2 only what. Surprisingly, the fish was look small, but fresh was very thick. Then i knew it was too much for 2....

Grill fish, among all i've tasted, normally the fresh very dry one, and they use alot paste to cover the dried up fresh, this is another good grill fish that I've tried after Hai Ou in Danao Kota. This, paste quite alot also, but the most important part was the fresh, still very juicy although the skin was grill to burned.

I was ordering this for fun only, unexpected, first bite already captured my soul. The peel was so crunchy! see the brownish triangle that facing you? yes, that is it...

sometimes the F-tard wans to show her face too. see how tender the white fresh is..

needless to say.

I never know mua-chi can be served hot one lo. XD

so so so soft and delicious.

also needless to say, he is another F-tard.

Bella said

2010-04-28T18:17:00.000+01:00

I know you might ask, who is this? Without looking to the lens makes me even more terrify.

Fine! now I look into the lens, look into you eyes, so, how you feel it? I'm Bella-patra from Italy, Mia chosen and bought me among thousand stalls in Venice, she said I caught her eye. She said bought me more than 6 months, but never show me to others, that's why I'm here, also I'm assigned with an important task---update her blog. Maybe in the following days, I'll be doing updating on behalf of her.

Nothing much to say, I know she is tired, let her rest =) I'll do her part of blogging, to be more accurately, updating, update her life within this few days.

Just attended a LOA class, Law of Attraction, pretty useful if you think logically; amazingly powerful if you believe it completely. LOA simply takes the principle of "LIKE ATTRACT LIKE", universal react to your unconsciously/ consciously wish by giving you more of the same, if you happy and wish for more happiness, the vibration you emit attract more of the same--which is happiness; if you are sorrow, keep mood down, JIALAT, the vibration emitted attract more of the same---which is more SORROWFULNESS.

XD, if you wake up, look at the mirror and say: why do I looked so yong shui one? Congratz, you wish come true, you will looked as what u wish--YONG SHUI.

Basically how it works, for Mia, in short, is to be positively believe it will happen, of cause you have to put in effort. Think logically, sometimes the hope you wish might be a bit unrealistic, but believe it will happen, at least you do it completely with you heart, and be positive and optimistic to the outcome is forever better than think passively and be pessimistic. When one is optimistic and positive, the one is vibrant; vice versa, the one will be live dully. This is think logically.

This is the photo of Mia's colleague, partners etc etc. They also attended the LOA class.

Soon, was weekend. Mia treated her panda aka Doraemon aka Jumbo aka Feixiang aka Fei Zei...dim sum breakfast. This is the..within fingers of a palm of Mia treating him. Reason being: he promised won't let Mia take money from wallet what, better keep your promise! Else I stare at you when you are sleeping! Remember how I look like? Scroll up and see! Imagine if I'm right in front of you and staring at you in the midnight when you feel like waking up to answer the nature call. hee hee hee hee~~~

I don't understand why did he look so reluctant? Probably just finish work in the early morning? =/

These 2 creatures finished all....phew....=.= Now I understand why does Mia always want to have diet plan.

Soon......is Monday again.
Does it look familiar? SUBWAY. The bread that accompanied them for quite sometime. This is super cheap in UK, 99p only (untill 11.am). Mia's mates always eat it in between the slot of lecture and tutorial class, there is a SUBWAY located near by their Uni, after they had lecture class(finished about 10am), they will walk to another venue, on the way will pass by the SUBWAY. Every morning there are bunch of Asian students queuing to grab the cheap breakfast. Mia didn't consume always, for her, 99p is RM 6, still expensive. =p
Still,SUBWAY leave her a lot memories.
When she was queuing to buy the localized bread, she was actually flew back to the SUBWAY, which just mentioned.

Taste? Globalization standardize the taste, but she still like the UK's most.

Lastly for this entry, Mia likes to post foods' pictures. Good or bad.
This is from one of the stalls that she has tried and agree with its quality. Located at PJ 222 , don't ask her direction, she can't tell. Such a road idiot.
Her boss tried this when he was having dinner+supper there. Guess what? Extra nutritious FLY! Her boss found it in the Hokkien Mee that they ordered. Aiks....
I think her boss,as a smart consumer, will fight for his right...

Lucky Mia didn't consume. XD
She had tried once in Wangsa Maju, there is a stall near by the round about, called 'SaKorBua' (3.50), because most of the fried rice, mee, special cook for the day were sold RM 3.50(story few years ago). She ordered Rice with egg gravy, the fourth or fifth bite, she found an 'object' which look like cockroach, then she raised her hand up and ask...who knows the fella took her plate of rice, straight walk to kitchen, few minutes later give her back the same plate of rice and said: just a prawn head. When she looked at the so called prawn head, has already out of shape, she can't recognize it , end up, leave without finish it, and yet paid for it. Sometimes she is just this stupid. =p

update complete. good night.

One Night Stand

2010-04-24T12:07:00.000+01:00

Shock and excited to read when see the title? I have a habit, a real weird habit of using what ever thing I glimpsed at to be title. i'm listening to a song- Daniel Powter- Free loop, the title is mentioned in the lyric, so.....

Ok,please proceed to reading.

Life won't change until you've made a move, same to fat.

I'm thinking to use 'same old same age' as title, but it is not a truth, i'm making changes, at least, i'm take initiative to change.

Sometimes i'm really angry with myself of being careless. you know how it feels?

You already remind yourself in the heart, already checked the things that you gonna to do, already.....You thought you've done it. You thought things are settled. In the end, you realized, you were told...things are not going this way. o.0

We should have own secret,don't we?

So that's all for this. next I'm gonna show how life is going.

With my colleague. Don't you feel the chicken and charsiew look familiar? They just appeared in my post few days ago.

That is a song with lyrics "what hurt the most was being so close", by Rascal Flats- what hurt the most. Absolutely correct. The guy closest with you hurt you the most.

how does it relate to this photo? Do you think you use a gadget with care, then the technological product won't spoil? I spent thousand over to buy a phone 18 months ago, after 2 or 3 months, it had problem, until last month, the phone protested its determination of wanted to be kept in drawer with idiotic action, it doesn't functions well as a basic phone, I can't even make a call - ERROR CONNECTION every time when i attempt to call people. I don't make call for fun okay? i can't find any reason to keep it.

There were a lot stories after this which I feel lazy to describe, the end result was i bought a new phone.

I was telling my friend :I dont feel any excitement of owning a new phone. which is true. I don't feel any, until now. I hope this could accompany me for a long time.

Lastly, I'm listening to music, music that accompanied me the most in another side of the globe. i thought i got back to the place with big wind and cold weather.

I realize i can't use word to describe the place anymore, perhaps at this moment only. Hopefully it isn't because of feel faded away. I'm moving on, but wishing to bring the memories with me.

It is always in the top of the list, in my notes of happiness.

再不堪回首的，曾经也是快乐和值得珍惜的回忆。

Life is like rowing upstream

2010-04-17T08:00:00.000+01:00

Life is like rowing upstream; not to advance is to dropback.

不

进

则

退

言毕。

luck- seh....

2010-04-17T07:53:00.000+01:00

by seeing the title LUCK-SEH...sounds like something good things happened on me, LUCK what...
If you know cantonese or chinese dialects, then you will know LUCK SEH means---did something embarrassing.

see the picture, spot me?

the one looking at the floor with purple dress, black legging.

this was happened at my company's national annual dinner, i'm part of the committee, but not as devoted as the rest. When the emcee announced committees to go up on the stage, I was following the rest going up. When I was on the way to the stage, I saw people around were those top management in the team...swt...I was shouting in my heart: oh my god! you silly girl...

but what to do, i was already on the way up, turn and go down the stage is another silly action!

act like very proud, hit five with everyone on the stage, clapped hands, then go down the stage with an embarrassing face was what I did.

Lucky was my bosses and seniors all said no problem, not an issue. but personally i was really.....luck-seh.

The best CharSiew

2010-04-11T15:33:00.001+01:00

When you type 'XXX' (whatever food you feel like eating) on browser, thousand of link appeared, out of the thousand, 90% is food blogger. I don't know blogging also become career =.=
Recognize the fact that I won't be competing with them, won't be stand out of the crowd pun, so I don't establish own food blog.

Come to this entry, I tried this last month, 25th March i think. Char Siew in Sea Park, named Ah Kai famous chicken rice. The owner called Stephen, didn't look like local, but speak very fluent Cantonese. He told me he is going to USA soon, white man like his CharSiew, and provide him modal to open business there.
The taste of the Char Siew stayed on tongue for whole day, I should have posted the food since then, but the phone I was using was sent to ICU---ops, is buried in graveyard... can't even retrieve the photos in that phone.
After 17 days, today I tried the food again.
One day before-yesterday lah... I googled the location of the shop, because I can't recognize the direction to be there, accidentally, I read a blog which introduce roast duck which is opposite to the shop, say very good wo...Since were there already, bought a set for two and tried out. Roasted duck picture, as below.

Frankly say, I'm not into fuc...sorry sorry, I'm not into duck, so it didn't arouse excitement of my taste bud. One thing I like of the duck is, it doesn't taste too oily. Normally a delicious duck must pair with abundance of oil, this is different. Looked dry? because I didn't pour the gravy, I rather called it soup, because it doesn't taste thick. =)

This is the roasted chicken from Ah Kai(the owner- Stephen). As said, tasty food must be paired with oil, this is unwritten rule, so the chicken is quite...moisturize=D. I've no comment to chicken, all this while I like to eat chicken. As long as it doesn't taste really bad, I won't give negative comment.

Fair...but I'd like to give complement to its well roasted chicken skin, it tasted crunchy, and soft meat, which not every stall could make it. *thumb up*

This is the main character~~~ Deng x 4!!!

Remember the first time I ate this Char Siew, it was totally surprised me out! ok, seriously I'm not into CharSiew--not into pork, or meat. I thought the meat was just like what I tried before, so when i first put it into my mouth, I saw firework on my head. XD...can you tell how surprised I was and how delicious it is!

Caramelled Charsiew surface was burned to charred, and tender inside. The transparent fat split the tender meat and charred skin, guiltily high calories, high fat and high cholesterol, irresistible..Amen, Buddha mercy...

Total we settled with roasted duck for 2 (RM11), damn tasty Charsiew and roasted chicken for 2(RM 13, teh ice and special teh C ice (RM1.50 and 2.5)

As for first time I went, was together with colleague. 4 of us settled with 2 big plates of Charsiew, roasted chicken sold out when we were there(1pm++), guys worried if merely eating Charsiew would not filled there stomach, then they ordered stir fired kangkong for 3, guess how much? RM20!!! And the boss whom also the boss of the kopitiam justified: this is pretty reasonable, they count per head one, you ordered fro 3 persons, supposedly should be 24, we charged 20, it is worthy. End up, they charged us 15, but still expensive what! fry kangkong only...If i buy RM15 kangkong to throw you, you can die la wei~~~As can foresee, after Stephen moved to USA, the restaurant can roll ald, menggulung tilam. XD

finally

Hey guys, teach you one word: F.tard.

F...ing retard.

what is it? the picture shows....

Words from Mr Ong.

just like that

2010-04-04T19:22:00.000+01:00

At this time, when the digital clock on my lappy's screen is showing 1253, I should have slept, should be meeting with Mr Chow, but the fact is I'm not. I'm blogging. Last post is a crap, isn't it? Someone told me something which I've recognized before it is pointed out, quite hurt of that few words. Who knows words with care would turned to harm? No one wants, but the Gemini is too sentimental sometime. "Nothing gonna defeat me?" sounds too naive and optimistic; I'm just always trying not to be defeated.

Apples bought at last week, are still kept in fridge, it reminds me : Hey, busy huh?

in fact, not that busy, just because of working, I canceled a beneficial class that I suppose to attend.

Come to my job, frankly say, at least not dislike, but his job could turn me to another people, skill to survive. I give myself a period of time, keep my finger crossed, I can achieve what i want, if can, I would like to stay more than 5 years here, another 3% of the fund. haha...

talk about my *eh hem*....this is quite sensitive topic, especially when you've worked long enough. I don't like to reveal the exact number, sometimes it is one of the few things could make me feel secured. It is unfair i know, but I really jealous people dont need to pay rental, dont need to bother about expenses on transport, dont need to think about food. If i could save all this, it gives me extra 800-900 per month... Seniors in life always say, "slow slow come" (means slowly you will have), slowly save you will have abundance of saving, slowly work you will be at high level(means promoted). The moment you're saving, the value of things around are inflating, quite sad but it is true. Dont want to face the reality,then turn you face aside; but the impact still hits on you. I back to be part time freelance girl, gotta appreciate this title, soon girl will turn to matured girl, please note that, MATURED. The pay is so less, lesser than last time, supposedly, theoretically pay should increase by year, but it declined! I was standing there and think: I'm selling my time...this is passive, go to maximum 30 working days per month, earn 4-5k, but whole day gone, work 12 hours perday,plus time travel go and back. but do you think you still can earn this figure 5 years later? and 5years later, how much 5 k meant to you?

A doctor, Chinese traditional doctor told me: you are weak...

o.0

i doubt. all this while i'm doing fine. Until yesterday, I realized, I really turned weaker. Headache, dizziness all come to me recently. Especially yesterday, I feel like falling down at the mall, can't walk straight, and yet I run towards the entrance when it was 10pm. Supposedly i should take more care on myself, how about consume more food supplement? how about eat more nutritious food? you know what, you dont have a choice when you are working. Someone could do it, but the one must have sacrifice alot, like networking.

Jacky chong's song comes to my mind,　如果这就是爱～～～but i changed a little bit, 如果这就是life~~~~

also to mention: I have a fren, not so close always complaint this and that, complaint life no good, complaint job, want holiday... hey, you have a good life okay! at least you still carrying nice and branded bag, alot of clothes, got few cars to drive, family burden not falls on you.

如果这就是life~~~~

this is how different of human life.

Summary of March

2010-03-31T18:39:00.003+01:00

Feel like blogging for dayssss, topicsssss flash in and out but couldn't grab a solid thought and start with a right word, that is...feel so constipating-- things stuck inside somewhere but hardly to excrete them out.

Since the day I had an argument with a BITCH-- it happened in LRT. The bitch deliberately stepped her foot on my toe and waved her hand at my waist because of she didn't has enough place to stand, made me so empathize on her limbs coordination disorder; no body would do that on the person stand next to you in a crowded LRT except for below 2 reasons，

1- she is so naive and childish to think what she did was helping her to express her dissatisfaction of I didn't make a move in order to let her has bigger space for her huge age-mid-50-looked body, while I could barely stood with my feet opened like my shoulder size. (too long description =p), OR

2- I'm so fucking narrow-minded and petty to angry on a limb coordination disorder patient.

Obviously the latter one didn't happen, if she has limbs coordination problem, she wouldn't said: "you are so proud of standing; now I can sit!" wtf!!!?????(she said this to me)

too long to describe the story here. Seriously,no body would do things like the BITCH, yes, no body...this kinda creature, I named them : NO BODY.

Then, I'd like to post a topic of no body. I've observed there are too many people living mundanely in a stressful world, so they are more likely to use their little tiny authority or advantage or do nonsense things, to fulfill their need, to balance their mental imbalance. BUT due to time constraint, sleeping hours insufficiency, vocab shortage, unable to visualize thought into words, till now, the post of NOBODY still yet to be finished.

your vibe emits the energy, and it attracts more of the same to you.

Sounds really... nonsense, literally. XD, for a simple understanding, it simply means, to be positive and strongly, confidently believe that what you want is about to be realized, it is coming.

So, I'm trying hard to practice, some success some were failure.

Success: I want a good week, following days after the incident in LRT, thus I tasted a lot good food. (it puts on my weight too>.<)

People know me well understand that I'm not into oily food...whatever fried food, salty food. Since I work, it change little by little, there are too many good foods around. So I went to a CHAR SIEW stall in a restaurant in TMN PARAMOUNT. The first and ever I'm missing a food so much. Took some pictures, but my phone spoiled ald, can't transfer to my lappy, here start the story of failure practice after the good one.

My phone really spoiled, I was so determine I want my phone back to normal, I don't even wish for a new phone yet....Unfortunately, it left me....it dumped me...Sadistic lady always wouldn't let object force her to a corner...In the end, I thrown the phone onto the wall... hahahahahahahaha, and of course, certified, announced death, declared dead! (XD vs T_T)

what happened in my March? just like that....

I'm so so so so so sleepy...want to sleep now. I'm sure pretty much mistake in this post. Whatever la, damn sleepy d... Good Night and Happy fool

Linkage made by patches .

2010-03-14T17:17:00.001Z

there are something that I don't know how to put on mouth.

there are something I don't know how to act, don't even know where to start the act at.

there are something I over look and don't know how big the impact is.

I've been thinking of him, the consequences after I did something.

I have a friend, i call him my brother, abang angkat. Not a formal one, not yet gone through a ceremony =D, and just finish reading some of his posts. my heart sour quite a lot after read his post, he broke up with his ex who about to engage with.

I had him, an important person in my life though. He taught me quite a lot, brought me happiness too. What was the most exciting thing was to wait him home in a mundane life. Days gone, years pass. In the end of our relationship, I said let's break in a firm stand. Yes, he beg for patching; he asked for chances. I was so firm to say no. We've been together for 3 years and 5months; I keep thinking of him recently, even before his mum called me. Scenes together flashed back, yea, we went through sweet time, rarely had argument.

He said he never thought of i would left him.

He said after I went his life was miserable.

All i know, is wishing him to have a great life ahead.

after him, was another whom I don't feel to talk any more. I've been blogging and talking too much of him. He even appears in our conversation.

Why would I so sentimental when I read my abang angkat's blog? Why would I so sour when I put myself on his stand (my bro and my ex)?

I'm thinking if one day the one I rely on leave me again. Can I cope with this?

barely could accept.

You can say i'm an independent girl, you can be terrified when I'm in real independent, it means I don't need you; but I feel like losing the desire to be one. I have a big arm, huge body and 'bak-bak' shoulder to rely on, and it is too comfortable to rely on. Sometimes I hate myself of loving one, because i feel like losing the real me. wthhhhh.

Somehow somewhat I'm willing to. (*)

Just now was chatting with a friend from USA, we have a big age gap, she is ald 65 years old.

She told me his husband was hospitalized for 8 weeks. I'm not pessimistic, but too far sight to foresee something. Few decades later how if he leave me before I do?

leave me a huge amount of inheritance will do. XD

ok, back, I just want a stable life, where we can live happily.

every Sunday, I'm damn long necked to wait for Tuesday coming; after that is waiting for coming Friday.

So now, I'm waiting for Tuesday again.

Compare (and there you finish)

2010-03-09T17:02:00.004Z

One thing I don't deny, I have quite a lot of friends; quite a lot of friends in opposite sex.

So when they complain their gf to me,I always try to be mediator; however deep down my heart, I'm despising the girl...for me,I do think being in a relationship, both parties should have put efforts instead of only insist say, guys should be more devoting. I mean, both should be reasonable. So, It causes me to put myself in another's shoes, because I don't want a guy complains about me to his friend, like what those guys complained their gf to me. Maybe this is the problem, I've listened too much stories for guys, where they claimed how much they sacrificed for their gf, need me to list down one by one? I can't list down all, but I can list down 5-8 guys who had complained to me. Therefore, I always try to be a GF that not bringing problems (at least not the problems like their gf brought them). From movie, we always watch how willful and unreasonable a girl can be, and how annoying to be a girl like that. Thus, I always remind myself don't be this kinda girl.

Unfortunately, I'm still a girl. Nah--I'm still a female...

Why others can but you can't?

For whatever circumstances, this shitty "innocent" question undeniably pretty helpful in stir up the fire.

say, in an argument. Why others can but you can't?

or, no argument, but either party remain silence and flash back. Why others can but you can't?

I think, I knew, comparisonl makes things worse...

You get angry, because you compare-- Why others can but you can't?

You get mad, because you compare--Why others can but you can't?

Girl: Why who and who's bf can bought it for her but you can't? Why my ex boy friend did it for me but you can't?

Guy: Why others girls won't be so demanding but you? Why my others girl friends can be so reasonable but you can't?

See, the problem is, compare--Why others can but you can't?; this is not the fatal cause, the stupid reason that people always overlook is: people only listen story from one party, like what I did, I only listened stories from those guys.

Guy: Who and who's bf bought her because he is rich; I'm not. Fair enough?

Your ex bf did it because he didn't think wisely; I'm not, and I don't feel the obligation to do so. Fair enough?

(girls, you don't even listen or understand how my situation is)

Girl: They don't be so demanding because whatever they want are already given. huhhuh...Fair enough?

They can be so reasonable because they only being unreasonable to their bf, whom not the one who standing right in front of me and questioning me why being so unreasonable. huhhuh...Fair enough?

(guys, you don't even see another side of story)

I don't mean to complain, cards of you and him or you and her are not supposed to put on table, this is a fair game, and here is a public place if you know what I mean. I'm just standing on a female's stand, trying not to be sentimentally, to analyze relationship between man and woman.

But again, unfortunately, I'm still a gi....Nah...I'm still a female. XD

and tell a secret (idiot, openly tell a secret), I read a post from an oversea resident but posted locally, and discover something. Well...and I was comparing again.

So sad I'm not only being a female, but being a human. ah huh...

Stage 3

2010-03-04T17:35:00.000Z

Friends around are getting married. Can't help from sighing time flies.

I did a rough analyze, a very basic analyze like counting 1+1. Whole life of one can be divided to few stages,

stage 1: When we were kids, the biggest things to think about was: I want eat this, play that...
stage 2: When we were studying, which had occupied 1 quarter of one'e life. Troubles was started thrown in by others. Result, friendship, loveship, most importantly was still: what is the next session? (for yum cha, movie, singk, clubbing...)
stage 3 (which is current stage): started to work, first step into bloody cruelty society; some who worked for few years and have steady relationship with another half are started to commit with each other. Like my friends.
stage 4,5,6,7..... After married, have kids, work very very very hard to raise the children up, support them to further study like what their parents had done(like me and him, if reach up to this stage successfully), continue working meanwhile waiting children to bring their another half, worried how are their children's career and business, worried when are they going to get married and born few grandchildren...
By then, we are at age of 60++ (assume first kid is born at age 30, and the kid get married at the same age as us), hopefully have already retired, and playing with grandchildren. At this age of 60+++, physically and mentally probably go back to kids' stage, injured easily and fall out unreasonably...

How many 10 years in one's life? few decades back perhaps average had 8 decades in one's life; now average is 7.5, I guess for us (80's born babies). 6.5 decades?

How long time you've spent on reading this? Life end like how you finish this entry, it is fast; like how moon and sun shuttle front and back, you can never stop it.
Some have chosen a right path way to have a better life; some are so unlucky couldn't find a easier way out.
I'm at the stage 3, and I'm figuring which is a right path way.

to my dear: we can be perfect match; however sometimes we are quite distinct in perspective and the way managing things. I hope we could walk hand by hand until the end of our life, we both need to work out. I know you are trying, I'm trying hard either. Phobia on this matter has not cured completely yet, actually I don't think it can be healed, anyway thanks for concealing it by your hard works. Frankly say and touch wood, if we fail, I don't think I have the courage to start a new one. Let's pray for the best and work for the best. Keep our finger crossed. You've taught me a lot, I hope you do learn from me too, at least not that less.
I love you.

H.I.M

2010-03-01T15:28:00.001Z

Yesterday was LJMU summer program convocation, this has successfully awaken people like me, always think back Liverpool. Anyway, this post is not going to talk about the convo...

This is him. No doubt, and I can never deny, he is brilliant and is a fast thinker. So here he goes for the award of "Best Overall Improvement"

Congratulation.

The smartest goaty guy ever.

JJ: Don't try to be smart with me; and now you trying to be a smart *mute*.

p/s: find out more at http://mia-patra.blogspot.com/2010/01/gotcha.html

yawn again ==

2010-02-24T17:05:00.001Z

Thoughts are going in and out of my mind. I have alot to blog about, alot of ideas, alot of issues to talk about. But i can't find a right mood to put them into words, neither I do want to complaint this and that, pronounce what I want and what I hate. Being transparent is not a good idea.

Thought of talk to someone?

Feel like talking too much, every time talk about heavy topics, or topics which too early to think about, or topics that have no conclusion yet.

Sometimes even I do think this might instill negative power to others. But i grew up in this environment.

Blaming?

too much can be blamed and yet, 99.9% of them are not supposed to be blamed.

Sometimes I rather to have a simple brain, short sight (i mean,not to think too far). So I won't be planning so much for future.

Sometimes I wish I don't expose to outside world so much, so I won't be looking further and higher. To be a frog at the bottom of a well isn't too bad, as long as you are satisfied, but one thing, make sure not expose to a little bit more than what a frog suppose to know, else that is another fucking hell.

So, you could tell this is not a constructive post.

This is the hidden truth

2010-02-21T07:34:00.001Z

Don't you agree that New Year should be a happy period? (Actually shouldn't only happy within New Year)

ok la, since New Year--especially Chinese New Year, is recognized as no negativeness, suppose to be absolute flawless- no argument, no sadness etc...
Too good to be true.
Arguments still happening, sadness still existing.

Why?
This is what happened to my neighbor, who stay just next to my house.
An old man, nearly 70, went to his farm as usual on a day before Chinese New Year, never come back home since then. Suspected, he was murdered in his OWN farm. Until now, his body is still missing. =/

This is what happened to my auntie.
Her new BMW 5 was stolen.
Ok la, not that new, 1 year old +.

This is what happened to the old auntie appeared on TV
Her son dead in an accident, left her a syndrome down grand-daughter
2 females survive with merely 80 bucks @person @ month, thanks to don't know which association by giving them a hand worth RM160 per month for 2 jobless female- to be more precise, both have no ability to work. I think the old auntie is middle 60? the grand daughter can't even walk, only lying on the bed and beat on her own head.

This is what happens everyday.
And this is the hidden truth

Ops. It happened again/ Braces

2010-02-12T11:42:00.003Z

Before i start this post, I was thinking to blog about planning to do braces, did search some photos. Then, dad reached home. We had an informal chat, then talk about my work and salary.

He asked me what is my salary? I gave him a rough figure, enough. I don't like to reveal much about my financial situation, and I meant it. He wanted to know the exact amount, com'on...I don't feel comfortable to tell, why force me to tell? Before salary topic, he asked me why I couldn't made a deal in ME-my ex-company that only kept me for 2 weeks. Chill...this is my taboo.
"huh? you stay 2 weeks only?"
"huh? why can't even sell a thing?"
Hey, that's more than enough to spend 2 weeks to figure out that is not your company; and, I was not selling a thing. That is a service which meets clients' need, and the criteria for them (client) is to have sufficient modal to participate,it costs a lot, it is NOT CHEAP.I was once blaming and despised myself of not being longer there...
dad, I've tried really really hard you know. Chill...CNY is near the corner, i told myself.

Dad: "how much you earn?'
Me: "around XXXX."
Dad: "how much?"
Me: "below XXXX"
Dad: "how much? XXXX(which is the nearest figure, only 1 cent difference) EX: RM1999.99? (nearest to 2k)
Me: Don't want to tell. You thought I'm rich.
Dad: hmph....I knew it...I knew what you mean...(then he walked away)

Ops...

Me: "Daddy, sorry. I don't mean that" (repeat for times as if begging for forgiveness. From another perspective, I was.

Now.
Daddy went out. My fault of hurting his feeling. But dad, don't force me if I don't feel like saying. I'm having big head to settle my financial problem, and planning further.

Last year I had argument with my mum once I reached home; this year I had communication problems with dad. Arghh. Enough! Stop it.
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anyway, I'm still going to upload some braces photos, imagine if I put it on my teeth...(to be cont)

Differences of different braces.

Well, damon braces is cool, and expensive for sure.

Traditional one, different colours? yupe, that is the selling point of it, to conceal the ugliness of wearing steel.

(cont: imagine if it is put on my teeth?)

This is much more better, Ceramic braces. I have a thought of putting this.

(cont: Imagine if I put this on my teeth?)

don't you want to wallop me?

haha

This is my resolution for year 2009 at end of year 2008, but It hasn't done yet, until now. Hopefully, It can be done latest by next year, beginning of year 2011...

Talent. Interest. Culinary.

2010-02-10T19:42:00.000Z

The first recipe I read, was in my grandmum's house, my mum always forced my bro and me to stay there for nights. At night, there was no tape player(at my age of 7-9, VCD player was not popular yet, DVD was not launched yet), so i tend to read. There were 2 books I've read again and again, one is guidebook for pregnant women ( the scene is still clear where I saw private part of female in the book, showing how the part looks like when giving birth to a baby; I hold the book and chased the others kids--because they feel embarrass to see that? =p), another one is cooking recipe.

The first recipe that tempt me so much was a "tong shui" (oriental dessert) made by papaya, I don't think it is hard to do; in the following years, I'm still keep an eye on any recipes, until now ^^ Actually I cook not bad*(i think), my soup and dumpling successfully gained good comments from my ex, and ex's friends. =p
Frankly, I rarely cook in the 2 years, don't know if cooking skill gone rusty =/

This few weeks, I look back to recipes again, and I have a strong feeling of cooking. Bakery, western cuisine, oriental cuisine...Let's not waste anymore time on words, shift attention to visual~~ yummy.

you wont believe, this is moon-cake, content made by meat floss instead of lotus+york which damn sweetening and high cal . I have no idea why does it named moon cake??

I LOVE egg! This can be done within 2 minutes, but with help of a microwave, which I don't have. If I have one, this can be my breakfast everyday~ ^^

Cheesy baked rice, well~ It isn't hard to prepare. Simply cook rice with flavor ingredients like ham, beans, corn...lastly, top with cheese and bake a while, cheese melted and here you can enjoy cheesy rice^^

this is easy...XD

I never know cook choco is that easy, but of course practice makes perfect. What is that again? yea, moon cake again...surprise?choco moon cake fill with strawberry jam, content can be varied accordingly la, according to individual taste~muacks, I LURVVVVVVE it!

The author said she never tried macaroon, and this was her first time bake macaroon. Honestly, doesn't look like one lo. I ate, it is sooooo nice. I miss Paris and Italy.

Orange mousse. Is an easy one too! I can remember how to make it. Digestive biscuit--which I ate too much in UK--make into pieces, add into melted butter, press to solid as its base....the middle part (mousse) i need to refer back to recipe la XD

I'll do this soon. haha.....

pretty right?

It is made by chiffon cake without needed apply cream, because I believe apply cream is a skill indeed, first or second time could not do it well, right? ^.<

So, finger biscuits were used to replace cream, then top with peeled oranges as deco. DONE. How lovely is it~~

I LURVVVVE EGG!! From the blogger, I found tons of recipes of making egg. Huat lahhhh~~

Trust me, pop corn is the easiest to be done, but there are criteria for corn. Only certain corn can be used. pour oil into cooker(i mean, cooker, rice cooker, haha), put corn inside~ thats easy =p

woahhhh...this is easy man....prepare rock candy, pumpkin and Tremella fuciformis(雪耳). Take out pumpkin fresh, put in water, rock candy and tremella fuciformis, steam until done, and it is done!

This is as easy as the orange mousse ^^ procedures also same, this is a cheese cake, but don't need to bake.

Pumpkin cream soup. Forgot the exact way...><

I'll cook all that, and cook more~ but most importantly, I need cooking utilities. Just moved to a new house which don't equipped with cooking facilities. I want oven, I want microwave! I want scale to timbang amount needed for certain ingredient!

interest, remain interest, is about money....haha

all equipments need money man~

This is/was my dream, to open own cafe, cook own food, If I don't capable to be in corporate world. Ideally, have the cafe when i retired from cirporate world...XD

p/s: I was trying to find the balsam pear-bitter melon's recipe. Panda doesn't eat bitter melon, if I could cook a bitter melon dish without taste of bitterness, he would eat. He said.

Good night.

Relek

2010-02-07T13:07:00.001Z

Wonder how are freelance event girls busying at the backstage?

like that lo...

I'll always be the outgroup within the ingroup.

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The next day after the freelance job, Maxis annual dinner usherette (this is my 3rd year involved in their annual dinner), I was going to attend an interview in IBM. (hence, i'm cracking my head to decide where to go)

I kept my stomach empty until the interview finished, and my first meal of the day, caused my thumb bleeding.

The sharp stick went through the plastic bag, here my bleeding thumb presented! =.=!

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At night went Souled Out, to celebrate Cheemeng's birthday.

here we go.

This, apparently was a greedy lady grabbing others drink.

If any brand find a model like me to be their spokeperson or ambassador, I'm sure the brand is ready to lose their market share....

How souled out look like, inside.

here we have: Cheemeng, the star of the day and his girl friend, Chingsiew.

Birthday star had to be decorated as a X mas tree, Cheemeng portraits it well.applause... XD

Serious man is a handsome man (2009)

Serious man is a nice man (2010)

So, nice doesn't mean handsome. So, above= ugly

Above not pretty, but not so ugly.

The fact is, whoever worn this won't be looking good.

The next day.

We both know Valentine's day is fall on Chinese New Year, first day.

We both know Valentine's day, Xmas, whatever festival is a good date to chop--consumer

We both have an agreement, in order not to be chopped, we schedule our celebration days before the festival.

This is what I used to do- I know everyone's work is different, not everyone entitle to have public holiday as everyone else. So if you think I'm like lady A, B and C, then you are wrong. If you judge me like judge a book through cover, then you are wrong. If you think I'm like every lady like you assumed, then you are super super wrong. (talk cock....haha)

The Garden, I know One Utama has a branch too.

Feel like Full House.

Description of it? not going to elaborate more.

Visual is better than words.

So, we were settled with

Cappuccino

Contrast of color tone didn't bring an extreme sweetness to your taste bud, in oppose,

it was mild and smooth, getting you ready to have a sumptuous meal.

Chocolate Ice Blended

This is sinful....

Thick taste of chocolate with well blended ice, I have to remind myself to stick to my diet plan.

Apparently, I failed.

There are some options for dessert, Opera which made by layers of butter cream, chocolate and coffee cream indulged my id, like seducing me to put it into mouth. Imagine if combination of creams mentioned melted on tongue...*slap myself to stay conscious*

too much and too heavy meals+beverages were ordered, go for a lighter one.

Gree tea slice cake, absolutely fulfill the need.

I'd say Bread story in Sg sells better green tea cake.

The fresh cream in between fail to attract my desire of "one more bite", cake body was too dry (compare to Bread Story's)

However, its decoration when it served was pleasing. There it saves marks.

Not too bad

The red ant was trying to steal a bite. No way, it was finished.

Potato salad, this was extra lor! because main dish served with side dishes what...

anything la, it is in another form now, after digested, what it would be? XD

Butter fish fillet. I should order salmon. This was a heavy meal, for me. Creamy white sauce and olive oil, it is a new try. (I never try this ma). Slightly spicy fried ginger slices dipped with white sauce added surprise!

Sirloin steak done in medium rare, served with sour sauce. I'm not a big fans for steak, but will not resist to have one bite or two of a nice steak.

Supposedly, it was a very filling meal, indeed, it was.

Sometimes should reward stomach (seems I do it too frequently)

In cinema, we ate a large popcorn.

Normally I would stop grabbing popcorn after few minutes eating it. Too sweet.

Out of normal, I ate half of it.

It was because it tastes nicer or something wrong with me huh....?

SEE! I said i ate too much recently, this was another evidence!

We ate ayam penyet after movie.

I can shout loud: I can eat very spicy food, but this ayam penyet...

Don't underestimate its chili, this hot stuff is greater than chili padi, hotter than tabasco

Don't believe?

I was not trying to be innocent, if you notice my mouth, it was swollen.

When it was too spicy, closing mouth helps to make your mouth watery, I was doing that to release my 'pain'.

This was absolutely acting. I was too full to drink!

That is why we are paired...

We are same weird creature.

haha!

ya da ya da-- your day your day. Yeepy!

2010-02-05T04:54:00.000Z

Less words, more picture. Let's pictures tell.

scary man.....i miss my curly hair

This is 10 minutes before

no matter how, need to be calm

Because, I'm attending an interview, yea, again.

So, good luck yo my self.

*i look not bad in formal right?I'm looking forward to be professional, wearing full formal executive wear*

=.=

2010-02-04T08:15:00.000Z

=.=
is my only emotion and facial expression now.
Who knows the feeling of waiting and worrying?
I'm here waiting and worrying again.

F you on the spot will only make me look stupid like you.

2010-02-02T13:54:00.003Z

Another day with empty schedule. Actually not that empty, I've done quite many things today according to pre-planned schedule: like cleaned new room, trimmed eye brown, bought things like hanger, tumbler..., did gym, and also, insulted by a fucker-- to be more into detail, he is working in a mamak restaurant called BINTANG TUJUH, an around 17-18 years old indian guy.

Tell you how...
ok, i like thosai, one of my posts in year 2008 or beginning of 2009mentioned how much i like it. Every time I'll order thosai, rarely order others. After bought things and trimmed eye brown, I went the restaurant for lunch; I was not hungry, yesterday night had a sumptuous supper which prepared by Winson(my house mate, mentioned in previous post). Thosai is not a heavy meal, perfectly suit my need. So I sat down, with few bags things. The stupid Indian boy normally does not talk to me, but didn't know what's wrong with him, today smiled and talked with me, playing fool with me as if he is still a kid or still cute, perhaps he thinks he is leng zai? My ass! I was wondering why~ "maybe today look good? since wearing lens, dyed a red hair, trim eye brown, not too bad what~ phe-vit~~~ XD" this was what i thought. Then, I took newspaper that provided, and read.

Read till half, regarding East Malaysia sensed minor earthquake happened there. I was thinking if Malaysia will be located within earthquake area...
"Thosai telor" he said; spontaneously and naturally, i answered: "oh"
The dum ass said: this is thosai, not oh. Is it humor? Like i don't know? nah-->o0o

After finished, I continued with news. After 10minutes (estimated), I looked around because I worried if customer come but no seat. Then the sohai came and said something like still alot to read? read so long? kind like that la. YOR!!!!!!!!!!!! I was thinking to leave, now he said earlier than I take action, like I really 'buy his scare" (cantonese 买拒怕), like I leave merely because of the few words he said.

"kira" after reading, I asked for bill.
The stupid ass came, "2.80" (yes, thosai n Limao Ice really cheap, YEAH)
I took out 5 bucks, then I checked if i have enough coin. yesh! I have, then I wanted to give him a just right amount, easier for him and for me, I didn't need to wait for change and so he doesn't need to change for me.

"tarak duit kah?" wtf !? == he said this.
"ini duit la!" dum me! I intended to prove I have enough money.
"mana tau u ada 7.80 saje?"
Hey, is this funny? I don't know he really thinks I'm poor like that or he just wanna make a dump joke, but is this what you should do? A waiter in a mamak restaurant?
Sorry, I don't mean to insult him as a waiter, but why he did it at the first place?
AND, what's next which is ridiculous is: I smiled at him.
Fuck you la Foo Mee Ngan! Smile to a Cibai who just insulted you? stupid!
I was thinking to scold him:" U ingat sini memang 7 star ke? ada minimum expenses ke?" but this is nothing to do with the owner; OR I say :"mana boss? i nak jumpa dia!" Crazy! this is not a 7 stars restaurant la....

"ennada ottkeleh!!!!? Kuthiiiiii!!!"

means: what the fuck you are talking about? cibai! , in Tamil

wtf?!
I'm so boh song, I think most probably...He got it half true...i'm freaking not enough money now. Every single little things is about money, and I not even got a new job yet. sigh. BUT, HOWEVER, I don't deserve to be insulted by a dumm ass like him lo, okay!!!!

I think each post should at least has a picture, so it doesn't look dull. XD

These few days of mine.

2010-02-01T13:59:00.003Z

My mum told me, no, she warned me: do not dye your hair any more! you teens only concern about outlook, beauty, "yeng", you know how harmful and what are the side effects of colouring your hair? the chemical......bla bla bla (non-stop....=.=). Mum, i just want to tell you, i dyed again. =p

I don't mean to be bad daughter; good or bad isn't judged by how obey am I, it can't be measured anyway.

Year 2010, i dyed the same color as last year, which is red. Last year was more vivid; due to working soon, over striking hair doesn't bring a good image. So, I go for a darker one...

hehe, compare the picture below. (up: year 2009, down: year 2010 )

very obvious, last year was brighter, face look younger, slimmer. Can't help from aging.

Hair dying was on Saturday; today is KL holiday, xiang is not working (yeepy!): I got a job on wednesday, so today need to go to try up the costume. Sad fact, i need to wear size L!!! M was alright except my hip's part, a little bit tight. Better take a larger one, else..Just dare not to imagine how embarrass is it.

.After that, we went for brunch-- nasi daun pisang. here you go...

I need some days to adopt this culture, by using hand. Finger licking good huh? =p

Cutler fish is nice, so he ordered one more for me. We didn't know what is the small small thing called, so he described ...In the end, we knew it is called ikan cutler, is a small piece of fried minced tuna.

Obviously, he ate larger portion, and a lot of gravy. Guy, it isn't healthy you know. tsk tsk tsk...

The fork and spoon is evidence of I was not eating with hand, portion of rice proved I didn't eat as much as he did, and the gravy, normally I don't put gravy.

I'm using hand to grab food too! Compare, mine was not as MAN as AIG opposite me.

It was undeniably filling, I was full after that. Then, back to my house, and continued second activity of the day, shifting things from my block to another block. When I was leaving, I felf hard to leave this house, haha! I stayed here quite sometime, fun and joy happened here.

this is the first chinese mandarine of the year

and thanks to Winson who gave me that. My housemate. =p

(I'm very tired now, cause moving things...and this entry looked shit la, can't adjust alignment...and a lot of grammar mistake >.<)

Fair question

2010-01-29T08:40:00.001Z

Straight to the point, just a short question.
What is your goal in working?

This was the question that my insurance asked me, during lunch just now.
Of course i won't have only one goal, neither do you.
One of my answer was: climb up to managing ladder --i spoke in Cantonese: 上位
*silence...*

Why are you so career minded? My agent asked, but in Cantonese
点解你会甘有野心既？通常女仔吾会渥。。。
(你受了什么刺激？你一直是这样还是近两年。。。）this is add-on one, i forgot to put just now.
erm...I didn't know how to answer; for me, I don't like to be controlled and work like puppet. It is ok to woek with someone charismatic, but if he/she never let me involve, not even once, I'm like working without direction, which is kinda hard, unsure and full of uncertainty.

Anyway, take me as talking cock. It won't disturb you; neither bother me. =p

Surprising, Induge Cafe.

2010-01-29T08:13:00.001Z

Nah, said I'm free, just came back from an interview few hours ago. Time to blog then. I'm in mood to decorate and rearrange my blog's layout, add music, add photos. Feel like having a new house, now i know how great of having own house, and decorate it. When can I have one?
Ok....this entry gonna be a food post, more precise, an entry about dessert.
I guess quite many friends of mine knew I love dessert, I repeat: I skipped meal but never skipped dessert or chocolate when I was in UK. So, could I say I have weakness towards chocolate and nice dessert? =p

Yesterday visited a cafe called Indulge Cafe, which is located at Jalan Kuchai Lama. My friend know its owner/ chef, and also chief chef(whom the Chef's father). From what I know, the Chef Chief won a lot of culinary awards, I think more to dessert/ pastry. Let's not waste time on tracking or telling history, most importantly is IT IS DELICIOUS! I used surprise to describe the feeling of first bite on this piece of cake, it doesn't taste like a cake. I mean, you will never expect it can be a cake, not chiffon cake, butter cake or heavy creamy stuff like cheese cake does, it is like layer cake, but not using layer cakes' ingredient. Each slice of thin egg slice is spread with fresh cream, not too much, not too thick, just a right portion then come out with a well match with the egg slices. Step repeated times, until the ideal height for a cake is accumulated.

The Ultimate Mille Crepe Cake; A perfect finish to a fantastic meal.

This is their famous cake which I believe not available everywhere; my friend told me the chief chef created it with his years of experiences, so it is secret recipe and exclusive only available in this cafe.

Next try was Apple Torte. Served hot and on top with ice-cream, heating from down melt the ice-cream on top, spread the ice-cream on the cake like what we do on bread with kaya butter. First ate the fresh half slided strawberry on top of the ice-cream, followed with the cake with melted ice-cream. Each bite is a surprise, why? Chef put in effort to make the cake rich in different tastes with added walnut and apple cube. Not only tongue bud to taste natural sweetness of apple, walnut and apple cube also join together to add a little excitement on your tongue.

Normally we see: Illustration is only for display for advertisement purpose? Not for this, it served almost the same.

Double cheese cake. Which I believe it tastes heavier and creamier than normal cheese cake, which contribute FULLNESS to your stomach. This is a normal dessert which almost everyone had tasted it. I'm love to eat, but never bake one for myself, from my experience--very theoretical one, what attract most should be the cookies as base of a cheese cake. No doubt, this one doesn't appear too thick, and playing a role to balance the creaminess of cheese and painted chocolate on top.

Actually, it is quite a tough task to translate chinese to english you know? I know how to describe the feel in chinse words, but when put it in english...怎么有种词不达意的感觉？

anyway, feel free to find out more about this cafe. I'm doing free publicity for it. XD

http://bestcafeindulge.com/?cat=8

Click and see~ ^^

Lovely Dinner.

2010-01-28T13:29:00.001Z

If you are my regular reader (ishhh....like this is attractive> <), you should have noticed that recent posts are all in Eng, how about this entry make it in Chinese? or make a dual-language? not much bloggers wiling to do such doubled-work. Apparently, I have ample of time to be wasted in doing thi..s...

My daily routine is: wake up, online, read others blogs.

就说嘛，闷neh...每天睡醒就是上网，阅读别人网誌咯！通常都会看一些英文版的啦，improve 一下嘛（看！连improve都不会了！够力liao! )

As mentioned, read others blog what, then read Miss Lim's blog, her name is Szeteng. Sorry, i forgot, because we used to call her Ms Lim, look damn alike lo. Her blog posted alot entries of UK's life, great to have so much memories over there. There is one about Graduation Dinner at 1st Sept, alot photos. I don't post much photos of that particular memorable event, since then, i shall post one too. =p 38 lo...

话说，阅读他人网誌嘛~ 就看到了‘密斯林’的，她叫斯婷吧？哟。。。忘了，因为我们都叫她miss lim 嘛；她有很多在英国的回忆咧！是厉害的咯！然后看到了一堆晚宴的照片，有样学样埋是这种咯！我又跟着post一篇英国晚宴篇！哈哈。。。 is the sampat lo!

Pride of PR. hey, self praise is no praise, I don't mean to be one, but since everyone said so, and there are evidences, so..*ehem*

呐，不要说我臭美，人人都说ＰＲ出名美女，我是不好意思承认啦，不过有照片为证咯＝ｐ

Posed like beauty pageant's candicates, didn't we look like one?

就像选美佳丽咯，　也是pun 呵？

看多几张啦！

以下这条水，Ｊａｓｏｎ。不用我多说，相信你的intuition，第一感觉不骗人的。

The guy- Jason. What is your first impression on him through this picture? Trust your feel, it never lies...

以下５位都是居住单位７９的，妞。都是同一课程的，女。

well....floormates, coursemates.

左边两位介绍过喇，右边两位是来自印尼之花。

Beauties on right, they are from Indonesia.

终于，有一张全家福了。黑衣者叫做：淑庄。Ｊａｓｏｎ口很臭，他说淑庄不化妆。

淑庄＝素妆；不像我们，素妆＝见鬼。＊鸡蛋＊

6 of us in same unit. The girl in black, is from others course. Jason made a bad comment on her name, damn u Jason.

左边那位，不懂姓甚名谁，美女一名咯！还要讲。。。

Another beauty in black. This pic she doesn't look as great as she used to be.

全场唯一男生，样子不错看一下啦，不过不再单身。中间黑衣的猪就是他女友咯！（我们都叫她babee ）

重提一下，以下都是PR course的

Jeff, the only guy at right, look nice right? too bad he is engaged, this is not too bad, worse is his gf is the one in black who sat beside him. Who dares to challenge her and him? XD

PR 严重缺乏男生，他们是广播系的。Broadcast =p

PR like a course for girls, we had badly shortage of guys.So, they were definitely not PR guys...Broadcast one!

就这样，我不敢妄称美女咯。。。＞＜
So...I better don't self praise. =p

她是芳静，广播系的咯～
Fangjing, from broadcast too. anything la, like a family, weren't we?

她叫葡萄干－－weisin aka Raisin. 也是广播系的。

Raisin was broadcast student too.

这跟人如其名的－－ＧＵＧＵ, media studies 的，不过参我们之后就把他当作PR gang咯！

His name tells what creature he is. HAHA!

也是广播系的，Fongway! Hey, 高才生咧！

薇薇你好。

Fongway, she was broadcast student too, hey! first cass student le!

讲到高才生不得不提他啦。。。

厉害不只是课业上；最厉害是把妞。

还整天挂在嘴边：从liverpool追到 Europe，到 Manchester，再回到 Malaysia 的Ipoh

我是整天顶他的咯！后悔就不要啦！追到还吵！

然后是一个典型扑克牌脸给他死。

朋友都说：不到８０岁不要给他饱饭吃

我什么都好，就是衰在疼男朋友咯。。。那里舍得？

车( ceh）。。。。

okok....he will never absent from "first class topic", first class in academic, first class in debating, first class in getting..a girl.

he said: my effort started since we were in Liverpool, from there to Europe countries, Manchester, and took flight to Malaysia, and went Ipoh as weel...

cool~ fine... keep complaining! chase another easier one lo!

Friends said: never fed your bf a full meal untill they are 80. I'm really can't do this, cant help from loving a bf.

fine if i don't feed him, how if he doesn't want to feed me? >.<

他叫得力！敝姓颜，胡美颜的颜。

Derique Gan, Gan, not Ngan.

此才子为东方记者，我较喜欢读他的影评部落。

忘了介绍：家腾ａｋａ　ＪＴ

JT, i thought is Justim Timberlake. another talented one, I like to read his critiques of movies. XD

我的印度王子，走路有风的叻！小翔子现在跟他一起工作。

怎样？你现在吃醋我叫他印度王子吗？

卖酱啦。。。你也不是有个“子”咩？

oh dear...Prince from India... he got BOOMZ lo! (haha, Ms Sg said)

Xiang is now working with him.

Another talented one, like xiangxiang. *vomitting*

整天讲他们，看我facebook 啦。。。

they always appear in my facebook, facebook them la.

阿伦老师，深得大家欢迎。

右边的，拉车边罢了。。。

Alan, he is a nice and great lecturer; the one next to him? erm.....

萨拉小姐，Sarah.

media stidues

认识一段时间了，没机会深交。

we knew each other quite some time, too bad not really develop a friendship. Different course ma...

爱音－Aiyin

拍照技术不错哦！

广播系的

AiYin, she takes nice photos weiiiiiiiii

from broadcast, PR dont really take nice photos, all damn vain one, i'm different la, both neither.

沛华吧？大家都叫她Pye Wah. 广播的，也是认识一段日子了，没机会深交。

same with Sarah, knew Pye Wah quite sometime, since Orientation Odyssey night, too bad we didn't go further on our friendship.

Szewei，广播的，同家乡。怡保出名美女呵？

左边那条水，搏傻！

SzeWei, from Ipoh too. Don't you agree the fact of Ipoh famous with Pretty?

hrm, the one at left, trust your intuition again. XD

有时候跟美女拍照会发现：何必上酱多粉在脸上？人家还不是美美？

有够大打击叻！

Tell you what, sometime I'm asking myself, wat for put a heavy make up on face? when one is pretty, she always looks pretty, see SzeWei!

这是猪，来自怡保的猪。

If you don't against with my statement of Ipoh famous with pretty, hopefully this picture could have convinced you. Oh yea, she is babi, babi from Ipoh.

sharon咯！华印混血儿。胡美颜，还不靠边站？哈哈！

A Chindian, Sharon. B.

Mia, stand aside, please. =p

她叫Jessica，是有分量的咯！

我其实很想告诉她，我也叫Jessieca..在Friendster

Jessica. I always think she could have another name, with BOOMZ (Ms Sg again) XD

Yea, I wanted to tell since the first day, I'm Jessieca too, my name in Friendster.

密斯林！哈哈！看了你的部落啦，还特地选回这张一样的～嘻嘻

（读你的部落时还暗爽了两下）哈哈

Hi Miss Lim! Read your blog which inspired me to have this entry.

Same photo as yours .=p

Josephine,认识我的都懂我一两位女生为榜样，真Miss Lim 和Josephine

People knew me will know, I always take Josephine and Miss Lim as female figure that I should learn from.

This "Miss Lim" is not referring to "Miss Lim" above, Miss Lim is my lecturer.

他叫Jason Lim,　有崇拜过他几天，当我刚刚进学院时。。。　

Jason Lim. Admired him few days, when I first entered college.

这是我的旧housemate--Bopet

Wonder why was I so closed with him? He was my housemate, in KL. Bopet! hi!

这个有钱有样貌的，叫做Yuanchin.曾经暗恋过他的胸毛。哈哈！我们排戏嘛，他裸上半身我埋赚到咯！

I was attracted by his chest hair few years ago. =p

I was his production's talent, there was one scene he naked top. haha! Earned!

够力！又是他。。。懒惰介绍了

Dude, he is very popular in my blogs la...

Nana，甚少联络，不过彼此都懂得对方的那则故事。

Nana, we were different class; but we have same stories on a particular thing.

小白，白雪王子！人人心中的最佳男朋友，样貌不错，才气有，又照顾人。不过他竟然单身。

He was vote as best bf. talented, good looking, caring, courteous. But why he is still single?

Wayne--Vain. 超爱自拍咯！身材也不错咯。。。

He has the best looks (face and figure) in PR course, but very vain, always take photo with camera from top. Wayne, here you go!

Janette 在此。

Janette, knew her quite some time. We share the same characteristics(up to certain extend)

假如大家要用“上天是公平的”，这张会是不错的例子　

This is a good example when you want to tell: God is fair.

我的小公主啊～～三三！

My princess~ San san !

合作过一阵子，想当年Orientation Odyssey night 的时候　

Sin Eu, knew him and were in the same department when we were organizing Orientation Odyssey night.

好了。。来玩自拍。　

Time to take some photos, this might be a nice one if it looks clearer.

槟岛来的－Stephy Foo, 同姓叻！

Stephy from Penang, hey, our ancestors from China might be same village~

晚宴后。。。大家好像都醉了。疯狂party，疯狂喝酒。再一次证明酒不醉人人自醉；我不喝都醉了！还哭到稀里哗啦。。。丢脸丢到家了，还丢到月球去。。。再多三天，就开始我们的欧洲之旅了，言之，回马来西亚的日子也更加靠近了。算，我也回到来好几个月了啦。。。
We all get drunk after the dinner, stupid party at home, drink like mad. And once again, the theory of alcohol only work on those who intend to get drunk had proven, because I was drunk although I didn't drink much. What worse was, crying like no body business. Kao...Ashame of it. After that, 3 days later, Europe trip had started; it implied the date of going back to Malaysia getting closer. Anyway, I'm back, It's been months. Aiks.

GOTCHA!

2010-01-27T11:30:00.002Z

I just set him up; thanks for JJ and Ean of pranking him. =p

http://podcast.amp-media.net/hitz/?p=episode&name=2010-01-26_morning_crew__gotcha__1__jan_26__ong.mp3

It happened on the day, when I woke up in the early morning. about 0600? I appreciate a day like this, woke up early but not working, sit in front of lappie seeing warm morning sunlight beaming into living room, not too irritating car's horn (normally it is, but that day I didn't feel so), and listening to favorite song-- Flo-rida feat Ne-yo, BE ON YOU, without breakfast was like leaving stains on a cloth.

Surfing without target like day dreaming; when I felt I was back to reality, the mouse point stopped at a column written with "SEND IN YOUR GOTCHA".

I would like to give JJ and Ean a thumb; the post was send by 8 in the morning, and I received their call by 10something, we discussed some tricks to fool him, after an hour, I received his msg:
"XXXXXX, kenakan me! nei hou yeh.......T.T"
Funny man....why cantonese? XD
and he was complaining and nagging me of setting him up. well....just some funssss, and I promise funssss will never stop! GOTCHA!

Read.

2010-01-25T16:05:00.002Z

Accidentally read this blog.

http://www.lentalks.com/

If you could understand Cantonese.

Recommend you to have a read.

Not that bad.

Also, his photos. Good.

Mia recommends.

*wink wink*

MY Astro 至尊流行榜颁奖典礼之Show Power! 音乐会 2010

2010-01-25T02:16:00.003Z

This is it, My Astro Music award that I've witnessed--sounds too formal and not suitable to fit in this sentence, okay, change to --"This is it, MY ASTRO MUSIC AWARDS that I watched. Frankly, I didn't alert much about this award/ concert; in fact i didn't really put much notice into concerts in recent years. They are just human, aren't they? They are human who taking money from our pocket for our sake of have a glimpse (because you will never satisfied of watching your idol in size of a nut or half of your thumb for merely few hours from far while you are paying hundreds for it, if you are not paying then you must be getting free ticket or the concert is not a comfortable one), or day dreaming in his arms/ she is in your arms by listening to the authentic latest released music album. When age is adding, i don't find excited of seeing them; but if there is an opportunity to see them, why not?

So, here i go, VIP seat of My Astro Music Award with help from Xiang's friend.

information on those promotional materials were lying; who and who were coming but in fact, they weren't.

I was lucky enough to have a GLIMPSE at Eason Chen when he was walking out from Highland hotel while we were chatting with Xiang's friend whom works for the hotel.

Here he goes, Khalil Fong--his idol. no doubt, he is talented and his trip of attending this awards was a worth because he won few awards.

A mum-level singer- Kay Tse. She won few awards too, well, she deserved it.

I was telling my friend: I gained weight, I need a hair cut and f**king fortunately I got pimples on my face for days; so in the other word is: I become ugly... See the photo...feel like "arghh"

Oh yea, allow me to be a vain, and siok sendiri. A guy asked me: you are model ah? when i was buying KFC... =p ...I still have market la wei~~~ XD

The awards started on time, because it was a live show from Astro. Below are some photos for the night, and I only took photos for valued-celebs (in my own definition, they are not selling their face, making money by successful marketing strategies which credit should be given to their company and agent, like a boy group that will be introduced after one or two photos. ngek ngek)

Kay Tse with her first award at the night.

Khalil and Kay present another award for someone.

Khalil on the stage for his first award at the night.

This well-dressed (full set of formal suit) fella was equipped with 3 cameras, look at his lens....It could cost up to 5 figures for such a lens.

uh--huh...This is the group..."East and Folded" (forgive my direct translation, they are actually 东与哲which name is a combination of both handsome guys... Feel like a Taiwan boy's group, that's why they company and agent should be praised)

Eason, for sure he was the big winner of the day. if he wasn't, Genting could consider to organize a charity event of selling shoes. (I didn't believe his fans or audiences on the floor would so stingy of throwing their shoes to the stage in order to express their dissatisfaction)

and this is the ending of the night.

P/S: Nicholas won quite alot awards too. As mentioned, I only took photos for celebs that I think are valuable one. You got what i mean? *wink wink*

Resignation

2010-01-20T04:51:00.002Z

It's been quite sometime i didn't update, because I was working. The job is not easy, worked as telemarketer and it is given a nicer name---teleconsultant. Nothing different what, still same job scope of making cold calling and persuade people to buy the product. Definitely not credit card, I was working in an international corporation which organize big exhibitions or corporate programs, while my job scope was to do research, get contacts and called companies come on board to be exhibitors or speakers in the conference.
To make cold calling is not easy, especially when you don't know who you should speak to. I worked for 2 weeks only, the first week was training, the second week was started to call companies. Before calls to be made, research is a must, that's what make me quit. Personally I really don't like to do research, reasons being might be have done too much in UK? don't know, i just don't feel comfortable of doing it.
When the thought of resigning was first poped up, I really scolded myself of how can i giving up so easily, not even tried out? Seriously, first thought was happened in the first week...and I was keeping persuading myself to give a try, don't give up so easily. Until Sunday after came back from their team building vacation which was held in Melacca. Everything was fine and i feel, started to love this company. After the trip i was so so tired, but have to do research still. What happened was I CRIED like no body business...why cried? I can't take up the stress...uh huh...this was something ashamed me "MIA CAN'T TAKE THE STRESS WHEN SHE WAS ONLY WORKING FOR 2 WEEKS" =.= ...my face was smooth and never grow pimples as what happened now, whether it was stressed up too much or something wrong with my body system? I don't know. my face looks like shit. After i worked here, seriously i became regular smoker. Well, this is not an excuse, but i really smoke again after working there.
Has anybody tried of worrying the next day coming or waking up? I did...everyday I did research until mid night, sometimes eye closed but finger still clicking and hand moving mouse as if i was browsing internet. Previous post I said my eye get wet when i recalled study time in UK? it was because I compared working and studying period. Friends were telling me to quit if i don't like the job, but myself was telling me don't quit first even thought it was tough...>< but finally, i quit. With immediate notice, immediate leaving. Friends, don't take this as joke and throw the harsh question on me like: you can't even overcome the stress in your first job and you quit not even worked for one month? what else you can do?? Seriously, i chose to quit but I'm questioning myself the same question too. I wouldn't know what and how to answer this question and definitely I'll remain silent for sometime. A job that you don't even like, you won't stay long...

So now, I'm again hunting jobs.

What wear you down is not the choice you made but the choice you don't make.

2010-01-11T17:52:00.003Z

what is the time now? 0109. I suppose to go to bed by now, as tomorrow need to wake up by 6, as normal. hmpf...I'm a working adult already.

I don't feel to complain how tough the job is; anyway, whose job is easy? By all means, by hook by crook, do first think after in a smart way. It is all right to have talking/ presentation/ pitching all the time, but I hate the part of doing research... I'm asking myself this question again and again, which job offers you such an opportunity of earning a maximum figure and yet that is within your capability? Visualizing life years later, not luxury but at least above average. If Doraemon do me a favor, I'd request a machine to send me to 2 years later (with my decision of staying back in this company); it is silly, ain't it? 2 years wasted because of I don't want to face the cruelty of real life; why not i ask a courage medicine from Doraemon? *shake head*

I was looking at photos few months ago; watching clips of few months ago; watching clips in facebook which also took few months ago. I'm regret I didn't fully enjoy just because of a small matter of broke up; I'm regret and self-blaming of influenced by this matter, and hence result....*shake head, again*. When i look into photos with xiang, I regret why should I had insisted on the matter so long; it should be a precious moment, 3 months time of being together with xiang. *turn my head aside* but if without his cruelness, I won't even have a better candidate(haha! you are candidate). Thank you, to both of you.

Facebook becomes a channel to share things and gather; our clips are always being edited and posted. Every time watching is like memory tape rewind. The scene which we sang at Everton Park; the scene which we drove to Scottland; the scene which we played 'Hide and Seek' in kitchen with limited space; the scene which we watched strip show; the scene which we club; the scene which we're doing grocery shopping; the scene which we sing K in my room; the scene which we discussing tomorrow's exam; the scene which we drunk and cried..because that was the last day of our study life....
Now i particularly miss the scene when we watched Meteor star in 11 Celsius night; the scene when we smoke at Everton Park when i was in sadness; the scene when we were at Cheshire Oak; the scene when we're discussing assignment that made me almost cry; the scene when we're arguing on certain issue; the scene when we drink Strongbow in room; the scene when I was meowing in your window; the scene when we buying stuffs for Europe trip...

What had past, it's past. It's been 4 months, it will be one year soon. Yes, i hate doing research, but time past with 'tic-tock-tic-tock' only. You don't catch means it tic-tocks away; you caught it at least it might be something hold in hand.

Remember I said tough doesn't mean face all problems alone without relying someone, but stand up and re-face? I need people by my side.Oh, maybe edge of toughness is being smoothen or soften, I feel like I'm not as tough as before? Remember I said I don't force myself to be a tough one by measure my "toughness" with tears? So when I was typing scenes that we've gone through, my eye balls were moisturized...

random facts of me.

2009-12-24T05:28:00.001Z

Everyone seems to update their blog less frequently since they have started work; assume I might joined their club after 5th Jan, I think I should just update more than I could do at months later. I ain't have much feeling or inspiration towards one particular thing, nor have a particular topic to start on, so... let's talk crap.

I've been sick for days, more than one week. Recover before Taiwan trip, I must. (Yoda)
Hey, do you know JEDI (from Star Wars) is a religion in UK? yea dude, it is... a lecturer told him, and he told us in his friend's small small gathering--his friend come back from Australia. HELLO, Joel, a korean-looking guy (very leng zai!); and him? Weixiang des....

I'm quite fortune to have friends like them. Gang A Gang B and Gang C.
I'm looking back at those photos of others took in Liverpool, I'm regret why didn't I take as much as them? My thought was cool : come on...it is just a street. I'm here for experience and memory, not for getting a fact to prove: "Hey, I've been UK, cool huh?"; but I overlooked the importance of photos, it is not merely prove where you've been, depends on how a photo was took. Raised your hand up 45 degree high and 'chik-chak' definitely is vain, which I rarely do; but a photo with different angles of a street, building, ornament, statue...helps to refresh your memory. Look back at my thought months ago, seems I reacted over-cool of attitude of taking photos non-stop. (I'm quite sick of people taking photos blindly, even a fallen leave was captured in the lens; I think my thought is evolving, photography has started to mean more to me)

Clumsy sometimes is my name, precisely, it is always my name. This clumsy lady just had her lunch downstairs and guess what, I'm not only bring a stomach filled with Roti bakar, half boiled egg, and milo back, also bring a scar of 2 inches long x 1cm width on my right tight. FOOK U! it is painful!

It bleeds straight after scratched by the bamboo chopstick. (why bamboo chopstick? ask the restaurant owner la, why put a half-broken bamboo chopstick instead of steel made bolt)

Another random fact of me: I'm quite blur. XD

the thing is this, Weixiang and me bumped into his friend- Kaixiang when we were on the way to Mid Valley, guys had some talks....then just now Kaixiang left a msg in Weixiang's fb, "asked ur gf quite blur one izi? ytd i intro myself to him but she never intro back"

Er....."Hi, I'm Mia. Nice to meet you" . Do it now, shouldn't be too late =p

No deny, I'm quite blur sometime.

and lazy worms is mass producing in my body. Everyday say I'm lazy, I must. (Yoda)

and the fact now is: I'm boring.

I guess i have a lot things to talk, but my mind gone blank now.

Recap the statement above : "so... let's talk crap. " remember? the first para.

The whole entry is about myself only, so I'm the crap. XD

ok la, not funny.......

(to be cont...)

Don't...lose....faith...

2009-12-22T11:31:00.002Z

looking at friends around, almost all have gotten quite good offer, sounds like i didn't have one? Nah...i got an offer and will be starting to work 2 days after Taiwan trip, "huh, so rush arh?" yea, i know. So, the job is like this
- do own research
- cold calling
- Uncountable rejections
this is what i know, in order to have a better understanding of it; Google helped me a lot ^.<
Internet is a public place(gosh, i always pronounce it pub-bic space ><), its ex-employers shared their comment in forums, 9 out of 10 were negative. =.=

Battle started, the masculine one said have a try and i don't think you can't; the feminine one worried about this and that. Not even start work, I'm already thinking so much. I was so desperate to get this job as the commission package is so so so attractive, and i bet not much companies could offer this. One thing for true and sure: sales, is the more effort you put, the more you can get; however in certain situation, it becomes partially true because it does not merely depend on how much effort you put but how well you can handle. (leave a space of imagination why i'd say this, the answer will be revealed soon)

In the forums, there were successful and failed examples, failed examples contributed a large number of the total participants. From what i know from forums about the company: it is a non-stop smoking environment(yer.....i want to quit), unhelpful colleagues, and M.O.R.E
But everyone has confidence in me, you know what....? Battle start again.

"Everyone has confidence in you, you can't lose one; Don't ever lose faith to yourself, if you don't have one, I've in you"

"but i can't speak well....they need excellent Eng speaking....I'm bad in doing research...."

A voice raised: what encouraged you from wanting to get it so desperate? What you promised to yourself?
Now only i know how suffering one is caught in uncertainty. I'm so stingy to support myself.

Arghh...time to read some books again!
Remember ? "And the secret is: be positive"

If people can stay there and climb up to corporate ladder, why can't I?
And do you realize what is the problem, i mean, what cause me lack of confidence?
speaking....and English...I don't scare of speaking, honestly. So what cause me lack of confidence is speaking in English.

Most of my friends agreed, I don't speak terrible English, it shouldn't be categorized as bad, there are even worse out there. Maybe I'm expecting good work from myself? "you won't be the best but won't be the worst either"
Why am i so afraid of speaking? nabeh...

ohya...congratz to my panda for getting what he wants.
"you wont be the best, but you are always part of the best"
Cheers~ ^^

Down-to-earth

2009-12-18T05:27:00.005Z

Inhale...Exhale...Inhale....Exhale....repeat, poker face still remained as if nothing happened.

"Oh, the world is wonderful, I'm grateful~~~" Bullshit! I know I'm not, just want to calm down the intense flaming dual-personality of a Gemini.

A balance, is what I'm looking for all this while; I dreamt to have unlimited wealth, that was in the past. Now, being idealistic and realistic has to have a distinct difference.

unlimited wealth- Idealistic

allow me to not justify how realistic one should be, perhaps you could judge if I'm one when you scrolled down to the end of the post?

Well, I'm grateful, lucky my bro wasn't meant to study and pursuit education like i did, else I'll lose the chance to study."you should know what is more important." mum told me this when I stated the presumption. She supports me to UK, and yet she always has a negative input. I wonder one day if I might be stricken by lightning

*shrug*.

what happened was, i called her and tell her my latest plan; I'll never deny I'm a career minded female, just that she doesn't realize. She suggested I be a waitress or any part-timer like her era did(come on, DID is past tense), thank god she is Gen-X; could you spot any differences on their career of a part-time agent and part-timer in Metrojaya/restaurant?

Sorry, I don't mean to be arrogant, but could you give up your own pride as a Uni grad，and to be "HI, MAY-I-HELP-YOU-machine" in supermarket or restaurant? I'm just clearly, or in fact, absofarkinglutely recognize a fact of us being in a different century. I regret I spoke in a rude way in the call, who can control so well when her/his mum discourage again and again? I told her: I've been staying miles away from home, what I involved outside, you wouldn't know if i didn't tell; i choose to tell you because i don't want you to worry (in fact, i just need encouragement, is that too much?), and sorry, i made you worry, again.

I'm naive- I don't know darkness of the society; I'm useless- else i could have started work; I'm stupid- need to sit in exam for times just for the sake of getting a PASS. All, are her perceptions of me.

I'm naive because I still believe kind-men is not extinct yet; i'm useless is because i hope to be encouraged as i know being in a battle alone is a tough job; I'm stupid because I believe kind-men. All the above mentioned are optional for me, I'm still holding the authority to allow myself to be or not to be.

"you don't dream so much, get a job to work first, gain experiences first, be a down-to-earth person...."

arghh!!! when communication system break down, every message brought out is meaningless; when one does not agree with you, whatever you say is bullshit. Of course you could persuade or convince the one, how if the one keeps countering your points by living experience? She knows a lot of friends, what she experienced are absolutely more than what I've gone through so far, sometimes listening to her words are all right, but not words like: "my friend was one of them too, but now he chose not to be; my friend also say why you skewed to a bramble? Be a down-to-earth person, teens nowadays are always dreaming big". Too much, until i'm too tired to recall. You say sly people are everywhere, society changing rapidly, can you imagine if I adopt the ancient approach of so called: "down-to-earth"?

down-to-earth? how not down-to-earth am I? I'm counting on illegal business or lottery?

I think there should be a new definition for "down-to-earth" particularly for Gen-Y....

what's wrong with wanting to build a career with a different path way? as long as not over-devoted, things should be all right, isn't it? I know the facts, i look further in my life, I'm planning ahead, is it wrong?

Down-to-earth person, no offence but this is what's crossing my mind now. Down-to-earth means being satisfied with current life, but have no further plans to safeguard if any shit happen one day.

So, am I an idealist or a realist?

Full stop. Beginning.. .

2009-12-13T09:52:00.002Z

I'm strongly against the conservative notions of horoscope as if there are only 12 kinds of people in the world; however if there is one notion i must admit, I'd say: Gemini has dual-personalities.

Seriously, I'm sorry to all my frosty looks, icy responses; one thing always crosses my mind, and I ponder it quite often, am I too mean to you? You know i felt so. I'm also sorry of rarely utter the three words, but i did to others easily, not even think before say, my friends, my cousins, my nephews, to say it is not hard, but it is hard when i say to you.

Phobia? mental block?

After the reckless action of putting all eggs into his basket, what left was the hurtful spirit and sinked confidence, when i felt no one could neither understand nor helped, you gave me a hand that secure and comfortable to hold with. Nonetheless, I couldn't as extrovert as last time, I'm stingy to say the three words after the wallop. You taught me, corrected me, lead me; yes, there are something i don't agree with the way of how you dealing with matters, we can over come it, can't we?

When you were with me, I don't feel to talk much, or merely nod, especially when it is an open place with existence of others; after you left, feel of missing you raised. I hate the self-defence mechanism...

"whatever time spent with you is the best time."

this is what i want to tell you, too.

The three words, you know i do.

Thanks for always there for me.

~I LOVE YOU

Scandal - behave like a real man.

2009-12-11T13:53:00.003Z

So, what comes to your mind of "SCANDAL"?

Edison? maybe, it is a pronoun of it, but would your interest focused on how thick how long is he when you scrolling down the obscenity pictures?

"she is flat"

"omfg! she is bitch!"

"OMG! I can never accept she would take this kind of pictures"

"Fucker! how great he could have F***ed so many girls"

"$&&%^, not too satisfying, those bitches give priority to his face before have a glimpse of his cock"

" he is jerk, how could he do this to them; they are stupid! why do they let him take all this kinda pictures...?"

See, above are summaries of what I heard in the discussion of the scandal. None of it, stand on the girls' side, the most mercy one was rebuked the guy first, then turned the bazooka to the girls... Pity to those victims.

Female, took whatever blames as if they deserved it; yes, they were blinded at the moment, indeed, they were stupid when they allowed him to take such pictures, however who should be blamed? The one who nodded to take or the one who took the initiative of preparing equipments, put the camera for the sake of right angle to amplify the most private part of those 'stupid' girls? Worse, camera focus on the girls' face and action when he was enjoying the service of heat, moistures and massage on his god damn cock!

Female are always the one to be blamed in the cases, could anyone put themselves on the naked girls' shoes?

I just watched back an interview of Gillian Chung, whom condemned by public after the scandal.

she said :' I'm silly, I'm naive" a statement that filled with guilty, self-condemn, regret, will to bear consequences before Edison- whom should face public before the victims- took action, was not accepted by public.

Everyone was saying she was fake. Why couldn't we showed support with silence? stop releasing arrows on her. Too late to shout this out, after almost 2 years of the scandal.

Personally, I'm really impressed with her courage of standing out to face the strike. A normal girl, if same thing happened on her, i think most probably she might wants to end her life before the call; from one perspective, Gill is a normal girl, from another perspective, she is a public person. A normal girl can walk on the street, still, without too many people knowing her, Gill? I think she rather stayed in room even her nature calls rang, when she was in a public function.

As a female, i just have sympathize her.

What's most ridiculous was: "i can't believe she would had sex"

=.=

come on! she was 23++ when she took pictures, 23++ years old adult shouldn't have sex, whose privilege to have one?

Back to the topic, I've some friends took pictures like this, 9 out of 10 was half forced, one third of the 9 was took without their consent! who should be blamed then?

"Girls should protect themselves......know a guy in depth before go with them...." bla bla bla...

What era now? technological advanced age, illness of society take it of leave it la. Even decades ago, female at that age not even know how their husband looked like before had sex!

Guys like him, control your precious before take action. Cock doesn't think but brain does, don't let the joystick take over your brain. If it does, behave like a real man; not a man by name.

No Move Back

2009-11-25T18:22:00.003Z

-Convert 12,500 USD to RM, how much it is?

-They said wanted to hire you, but you don't speak fluent English.

-“I just said once NO”; my face gone red.

Every little thing happened around reminds me I'm dealing with work."You have no one to rely on" My mum said

Finally, it is the end of study life which i committed for 17years. GOSH, I've studied for 17 years, for God's sake. "how many 10 years in one's life?" quoted from Cai-gou (Rosy Business巾帼枭雄）Just because of the education system in Malaysia, my past life was shaped by study-school-study-college, studying actually took quarter of my life if I have 68 years old life, it is not easy to shift a habit which instilled for years...and now, it is time to change. First step for the changing, get a job first.

I think i'm optimistic enough to face the problems of job hunting, so I told people good job can be found for sure, but depends how long you gonna spend in the process of hunting one. But i'm getting worry lately, one of the reasons of cause derived from mum. Calls are quite frequent recently. "How? What you doing now? Found a job yet？Did you call to Ah Beng's brother's fren's colleague, ask him to open a door for you to work in XXX la!" Hello, the colleague whom is a friend of Ah Beng's brother, how do you address yourself when you call him?

"Hi, i'm XXX, my mum is Ah Beng's brother's friends...bla bla bla...." can you tell how complicated the connection is? Well, this is just part of the problems.

Interview session, everything runs smooth, but still no news days after it. In the end I got to know they crab at my verbal skill...

Another interview session, things happened as above, everything runs smooth. She said will be calling me either today or tomorrow (either 25 or 26), but till now, no calls. SAD. I should have known what caused the failure...Who is always wanted to have my complexion, say it looks rosy even not applying blusher? Tell you, get it if you want and I could. This ‘adorable’ complexion betrayed, and trapped me—to tell people I’m nervous even If I’m or I’m not.

Honestly, when seeing people around getting jobs with good offers, how could I not afraid of it? Life still goes one huh? Welcome to reality then…

p/s: tough time never last but tough me do; I’m still holding this spirit, and it will be holding on me for the rest of my life. I don’t feel to give the battle…because if I give, i’ll be in miserable life. The environment is crucial to shape your personality; Me- Mia, is willing to take up the challenge. Even it is a big amount, 12,500 USD. If positive thought could make things, I hope the magnetic field of my positivity connected with the authority. You know what I want.

I"m ok?

2009-11-20T12:46:00.004Z

It's been years studying communication,we were taught to recognize the fact of interpersonal communication is ambiguity; due to individual's perception and of cause it is very based on every elements consists in the communication process. A sentence, a word, a question, an answer always being interpreted differently; interpretation is based on the setting of the conversation's environment, communicators' cultural background, educational background and most importantly, the meaning of the "words" being used.

Imagine, if a service crew asked: " Coffee?", she is asking if the guest wants one;
and the gentleman said: " I'm ok".

o.0

what does it means by the "I'M OKIE"
I'm ok with the offer; or I'm ok, leave me alone, i don't need one?

A simple conversation diverse meanings. So what should the service crew reacts towards the answer?
the best is, double confirm what does the OKIE means.
"i bet you do understand English,don't you?"
................

Marvelous...Fantastic...
This is why sometimes conflicts happen, when you doubt with the answer, recommended to find out what does the answer means ; however asking might lead to killing reply. What an ironic situation and yet this ironical scenes are always playing everywhere, over and over~

Congratulations.
any way to avoid?

The Secret.

2009-11-19T20:29:00.004Z

secRet is: be positive, positive thought makes things.

How great one's thought could change things? I've heard a piece of infor which i'm not quite sure the credibility.
Said it was an experiment did on a prisoner, or prisoners, purpose was to identify how great one's mentality was. Prisoner's eye was covered by cloth, wrist was slightly cut, tap was turned on and the prisoner was told: this is the sound from you bleeding wrist, the blood is flooded on the floor.....in the end, the prisoner dead.

The truth is, the cut on wrist was not enough to cause bleeding as the tap did, and also not enough to cause one dying of bleeding. What made the death, actually was the thought of the prisoner... Have you heard a story of a mother carry a car when her child was under the car? how could a woman carry a car which weight few times of hers? Thought, i bet. No, i convince.

Men's life can always be ruined by their thought. family tragedies happened always because of husbands/ wives gone mad based on certain reasons; people suicide always happened when they think negatively. I told my colleague when i was 17, "happy or sad, you are given 24 hours perday; to make it yours or make it sad, you decide." why not make the day yours?

I'm encouraging myself, if one day i lose my courage, i wish i know the direction to trace back this post. If I don't,please show me.

And the secret is: be positive and process positive thought.

preface of 2012; 18112009

2009-11-18T17:33:00.001Z

The prophecy of end of the world is always spreading around. There were few times saying the end is coming, but i'm here blogging means it never comes. Until weeks before 2012 is on screen, i got to know such prophecy again; yesterday, i watched this movie, an apocalyptic movie which presents a lot scenes of how our Mother Earth is destroyed. Storm, is one of it...

then today's afternoon, i was sitting in the living room. Weather changed suddenly, and raining heavily. Perhaps it should be a word to describe how terrible the rain was...I can only say the rain was heavy until sight very bad, trees collapse, bikes and even hawker stall all collapsed; a kid was blew by the strong wind. I feel like it was a symptom of end of the world. Beside, water leaking into my room, my mattress got wet because of it... I think, if one day earth quake happen in Malaysia, a building like i'm staying sure going to collapse, and me? haha... can you tell the crisis?

broken branches, collapsed bike and hawker stall

broken and fallen branches

see the bike....

see all photos above...

how if the end of the world is really coming?

well....

it ain't a problem we should worry, because it comes when it comes, with small strength of a human being, do you think you have the ability to change it?

I just hope, if it does come, hit me and let me die straight.

Things about me, happened about me.

2009-11-16T11:46:00.001Z

I'm back. There is a difference with now and few months back, amount of post is what im referring to.

Job hunting. I've been keep sending in resumes, keep going for interview. However, none suit me. Waiting for Refinery studio in Sg, Genting, and Public Bank. They said: work for living, not work for money; for me, they are same.
First time ate giant prawn. Let me describe how big it was...look at your palm, yes, as that big. it was cooked and bended, can you imagine? and the meat is half finger thick..
Stayed in luxury hotel. Highland Hotel.
watching people in and out of the door in casino, saw an uncle uncle holding RM100 note with 4-5 inches thick, don't tell me there is not worth fewty thousand.
Addicted to western food, i think this is side effect of being there. or this is hinting how much i miss there? ^.<
Doubtful. Convincing myself. and I'm really trying hard.
Mental blocked. and I'm really trying hard, too.
Adventure in the mid night. Venue: Genting Theme Park, haunted house. That was a great experience, trust me. XD
drama soup boiling. '宫心计”
Listened to someone, maybe should pass at least part of heart to God?

I'm blanked. due to inefficient sleep this 2 days.

I've had unpleasant experiences.

2009-11-10T09:00:00.001Z

What is going to happen when a vehicle is burned? Explosion…

The accident traced back to 30 minutes (8.35p.m, 9^th Nov) before I blog this post. Make it clear, the vehicle is not exploded but burned, so I’m alright. I was reading articles with my baby, why did I read an article? Because I miss UK very much…

I smelled the burned smell even before I start my baby, the coach was smog bound. Not surprisingly, I was steady as nothing happen. I knew something happened to the train, but what I was thinking was, what can I do other than rushing out from the train? If touch-wood anything happen. I’m a person like this, looked like don’t care of things around, that’s why people care of me, always scold me about this. Xiang, Cheng, Yiheng…ok, all guys…fine, back to the topic. It is really dangerous, if anything happen, if the train exploded, I’ll be not able to update this blog FOREVER, nor you guys see my smile, listen to my laughing, FOREVER.

The train stopped at middle of nowhere, and I was urged by the nature call; almost all passengers went down, but I was still reading the articles. A passenger came up, shook head, and said: I think the train is on fire , And I listened the staffs said don’t know what “bakar”… no wonder the burned smell happened so badly, I was not confused of the smog , but I was besotted of noticing all those thing but never react to self-rescue. If a smart one noticed something wrong with the train, possible of the one still continue what she was doing as if nothing happen? I should be more alerted of things around, I mean it.

The train stopped about 35 minutes, only continue the journey, it was almost reaching the destination. What makes people dissatisfied was, the staffs never make announcement, at east, inform passengers what happen, I saw many old folks rush here and there, keep calling, the service deserve to be blamed of making everyone frighten out. Who I called? Daddy. If not my jumbo’s message asked me call him back with : ARE YOU OK? CALL ME BACK!, I won’t made a call. The “!” is really a powerful mark, and sorry of making you worry>< promise I’ll take a good care of myself.

What to do for a girl like me when I want to go back Ipoh?

Take bus is always dangerous, I thought KTM is much better but who knows, it happened thing like this. Seems, I should have a car, and I promise myself, I will, and soon…

it comes when it comes.

2009-11-09T03:05:00.001Z

The truth was known；I was ready. When it comes to face the problem, somehow fear arises.

I just doubt can i cope with the weakness of mine. I've been trained to do that for years, which level i'm in, the picture of that is clearer than everyone's perceived。

I've the habit of blogging equals to process good witting skill? put it in this way, I've have the ability to visualize words to picture, might have the ability to put minds in words, however, the words is 'words' that i know only, maybe who close with me will know it, not everyone close with me what. Every of my group mates know i hate paper work, but this "executive" is expected to have good command in writing skill...and was told, CC, forward is damn important there, what represent one before the one is presented physically, writing skill come first. faint...well, i truly know i have certain level of creativity, certain level of writing skill if brush up a little bit, for internally it is useful, but when it comes to a competitive field, like Media. i know my posts are always thrown as trash. but when i think of the rest can get a job and be the same position there, i cant find myself a reason to be frighten of. maybe, posts followed will be in a formal way, F words, imply, hint might be used lesser....

那时那日的美雅，再也看不到了。

T.I.E.

take it easy.

---->M-I-A<----- Angel burns inside for me, devil burns inside of me.

新年不過兩三天

明年今日之回来。

太快了

正常的，不正常的。

Good Question

Cheers

What is Regret?

I was given a formula to success

The Only Thing You Can Do Now

oh-so-irritating

牛～

The First Impression

Flame 2

Flame

You Will See Me in TIME Magazine!

Branches.

My Business

To make a move

Lend me a pair of sincere ears.

The Fox and The Tail

It Just Happen

Found out

The Best Rojak ever.

room to let @ pindah rumah

今日好

Respect

-You know how to spell RESPECT doesn't mean you do it well. If you don't respect me at the first place, how do you expect me to respect you?-

I always respect PEACE, if you wan to break the bone, reverse the PEACE, you deserve it.

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NAH

Determination

Unforgettable

Law of Nature

what for keeping it if dont want?

Titleless.

faking

wtf Spring and Autumn fact.

I miss you, can i meet you again?

as simple as calculation

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

simple thoughts.

happy happy!

猫

Been There.

the very first time

Bella said

One Night Stand

Life is like rowing upstream

luck- seh....

The best CharSiew

just like that

Summary of March

Linkage made by patches .

Compare (and there you finish)

Stage 3

H.I.M

*yawn* *again* ==

This is the hidden truth

Ops. It happened again/ Braces

Talent. Interest. Culinary.

Relek

ya da ya da-- your day your day. Yeepy!

=.=

F you on the spot will only make me look stupid like you.

These few days of mine.

Fair question

Surprising, Induge Cafe.

Lovely Dinner.

GOTCHA!

Read.

MY Astro 至尊流行榜颁奖典礼之Show Power! 音乐会 2010

Resignation

What wear you down is not the choice you made but the choice you don't make.

random facts of me.

Don't...lose....faith...

Down-to-earth

-You know how to spell RESPECT doesn't mean you do it well.
If you don't respect me at the first place, how do you expect me to respect you?-

yawn again ==