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Saturday, November 2, 2013

Madness is not meant to be hidden, I'm just following my inner moonlight.

Another 60 days to year 2014, recap what happened the most in year 2013 is "First Time".
Noted this is not a unusual term, there are way too much "First Time" in life, however these few are remarkable one. At least, there are what I had been always wanted to do; and now, I have done. 

First in the list, braces. 
There are few posts few years back mentioned I would like to put on braces. That was procrastinated for few years, and finally it was actualized at May.  
That will be a months journey. I wish it can be shorter. 
People are telling: you are so brave. 
No, I'm not. I'm too coward not to make the items in my to-do-list happen. 
Since this appeared in my to-do-list, I have no reason not to make it concrete. 
After all, I'm just pleasing my self. 


Life, is too long when you are self-constrained to the frame that is not set by you, but others; and it is too short when you are blindly following the environment. 

Second first time, is a pair of tatoo. 
Though Chinese like to quote this: your body is given by parents. You shall appreciate them but not spoil them.
Tell you what, absofuckinglutely agree. That's why I try not to eat too much meat and consume more on vege and fruits. 
But, I don't think tatoo violate or go against the ancient thought, it is just a permanent painting on your body. 
The paint on your wall, when years passing by, the color will be faded away, let alone your skin? This is why most people are saying not to tatoo because it looks good at the time being but when skin get loosen, it will look like a shit. 
Well.. opinion is accepted gladly and I shall continue what I think is correct. 

So, she is my tatoo artist. Hishiko Ng. In fact she is my senior in college, from an artist turn to be a tatoo artist. 

What turned out is a pair of chinese word. 
女and 子
one at my left inner ankle and one at my right inner ankle.
they are my identity.

好
when I put my foot together, they combine to this word. 
and they always be with me. 



This is how they turn out to be. 
Somehow if you look from far, you will not know they are tatoos, most people think they are wound. 
Only when you see closely, or when you ask. 
That is what I obtained at July, however 2 months later.........................


This is my latest tatoo. 
It comes with a pair of wings and a self-motivational quotes. 
"Tough Time Never Last But Tough Mia Does" 
come with a pair wings. 
Got that when I traveled to Bangkok. 
My friend who was going together the trip got hers there too, and customers' reviews are good.
It was in Kaoshan Road. 
A female who doesn't know Thai, look for the tatoo shop alone, gave your idea on how you want tatoo to be done,, lied down in a strange place, start the work. 
If you ask me scare or not? hmmm.. need to be more alert and take the risk, because you are alone. Nevertheless, that was recommended by many people, a certain level of safety is confirmed. 

Unlike my previous tatoo artist, they design for me and advise. So the whole thing is my idea, and not beautified. There lies a possibility for next procedure to make it more appealing. =) 

This is how the whole thing looks like. Length is longer than my palm (my palm is bigger and longer than most ladies).

Compare to the first one, this one more painful. Although inner ankle has more nerves and suppose contributes more to painfulness, but don't know why when coloring the wing was the most painful time. 
It took lesser than 3 hours to finish it, and I finished 2 Chang Beers. In the process I requested for 5 minutes break when I can't take the painfulness, it was almost the end of the process.

hmm... after the tatoo, when i was taking a tuktuk from Kaoshan Road back to Shukumvit. 

Third "First Time"
BUNGEE JUMP

The lowest height in the world, only like 7 floors high. 
Sounds low, but when you are standing at the border, you know you are gonna jump down, you will notice your heart beat that you always ignore.
The whole process is the moment before you decide to jump. 
You know you gonna jump, you know you will be safe. But the moment you post like ready, guts that needed from the moment your brain send a message to the muscle and nerves at your feet to release yourself from standing at the border, and guts that needed to persist the message to fall freely seriously take alot. I presume more the sperms for every spurt. 





When you are tied at your feet, you have to move bit by bit, until the border, looked down. 
"fuck shit....am i going to jump down?" this might be what appear in your mind. 
Then, you thought you are close enough to the border, and yet the helper say..
"keluar sikit! keluar sikit!"
"Omg, keluar sikit straight fall lo! keluar?!!!" I dont know how you will think, but that's my thought at tht moment. 
"keluar sikit!!!"
Untill I feel my half feet were out of the border of the board...I know...no choice and i gotta fucking jump down. 
Without hesitate half a second more, I feel the gravity and seconds later i hanging in the air...... 
as per picture below. 


oh.. this is just another funny picture when we were so concered about the sunlight UV and PA. 

Of course, there are more first time in my year 2013, but above are most significant one, and need some courage to do. 

I think, we are all too busy and tired because of soaking in the high tension society, untill we forgot what we want in life. Or, forgot why we live. 
We live for ourselves, not merely for others. (take note, we do live for others too, but not merely)
"You are too busy being YOU that you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are." (John Green, The Fault in Our Stars, 2012) 

-end of the thought for now- 
to be cont. 

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

一片忠于自己的心情

The thought of putting some words on this site has been flashing in my mind in recent months, but my mind is like a constipating asshole, hardly to squeeze content out; while my thoughts are like foods in a glutton's stomach, too much.

I remember I have posted up this statement once in FB, and no body understand what the heck was I trying to tell.
"I prefer words".
In fact I also can't understand.
To better express my thought, it should be in this way:
"I prefer letters(written words) over words(uttered words).
This was recorded in my diary, oh...once upon a time...

So...the blog had been abandoned for at least 6 months. 
And I've been thinking what title to give to this entry. Finally, the title confirmed as " 一片忠于自己的心情"


Mood 1:
People like to ask: how are you when meeting with each other, at least in western country it just simple works like "Hi!";n but most of the time I don't know how to answer, even it doesn't request me to answer how am I really doing.

How are you?
hmm..good.
hmm...ok la...
hmm..like that loh.
hmm...GOOD~~~~what about you? u are doing well huh? ......

Different mood, different answer.
To be very honest to answer this question: good and bad.
Good, I get to experience more, I have people that I love and love me too,
Bad, i have yet to achieve my goal...
Most of the time, bad part conquer majority of my mind, I've been thinking how and what to do, and at the same time waiting for the right timing to come.
"wait for....? hey, take action! what are you waiting for?"
'ehem...well...before the strategy is out, what kinda action I can take? I do what i can do now, which doesn't result much, so I'm thinking for another more effective strategy; and luck plays another important role...this might be the thing that I'm waiting for?"
well...an argument with no ending. I'm still doing what I can.

Mood 2:
Friends are getting married, getting children, buying houses, changing cars.
Marriage, one of the best dude of mine, married last year and born a baby girl too; UK glasses gang, 1 engaged 1 is getting married; course mates, few are married.
People asked me about this: when are you getting married?
"Not soooo soon la. a lot of things to think about after signing the paper. Only do it when career is build and stable la"
"Why? after that not working meh?" "so what has it to do with career"
............

Mood 3:
Had a pet, the first ever puppy in my life.
notice I use HAD? ya, it died eventually, after 3 weeks in my house.
Very very sad, but now recover, sometimes her shadow will still climb up to my mind, remind me to remember her. Of course I do Coffee =) RIP
Now, have another new pup, sister of Coffee with different breed.
We name her Momoe, thinking to change a name, "Mo-Moe" 无无... doesn't sound good.
发达女?Richie? Cash? Toto? Bonus? 头奖?I think call her "Soon-soon"顺顺, but, she is a girl?

Mood 4:
People come and go.
Sister of my friend passed away.
Bf of my ex-colleague passed away.
Friends in couple broke up.
无常?ya....wu-chang.

If this entry to be continued, it will be thousands of words.

So... look forward!
撑得住既!

Cheers,
Mia

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Cheers

Don't really blog about what I think directly, that's why most of my posts are not reader friendly. 
 Just to cheer myself up.
*aghast*
can't put a proper word here. 
It's better not to put. 
ask how, don't ask why.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

I was given a formula to success

talk about my name. 
Mia Foo Mee Ngan 
in Hokkien, Mia= destiny. Mia Foo, sounds like bad destiny; Mee Ngan, sound like 'Meng Ngang" 命硬in Cantonese, either name is not a good sign. 
Although I don't have a good childhood like most of the people.
However, I got whatever I want in my life, provided I really go for it. 

I blamed at luck at times, after think deeply, I'm actually better off than many people, at least i have what they don't have. 
Everyone talks about opportunity. 

Friend, you wanna have a better life in the future, no doubt. else why the hell you wok so hard for? 
For some people, no matter how hard they work, theirs hard works are not recognized. 
For some people, they are looking for opportunity but there is no one to tell them that this is an opportunity. 

I'm the lucky one, which I have ald told Jason (my best dude) before, I have what I want, even I don't have it, there are somebody to help me. But of course, I need to really work my hard shit out to get it. there is no free lunch in the world. 

I got the formula to success. 
I got the formula to success
I got the formula to success
I got the formula to success
I got the formula to success
I got the formula to success
I got the formula to success 

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

牛~

听了一段很有意思的话。
把它改了一下,变成自己的话。

“几乎没有多少人能够抵挡金钱的诱惑;金钱不是万能,不过它能够保护你爱的人和身边的人不被金钱诱惑。”
震撼。
这两个个别本来没有威胁意思的单字,在我听完这句话之后深深地往心上插上旗帜。

钱是万恶啊。
多少人因为它做尽坏事,自尊道德尊严亲情爱情理智,通通被撕破。
能够秉持艺术之梦,不像万恶之首折腰的,小女子只有深深地敬礼。
而那些对金钱嗤之以鼻, 鄙视着他人对金钱的热诚,说着自己不会为金钱的作出违反自己原则的人,小女子对他们也来个深深地鞠躬。 

人啊~
要是今天有人给你1万,叫你离开身边的那位,你头也不回的走掉;
当那人说10万,你的脚步依然大步迈向自己的天堂;
当那人说1000万,你的脚步停了一下;
1000万。。。脚步困难的往前踏多几步;
1亿。。。你还能不回头吗?
是低估了筹码的号召力?还是自己的道德理念站稳住脚?

身边不少人被金钱害死。
先说大老虎。
认识多年的朋友为了数十万,陷他一脚,至今仍然不见,老胡仍然爬不起。
小老虎?
为了一笔听说客观的数目,被骗了5个数字。丢了不只是钱,是信任,是亲情。
再说最近身边朋友发生的。
就被骗了一座别墅的钱,过百万。还一辈子也不懂又没有能力清债。
要是这个时候有人给他100万,叫他离开,不要管这些事妻房子女,你是他,你会走还是留?1000万吧?走还是留?
话别说的太尽。

我又发完一番伟言/危言;不爽就别看吧。
这社会还有言论自由。

晚安。 

Thursday, February 10, 2011

The First Impression

That is the first image u left for others. 
You can say nothing, you can do nothing, but it will still leave people an impression of the image you carry. 

24th. 
Through out those years, what image i left for others?
And what should I give others in the future. 

Rebel...I think most of the people in secondary school would agree
Act like a boy....definitely this is agreed by most of the people 
Big Sister... don't know is it because of my size in those days
Strong women.....Tough women....
This is a heavy word. A very heavy description, indeed, HEAVY.

What trained me to be one? Until these day I already feel numb to tell again. 
But if there is a choice, will I prefer to be one? 
Ya, definitely....but can I have a little privilege, a little rewards, a little request?
I would like to be a strong and tough female who can be pampered, can be taken care of. 
'You are very independent, you are very tough, you are very special, you are different, you are...'
it's been not less than 100 times I'm praised in this way. My pleasure =) 

But if given a choice, can I choose to be the one who can hide in side an even stronger arm?  
The biggest joke ever is: men thought a strong and tough one doesn't deserve protection. 
What is the point of being strong then? while I lose all the privileges that a girl deserves? 

Biasa dah, tapi biasa pun mimpi nak dapat protection jugak. 
I'm just a species of chromosome X. 

By the way, 
Happy Chinese New Year and Happy 9th Chinese New Year. 
 


Monday, January 24, 2011

Flame 2

Light + Matches. 
A box of matches was abandoned, Gerald brought it home, and so happen it was put under the light. 
The light said let me illuminate you, hopefully my heat could dry up the dampness in you, so you can shine as how you should be. 
 
The matches in the end burn themselves not because too much of the heat from the light, but the purpose they are created to. 

Like a pencil and an eraser. 
Pencil: I'm Sorry.
Eraser: For What? You Didn't Do Anything Wrong.
Pencil: I'm Sorry Cause You Get Hurt Because Of Me. 
Whenever I Made A Mistake, You're Always There To Erase It. 
But As You Make My Mistakes Vanish, 
You Lose A Part Of Yourself. 
You Get Smaller And Smaller Each Time.
Eraser: That's True. But I Don't Really Mind. 
You See, I Was Made To Do This. I Was Made To Help You 
Whenever You Do Something Wrong. 
Even Though One Day, I Know I'll Be Gone 
And You'll Replace Me With A New One, 
I'm Actually Happy With My Job. 
So Please, Stop Worrying. 
I Hate Seeing You Sad.

Sounds touching. Shed tears when first heard this. 
Everything was created for one purpose, eraser was made to cover the pencil's ass; but the matches is made to start up a flame, not to be heat up by the light. 
Matches are flammable, easily burn up...
You might have forgotten this since you started to use lighter. 


-The End- 

Friday, December 31, 2010

You Will See Me in TIME Magazine!

Year by year, that's why, I'm turning into 24. 

Since 2002 Dec, I decide to make my life to be abundant one, life is meant to be abundant, isn't it. I declared to my classmate: " one day you will see me in TIME magazine" 
17,18,19,20,21-- I said I wanted to focus on study, so I scored top 9th in Advanced Dip, but it doesn't mean anything. I focused too much in analyzing cause and fact. I focused too much in study drama--> damn this! 
22-- I said I want to strive for success when I stepped into working life. 
23-- ...

2258, everyone in FB pouring their true heart, true wish towards the new year.
- This is not a good year, I want to have a better one in year 2011
- My resolution in 2011 is to bla bla bla
- Year 2010 treats me like shit! 2011 give me luck! 
If you can imagine how my face and body language shows, *shrugged + nod* 
Why resolution must be set in the end of the year but not when you noticed something wrong? 
90% of those ppl who wrote that will repeat the same shit in end of 2011, and wishing for a better year in year 2012. Come on...let Mia reminds you, if Mayan is correct, u left 10 months in 2012 only. 

What i wrote above support the fact of why humans' mouth and eye located at front but not back. 
We talk we look forward but never look back and see what went wrong,  and never correct from the mistake. 

I dare not, DARE NOT to declare anything this year... What I know is to do to try whatever I can I could I should. My target set in year 2009, it still knocks at me every single minute; my wish in year 2002, i'm still looking forward to it, if this is achievable. I was scolded of not being focused... I thought, I can multitasking, aren't I. I can, I really can. 
You should never ask a deaf how sweet is Carpenter's voice, they will never know, If they knew, they must have forgotten too. 
A blind man shall never been asked how beautiful the rainbow is. 
You will never know if you never know; you will never know if you were not part of them.  

I'm young, I can take risk, I can bare risk. I'll do WHATEVER I can to achiever what i want and what I've set. 
in this journey called life, we all are either die too soon or live too long. 
the word of regret is forever deleted in my dictionary. 
We are human, we learn from mistake. 



Saturday, December 4, 2010

To make a move

yupe, I love the red mountain logo so much.
since 2 days back the rythem of the theme song was keep surrounding in my mind, and I agree this is a good song. 
Recently i'm starting to absorb as much financial knowledge as I can and started to read those financial newspaper, share market news, stocks, everything regarding to investment; and also fall in love with a book called:" why we want you to be rich"
A very good point that I've picked up(as far as the half book i've read)- Society now has been changing from diamond shape (which Rich and Poor occupied the tip of top and bottom while middle class has occupied the middle part of the diamond) to a shape of concave lens and the middle part is getting thinner, soon the middle class will distinct from the middle. In short it means, rich will get richer and poor will get poorer. This is the problem, so they( the authors) want us to be rich is because they dont want us to be part of the problem, they want us to be part of the solution so the hypothesis they made will not happen. 
Thus i've been contemplating to start another journey; to be more precise i don't only think this after read this book, even earlier i've been thinking of this. The killing point is that, sayonara is hard to sing. 

to be cont. 

Friday, October 29, 2010

The Fox and The Tail

I'm Foo, not Fool.
The beauty of Chinese make Foo become FOX-- 'hu' 狐
so MeeNgan Foo actually is Megan Fox, don't you think that is not just a coincidence?
okay, that's all for today bullshit.
The thing is like this, long time ago, there were 2 foxes. A fox mama and a fox daughter, fox daughter loved mama's tail very much. She said the tails was very soft, very nice to hold, holding it was like filled with happiness. Mama told her, she had the tail too, it was just right at her back side. Since then the fox daughter wanted to catch her own tail like how she hold mama's one, but neither she touch nor hold the tails. Until one day she was really frustrated, she cried to her mama. "i can't catch my tail..........i cant catch my happiness~!!!!!!!!!!!"
mama said:"you walk ahead, dont look back.... see, ur tail is following you as you walk ahead, your happiness is be with you as long as you walk ahead"
-end-

We get inspired by story, but seldom we act like the story. That's why I never see people wear glass heel; that's why i never see a girl keeps her hair so long untill can throw down from castle and let a guy climb up.


But if the story could get you to grin for a while, this is what we should be grateful of.
Guys, have a nice day.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

It Just Happen

got back home at this time, not this late, I think half an hour ago.
I wanted to wash cloth and take bath, but just one minute before I want to take up my pail with unwashed cloth, my housemate put his cloth in the machine; and his roommate was using the machine before him. >.< lll
what to do, wait until they finish lo.
then when I realise I should take shower first and wash others cloth with hand, my another housemate stepped into bath room. arghh!
what to do, wait until my turn lo.

sometimes, things happened, what can you do? blame the situation or blame yourself of not acting n such way so that the things happened wont happen? Things go well or not, sometime is not up to our human's control, there must be a reason of such thing happen; since we can't control the uncertain factors which ruin our day, why not we control our thought which ultimately is controlled by us?

sometimes, again, things happened just like that. You can explain but not justify.
I can explain why am I into cross so much but can't justify why.
I like just because I like how it looks like, but why am I so particular like this pattern, non justifiable.
I can explain why am I in this job but i can't justify what makes me in to this career but not others?
I can explain why do I believe in this and that but it is not justifiable why so happen this 2 things come in to my life. to be precise: Insurance and Christianity.
So i said, everything happened must have its reasons, so when it happens, just let it be.

one thing I wish to shout out loud very long time ago: I love Western culture, I love English, I love white, I even have doubt am I wrongly reincarnated into oriental country and in a conservative family.

one thing I should not deny is: I was immature when i thought I was mature enough at that age, if given my recent age, I wont be doing that or I could have a better solution if given a chance to do that again, or choose it again, or act it again.
Give me further sight, I want to see further =)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Found out

Out of sudden, I have a feeling of valueless, if continuing doing what I'm doing.
Other than working; other than being asked what is the NUMBER' other than viewing friends' updates; other than viewing sexy and pretty girls' photos; other than thinking of starting up own business; other than looking for a better way out,other than entertaining those irritating people, I do nothing everyday.

Have a very good idea in brain, but not executing it yet~ say in such way to ease my guiltiness, because I don't know when am I going to start it. We can't deny flame always come and go if it is not kept flaming; this minute the thought of getting this thing done is filled in my mind, next minute i might just give it up. How ridiculous.

Was told I have a chance to present and represent, but candidates chosen are still what they used to see. Hmmm... a little bit of disappointed. If i'm given a chance, ok...I'll accept the challenge. See my title of this blog, I spit in the face of challenge. Ya, i'm waiting....

Seriously, bored to the max on my recent life. Thought of changing keep arousing me, but yet none steps are taken to make a change. In work, I dont act as proactive as before, of course! I've learnt. the more u suggest the more you need to do; it ain't a matter of doing it, but no result turn out or THEY people who occupied bigger table really expect you've done all research and all preparation, when the picture present is clear and workable, they say go ahead, and change a word of praise: WELLDONE. haha, tell u here, urge of getting higher pay is more than desire of listening to welldone, why? Because after welldone, what's next is "now u can do more and I'm expecting you to get me more value. or number.
I also become not so patient in workplace compare to last time. maybe if i were them I'll behave like this too, but now i'm not. So hardly to tolerate them. I almost lost my patient and spoke in a wrong tone, knew it has definitely defended offended them, what to do? what done is done, now i can only glu back the pieces of vase...cracks on the vase, just leave it. I can't serve them like im a slave. I'm paid for my job scope, if you are not contributing to my Kay Pee Eye, sorry, I'm hardly to please you; and also if I have ald told you what to do but yet you didnt do,and also call me anytime and expecting I get ur things done within 1 hour as if i'm working 24/7/7, sorry, your desire is hardly to be satisfied. I think everyone of us need to be taught what is discipline.........

Recently had a lunch with a friend, to be frank, he is my ex. He advised me to know more, M-O-R-E. He said I looked very nerd. hahahahahaha............speechless la, maybe I really am, but will not be in the future.

You know how an animal trapped in a cage? I think i'm the animal, and i can tell how does it feel. I'd rather to be torn in to pieces just to get the shit of the cage, and then the pieces to be sambung balik and Mia is back.

i just found out, there are lots to be improved.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

今日好

今天的部落用中文,不用广东话。

今天过得好。。。
我的打扮好特别;好特别的打扮令我发型好级别~
那花了不超过20块的套装穿的我格外不舒服,内层的线头刺得我浑身起鸡皮疙瘩,特高的领子令到我的短发往外翘,外翘的短发看起来真级别。 衣服的线头根根刺着皮肤,人也不自主地提高。。。像是惊弓之鸟,对身边事物特别提高警惕,人也变得特别敏感。 看见车子往前驶来,竟妄想它将会撞过来;眼见前方车辆摩托车快要相撞,不禁捏一把冷汗;见老摩托骑士不开灯驾驶,竟变得闷闷不乐。一切一切,就像吹涨的气球;亦像孕妇超肿胀的双脚,层皮薄得蔽眼即能见其下血丝;一刺既破。

今天过得好。。。 
走在回家路上,心中想着的过去;级别得来又带点情趣。想着遭遇;级别得来带点苦笑。想着你我他的分别,即级别又混扰。摇头一想,为何变得如此多疑?即使他人对我心怀不愧,对我怀恨在心,对我误会重重,有心占我便宜,他妈的老娘人定胜天。有时候多看一眼那些人的嘴脸,少一点控制都会挥拳向以示敬,只不过越想越无能,追根究底就只有改变自己方能以双眼往下瞄人,那种人。镜子里的自己偶尔过得好辛苦,但之一于二的分别就只是多了一划少了一横,想着想着想歪了,就勒一勒自己,二就变一,一也会变二。

今天过得好。。。
听说我变“干”了。
一个女子变干即变“奸”
变奸没有错,变奸保护自己更是天公地道;只是奸不来的鼠鹿要如何跟豺狼拼斗?
一面数着粮银,一面想着。。。 
坐在快乐城看着老婆婆经过,变干的鼠鹿被滋润了一下。
好不快乐哦~~~
补充,是眼睛被滋润了一下。 

今天过得好。。。
级别。
这几天过得好级别。
过去那星期过得好级别。
不过那级别发型的始作俑者--不过20块的衣服让我想通一件事。
一件衣服里面的线头令我精神紧绷;一个头脑里的线头令我想的太多。
放松一下,等待旅行吧。 
我想,死在雪山也是个浪漫的悲剧。(鸡蛋!那该死的韩剧烧掉吧!)
放松一下,冲个凉,睡觉吧。
我想,睡醒后我是个变干的女鼠鹿,头颅内不相干的线头也被挑走了!

今天还有两份钟。
明天要过得更好。
言的利,这次我写的部落比你的抽象吧。哈哈!

                     


Sunday, August 8, 2010

Law of Nature

Law of Nature-- it is you will scream when you are frighten out. this is just a very simple example.
This law's content is set by nature and thus it is validity everywhere, according to Aristotle, this is the common law according to the nature. In shot, this is just a common sense or any behavior, response that is deemed as NATURE.

In Chinese proverb, there is a sentence said: one type rice cultivate hundred types of people. How true is it, you will know when you look around. I met somebody, very... petty, this doesn't mean she is stingy in spending, i think "small-town-manner" would be more suitable. She is just nice, but a very typical revenger; and will feel offended if her idea is not adopted or accepted. What i can say is she has very own style, doesn't like means doesn't like, maybe this is called spontaneous. But look from other perspective, she said she will not show good face to people who offend her, when the person is with her she talks nicely with people. Sometime I will think, am I one of the person in her list? Talking bad of me in front of others but talking nicely with me. She said she doesn't like to entertain people, very fake; sometimes I think, aren't you faking almost all the time? She said she hate the person who take care of own ass, I think aren't you doing the same? This made me very depress sometime. Doesn't mean you hate the person, then drag me into water. If you talk about the matter of fair, I think isn't it you should fair to me at the first place? One type rice cultivate one of those person, i'm glad I'm not in this category.
What does this to do with the title above?
according to Law of Nature, this is instinct of every human? but according to my adoption to Law of Nature, I think better keep myself away from telling her gossip (yes,sometimes we do talk about this), better just hear but not listen to what she said(when that is not advice), better get myself away from ANY conflict, better keep myself shut up. To alive this is the formula; to survive, I'm still looking for the formula.
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before end the story, let me show something.

 this is what I saw when I on my lappy and MSN.
isn't the 2 most visible picture showing the same pose? haha....

p/s: the eagle is missing the wind, so do the wind missing the eagle.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Titleless.

My hands are on keyboard quite sometime but couldn't even type a single word. 
Doesn't this show I have a lot to express but have no way to start from?
So, there are some self-blaming issue-- sometimes i'm really lose control. 
at the other side of the coin, how can I not tolerate to those people? say it like: i have to...
but thanks God....someone told me something and from there i realize some others thing. 
yea lo! get the right spot light and grow under the right light. 
 
this morning ald felt the wrongness, so msg a friend. He replied: do whatever your goal has set, there is no right or wrong but only win or lose. Hey this is the truth this is the reality; how can one deny this? 
but but but, selective listen can be a good approach if it is applied correctly; whatever might be hurtful, forget it, adopt the encouraging part. I mean, hey Mia, you know you are capable of,centuries of pressure suppress on a right stone and make it into a raw diamond, correct approach makes it into a valuable shinning diamond. Let's see how long this diamond needs; I make it 2 years, all right? =)  

almost done my self-encouragement part. Time to share some F-up thing. 
I've never seen people have such a high pride and dignity when others was asking for their name. fine, dont tell, vertical or horizontal, have to tell after meeting the Lord. 

k, time stop here. 
to be cont.


Monday, July 19, 2010

faking


I love my job, love my company, love my colleague. 
I gained knowledge, gained experiences, most importantly....
I gained weight. 

but why does the title would be FAKING?
it is nothing to do with the post, the content of the title will not be written here, even if it is, you won't realize too. 
Zebra protecting itself with the stripes what, this is instinct ability. 
Anyway...

back to the content. Simply post up some pictures and from there you can see how much weight I've gained in very short few months time.  
2009 Central Annual dinner @ April 5 2010. 
I was geisha, digitalized geisha who plays laptop instead of instrument. 


2009 National Annual Dinner@ April 16 2010. 
normal dinner dress. 

2010 staff dinner @ July 17. 
Go Green, the only Green element on me was--the vest. 
all old items, perfectly fit into GO GREEN concept. Recycle, Reuse what.


See the pictures, you will realize this Mia gains alot weight. WTF. whatever. 
When I decided to do means I will do and I can make it. Diet anytime. 
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Accidentally found an old photo.  Apparently I'm not there, they are all with stick. XD
ok, my very first bf is in this photo. 
(tips: first row with colored waist bell) 



to be cont. 
Good night.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

wtf Spring and Autumn fact.

In the ancient China empire- there was once a period called: Spring and Autumn period. Which and which states involved in the war is not elaborated here. Let's zoom it into a one of the state involved, state of Lu, then zoom in into the warriors department..
 
There was a system to train warriors, so few teams were assigned to train and sharpen those new and existing warrior; however the tactic to be used in the battle field were the same shit: attack, strike, defend...
can you see the picture? no matter new or existing warriors had to go though same shit theories training, but because of the difference in level, they had to be separated into different team.

Facilitator said: "we work in a team, although each has different task"
In the end of the day, whether you can protect the head on your neck was determined by how many warriors left in your team.
what a pathetic fact.

There is no way to let the Spring and Autumn period story put my mood down. After all, shout internally may help the problem.
Or, wash face with cold water will do.

Monday, June 28, 2010

I miss you, can i meet you again?

              I miss you. 
                       yes, i miss you 

That was a sunny day; and I was at the land that I dream to be at. 
Kinda fed up when peers shouting of disappointed and blaming the burning weather; but I was satisfied by walking down the hot sun, with the self rolled ciggie. My mood was there; and yet part of it was gone. 

The scene came into my mind again and again. The famous places always appear in movies as if reminding me I've been there or urging me to go back for once? I swear, I'll be back. 

That was a wonderful experience. If i have only 3 months life left, good bye my friends, I will spend all my money to go back there. Not sentimental, but an unrealistic and not mundane choice of ending one's life. 

On the way back, i met her. 
this has been written down in entries last year. 
Was an old lady who can only speak Italian. 
"Ciao, bella~" 
 my last word to her. 

i remember her eyes were looking at me. 
She smile at me when I look into her eye. 
tiredness all gone. 
what a kind old lady. 
She started to ask me a lot of questions, but sadly I couldn't understand Italian.
Her face of frustration of couldn't make me understand her looked cute; and I was pointing here and there, trying to use body language to answer. 
within 10 minutes, we communicated a lot; but both of us couldn't catch a ball. 
the only thing I knew was, she was a piano teacher. When she showed her fingers, all bended and distorted.
I can understand how tough Makxim to be a great pianist now

before we get down from the bus, i took out my camera, ask for her permission to take a photo. 
She was willingly took with me; and happily squeezed on my face. 
My turn of getting distorted on part of my body. 
What a perfect match with cute *-----* finger and cute *-----* face. 

When we got down, she was waving her hands to us with a white handkerchief. How lovely this old lady is. 
Ohhh....
i miss you.



till then, I have a silly request. Can any one knew this old lady, leave me a clue where can I meet her again?
I'm Mia.


Saturday, June 26, 2010

as simple as calculation

Anything with formula, there must be an answer.
So a clever one thinks nothings is going to escape from his strategically calculated outcome.
He is clever, no doubt, but not smart.
because he is dealing with humanized maths.
Simple than additional maths; harder than additional maths. (sorry, my level until additional maths which stopped at Form 5 only, nevertheless, i scored 1A. XD)

Humanized maths is simple, because the formula is what you used to practice everyday; formula is hard because you don't know if the way you practice is a correct one. Or should I say there is no exact formula?
Exactly. Can you say a thief is absolutely WRONG? Undeniably, he is wrong because he steals; but who knows the reason behind of his ethically-not-recognized- stealing behavior? Maybe, he has no choices, death-god is calling his son due to hungriness.  Steal, he is wrong, society not recognize; not to steal, his is wrong, because fail to execute the responsibility of being one's dad. hey, this is the humanized maths.

back to my concern.
the story will be never written down.
close one eye, see nothing, but the car is still coming.
if you know what is comfort zone, then you will know what i'm talking about.

till here.
bye.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

before this, take note at the title.
" Our birthday are feathers in the broad wing of time" (Richter, Jean, 1763-1825)
Bare with my little plagiarism , I could't find the exact bibliography of the quote above, but nevertheless it is a NICE quote.

ok, very soon, almost without realize, another birthday has came, I've spent 2hours and 28 minutes of my birthday. After all, you will realize birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Let's recall my last birthday at http://mia-patra.blogspot.com/2009/06/22-of-mine.html
that's was my birthday in UK. =)


This year, year 2010. One day before 17 June, I had my first section of small little talk for my company, previously was doing emcee job, finally today I took the first step to talk on CAREER. A plausible one=)

after that, I had my FIRST time driving in KL.
where my courage and guts come from? Didn't I worry and concern so much on "what if I crash?"
choyyyy! eliminate the negative thought! so I drove. Nothing happen, hey, worse come to worst, got sound one ma...if you could catch what I mean. haha
I know Yao was damn gan cheong sitting beside me. You try to let a driver with 6 years license but few months experiences drive your boss car, see how you feel? haha. by the way, his boss is my boss. So I'm glad I took the first step. 

Nothing beat a piece of cake with sincerity. A cake from a friend who takes a lot care on me. If you read this, I'd like to say thank you. 

Carrer, started with 4 bucket theory. What is your dream man? 
I was giving a little sharing on that. I know where my strength at, the only problem is I've been hiding it behind and pushing it to corner. It's time to dig it out.
Hey, others see the strengths in you! your kinder garden teacher until secondary school teacher saw your strength, how could you let it just fade away like that? 


It's been a very long time didn't take a photo. Recently look yong shui la. Dont know is it because work under pressure and heavy work load, I'm too tired and lazy to take care of myself. 
talk about my hair. It looks messy and curly! hey, I'm not type of rambut keriting one, just I tied my hair too much, and that is the knot left permanently on my hair. The only way to get rid of it is either to do rebonding or cut it away! I'm considering both. But I drop quite a number of hairs....Probably I'll go for second choice. 
boy cut dyed with COPPER RED color, or bob hair? 
But serious, I need to take a good care of myself. 
=) 
No one has more obligation to take care of your own self but you. 

ok, almost 3 in the mid night. Time to meet Mr Chow; South Africa and Uruguay is still in the match, South Africa already get a yellow card. All the best 

*whisper to myself* "happy birthday"