Titleless.

My hands are on keyboard quite sometime but couldn't even type a single word. 

Doesn't this show I have a lot to express but have no way to start from?

So, there are some self-blaming issue-- sometimes i'm really lose control. 

at the other side of the coin, how can I not tolerate to those people? say it like: i have to...

but thanks God....someone told me something and from there i realize some others thing. 

yea lo! get the right spot light and grow under the right light. 

 

this morning ald felt the wrongness, so msg a friend. He replied: do whatever your goal has set, there is no right or wrong but only win or lose. Hey this is the truth this is the reality; how can one deny this? 

but but but, selective listen can be a good approach if it is applied correctly; whatever might be hurtful, forget it, adopt the encouraging part. I mean, hey Mia, you know you are capable of,centuries of pressure suppress on a right stone and make it into a raw diamond, correct approach makes it into a valuable shinning diamond. Let's see how long this diamond needs; I make it 2 years, all right? =)  

almost done my self-encouragement part. Time to share some F-up thing. 

I've never seen people have such a high pride and dignity when others was asking for their name. fine, dont tell, vertical or horizontal, have to tell after meeting the Lord. 

k, time stop here. 

to be cont.

faking

I love my job, love my company, love my colleague. 

I gained knowledge, gained experiences, most importantly....

I gained weight. 

but why does the title would be FAKING?

it is nothing to do with the post, the content of the title will not be written here, even if it is, you won't realize too. 

Zebra protecting itself with the stripes what, this is instinct ability. 

Anyway...

back to the content. Simply post up some pictures and from there you can see how much weight I've gained in very short few months time.  

2009 Central Annual dinner @ April 5 2010. 

I was geisha, digitalized geisha who plays laptop instead of instrument. 

2009 National Annual Dinner@ April 16 2010. 

normal dinner dress. 

2010 staff dinner @ July 17. 

Go Green, the only Green element on me was--the vest. 

all old items, perfectly fit into GO GREEN concept. Recycle, Reuse what.

See the pictures, you will realize this Mia gains alot weight. WTF. whatever. 

When I decided to do means I will do and I can make it. Diet anytime. 

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Accidentally found an old photo.  Apparently I'm not there, they are all with stick. XD

ok, my very first bf is in this photo. 

(tips: first row with colored waist bell) 

to be cont. 

Good night.

wtf Spring and Autumn fact.

In the ancient China empire- there was once a period called: Spring and Autumn period. Which and which states involved in the war is not elaborated here. Let's zoom it into a one of the state involved, state of Lu, then zoom in into the warriors department..
 
There was a system to train warriors, so few teams were assigned to train and sharpen those new and existing warrior; however the tactic to be used in the battle field were the same shit: attack, strike, defend...
can you see the picture? no matter new or existing warriors had to go though same shit theories training, but because of the difference in level, they had to be separated into different team.

Facilitator said: "we work in a team, although each has different task"
In the end of the day, whether you can protect the head on your neck was determined by how many warriors left in your team.
what a pathetic fact.

There is no way to let the Spring and Autumn period story put my mood down. After all, shout internally may help the problem.
Or, wash face with cold water will do.

I miss you, can i meet you again?

              I miss you. 

                       yes, i miss you 

That was a sunny day; and I was at the land that I dream to be at. 

Kinda fed up when peers shouting of disappointed and blaming the burning weather; but I was satisfied by walking down the hot sun, with the self rolled ciggie. My mood was there; and yet part of it was gone. 

The scene came into my mind again and again. The famous places always appear in movies as if reminding me I've been there or urging me to go back for once? I swear, I'll be back. 

That was a wonderful experience. If i have only 3 months life left, good bye my friends, I will spend all my money to go back there. Not sentimental, but an unrealistic and not mundane choice of ending one's life. 

On the way back, i met her. 

this has been written down in entries last year. 

Was an old lady who can only speak Italian. 

"Ciao, bella~" 

 my last word to her. 

i remember her eyes were looking at me. 

She smile at me when I look into her eye. 

tiredness all gone. 

what a kind old lady. 

She started to ask me a lot of questions, but sadly I couldn't understand Italian.

Her face of frustration of couldn't make me understand her looked cute; and I was pointing here and there, trying to use body language to answer. 

within 10 minutes, we communicated a lot; but both of us couldn't catch a ball. 

the only thing I knew was, she was a piano teacher. When she showed her fingers, all bended and distorted.

I can understand how tough Makxim to be a great pianist now

before we get down from the bus, i took out my camera, ask for her permission to take a photo. 

She was willingly took with me; and happily squeezed on my face. 

My turn of getting distorted on part of my body. 

What a perfect match with cute *-----* finger and cute *-----* face. 

When we got down, she was waving her hands to us with a white handkerchief. How lovely this old lady is. 

Ohhh....

i miss you.

till then, I have a silly request. Can any one knew this old lady, leave me a clue where can I meet her again?
I'm Mia.

as simple as calculation

Anything with formula, there must be an answer.
So a clever one thinks nothings is going to escape from his strategically calculated outcome.
He is clever, no doubt, but not smart.
because he is dealing with humanized maths.
Simple than additional maths; harder than additional maths. (sorry, my level until additional maths which stopped at Form 5 only, nevertheless, i scored 1A. XD)

Humanized maths is simple, because the formula is what you used to practice everyday; formula is hard because you don't know if the way you practice is a correct one. Or should I say there is no exact formula?
Exactly. Can you say a thief is absolutely WRONG? Undeniably, he is wrong because he steals; but who knows the reason behind of his ethically-not-recognized- stealing behavior? Maybe, he has no choices, death-god is calling his son due to hungriness.  Steal, he is wrong, society not recognize; not to steal, his is wrong, because fail to execute the responsibility of being one's dad. hey, this is the humanized maths.

back to my concern.
the story will be never written down.
close one eye, see nothing, but the car is still coming.
if you know what is comfort zone, then you will know what i'm talking about.

till here.
bye.

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

before this, take note at the title.
" Our birthday are feathers in the broad wing of time" (Richter, Jean, 1763-1825)
Bare with my little plagiarism , I could't find the exact bibliography of the quote above, but nevertheless it is a NICE quote.

ok, very soon, almost without realize, another birthday has came, I've spent 2hours and 28 minutes of my birthday. After all, you will realize birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Let's recall my last birthday at http://mia-patra.blogspot.com/2009/06/22-of-mine.html
that's was my birthday in UK. =)


This year, year 2010. One day before 17 June, I had my first section of small little talk for my company, previously was doing emcee job, finally today I took the first step to talk on CAREER. A plausible one=)

after that, I had my FIRST time driving in KL.
where my courage and guts come from? Didn't I worry and concern so much on "what if I crash?"
choyyyy! eliminate the negative thought! so I drove. Nothing happen, hey, worse come to worst, got sound one ma...if you could catch what I mean. haha

I know Yao was damn gan cheong sitting beside me. You try to let a driver with 6 years license but few months experiences drive your boss car, see how you feel? haha. by the way, his boss is my boss. So I'm glad I took the first step. 

Nothing beat a piece of cake with sincerity. A cake from a friend who takes a lot care on me. If you read this, I'd like to say thank you. 

Carrer, started with 4 bucket theory. What is your dream man? 

I was giving a little sharing on that. I know where my strength at, the only problem is I've been hiding it behind and pushing it to corner. It's time to dig it out.

Hey, others see the strengths in you! your kinder garden teacher until secondary school teacher saw your strength, how could you let it just fade away like that? 

It's been a very long time didn't take a photo. Recently look yong shui la. Dont know is it because work under pressure and heavy work load, I'm too tired and lazy to take care of myself. 

talk about my hair. It looks messy and curly! hey, I'm not type of rambut keriting one, just I tied my hair too much, and that is the knot left permanently on my hair. The only way to get rid of it is either to do rebonding or cut it away! I'm considering both. But I drop quite a number of hairs....Probably I'll go for second choice. 

boy cut dyed with COPPER RED color, or bob hair? 

But serious, I need to take a good care of myself. 

=) 

No one has more obligation to take care of your own self but you. 

ok, almost 3 in the mid night. Time to meet Mr Chow; South Africa and Uruguay is still in the match, South Africa already get a yellow card. All the best 

*whisper to myself* "happy birthday" 

simple thoughts.

just a photo, but it includes few thoughts. 

1- i did something silly, real silly. 

2- It tells the fact that i'm missing there. a place with white. 

3. I just want to be with my another half   like the couple sitting on the candy-bench when we are old. 

that's all, finish.