仲恶啃过四川麻辣锅

Again, I’m looking at the screen but do not know how to put my thoughts into words. There are too much, just too much.

由细到大，我地睇既灰姑娘都话我地知拒系个善良可爱，刻苦耐劳既女仔；但系事实上，拒系个骗财骗色，叭渣泼辣既贱货。。。

原来由细到大所认知的，都未必0岩。

果本数年无翻而导致页与页之间都粘起既日记簿，记载着这么一句话
“虽无大富大贵，但系有个尚算完整的家，温暖说不上，小康也不至于，不过还是完整。”

首歌就像突然爆红的然后又销声匿迹的William Hung，还没爽够就就收皮。
都吾止，仲上演饖过溏心风暴的剧集，呢套死人长气片偏偏上演了好几年都不停，快十年喇。。。 

剧集长气老土，丝毫没有令人振奋的剧情，编剧吾闷，观众都想转台，何必睇D丧家片，又激心又烦又爱莫能助，最主要系负能量丫嘛，我妖！可惜男女主配角却似被下咒的公仔，焗住黎演部戏，仲锅锅新鲜锅锅甘！由前传既逃难记，堕楼记，老友老点记，中风记，破产记，至剧集既东山再起记，翻脸记，打架篇，家丑篇，二奶风云，醉酒篇之5354，至最新更新，上瘾记。

刁。。。再套用杜文泽果句：洗吾洗甘重口味吖？

自己事自己承担系正确既，但系点解下下都吾关你事，不在控制之内但系又烦埋一份？
愿这咒语尽快被解开，皆因：老娘吾想再睇吾想再听，更吾想牵涉系演员表内。

文终再附上一句：刁。

一片忠于自己的心情

The thought of putting some words on this site has been flashing in my mind in recent months, but my mind is like a constipating asshole, hardly to squeeze content out; while my thoughts are like foods in a glutton's stomach, too much.

I remember I have posted up this statement once in FB, and no body understand what the heck was I trying to tell.
"I prefer words".
In fact I also can't understand.
To better express my thought, it should be in this way:
"I prefer letters(written words) over words(uttered words).
This was recorded in my diary, oh...once upon a time...

So...the blog had been abandoned for at least 6 months. 
And I've been thinking what title to give to this entry. Finally, the title confirmed as " 一片忠于自己的心情"


Mood 1:
People like to ask: how are you when meeting with each other, at least in western country it just simple works like "Hi!";n but most of the time I don't know how to answer, even it doesn't request me to answer how am I really doing.

How are you?
hmm..good.
hmm...ok la...
hmm..like that loh.
hmm...GOOD~~~~what about you? u are doing well huh? ......

Different mood, different answer.
To be very honest to answer this question: good and bad.
Good, I get to experience more, I have people that I love and love me too,
Bad, i have yet to achieve my goal...
Most of the time, bad part conquer majority of my mind, I've been thinking how and what to do, and at the same time waiting for the right timing to come.
"wait for....? hey, take action! what are you waiting for?"
'ehem...well...before the strategy is out, what kinda action I can take? I do what i can do now, which doesn't result much, so I'm thinking for another more effective strategy; and luck plays another important role...this might be the thing that I'm waiting for?"
well...an argument with no ending. I'm still doing what I can.

Mood 2:
Friends are getting married, getting children, buying houses, changing cars.
Marriage, one of the best dude of mine, married last year and born a baby girl too; UK glasses gang, 1 engaged 1 is getting married; course mates, few are married.
People asked me about this: when are you getting married?
"Not soooo soon la. a lot of things to think about after signing the paper. Only do it when career is build and stable la"
"Why? after that not working meh?" "so what has it to do with career"
............

Mood 3:
Had a pet, the first ever puppy in my life.
notice I use HAD? ya, it died eventually, after 3 weeks in my house.
Very very sad, but now recover, sometimes her shadow will still climb up to my mind, remind me to remember her. Of course I do Coffee =) RIP
Now, have another new pup, sister of Coffee with different breed.
We name her Momoe, thinking to change a name, "Mo-Moe" 无无... doesn't sound good.
发达女？Richie? Cash? Toto? Bonus? 头奖？I think call her "Soon-soon"顺顺, but, she is a girl?

Mood 4:
People come and go.
Sister of my friend passed away.
Bf of my ex-colleague passed away.
Friends in couple broke up.
无常？ya....wu-chang.

If this entry to be continued, it will be thousands of words.

So... look forward!
撑得住既！

Cheers,
Mia

新年不過兩三天

2 months before this Chinese festive, I got serious mental illness.
When it is approaching, I have no choice but to face it.
Seeing friends are doing very well, some of them change big car, some of them even planning to buy property.
I want to do all but yet to reach there.

Went back few days, only. Who doesnt want to accompany your precious family longer?
The longer I was with them, the more I felt sorry.
Sorry, because I have yet to deliver What I promise to myself.
Again and again, again and again, the choice has been justified.
我没有后悔,只有遗憾

One more thing, a friend of mine was doubting my purpose, a purpose which initially and in the end was just to meet.
可笑。
As if....to contribute millions to my company and the beneficiary is my name.
小錢看不開，自然大錢不會來。

明年今日之回来。

在看着照片的同时，发现有一个人不见了。
此人，正是在下。

太快了

还有一个多月就12月尾了。
妈的，时间总是在你们无聊的时候让你觉得它太多，但却又不知不觉的飘走。
想抓住，才发现这个想法太无知。
今年根本没有什么resolution 可谈，因为我今年废了一整年。。 。好惭愧的说。。。
减肥？咸丰年前已经放弃了啦。。。
收入增加？我还用了不少储蓄呢！！！
我唯一的目标就是settle掉那令人烦恼的loan. 结果。。。

走了一个肥的，来了一个壮的。
今年最大的收获就是垃圾掉了，拣到个宝。
收到最贵的生日礼物，吃过最好的食物，见过最亲切的长辈，得到最多的礼物。
真的。。。20112011 的2319 我好怕。
因为，24快过了，25来了。
我还有2年的时间把自己像水一样给嫁出去。
成家之前最重要的是什么？
鸟你！收入稳定啦！
嫁不嫁出去还真的不大重要，重要的是$$$$.
(我管你觉得这是犀利眼？重物质？ 还是$$$眼睛？）
换句话说老娘只剩2年时间来巩固事业！
眼看一切来着，但前面却有一片玻璃阻挡着。
无助无助。

不要让爱你的人失望太久；不让看低你的人笑太久。
别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。
就算我变，也只不过是策略改变。
快了。。。
快了。。。

正常的，不正常的。

头痛，似乎变成邮差，偶尔会敲上门来送信。
好些日子了，那许下的诺言好像无法达成，再过一些日子眼皮又会再垂一些，原来双眼皮胶带也抵不过岁月的重量。
没有办法说不纳闷，看着不熟悉的自己把自己所熟悉习惯的自己踢得越来越远。
很想，很想，非常着急的把自己带回来，不是那熟悉的自己被踢远了，原来只是怂恿夏娃亚当的毒蛇把眼睛给遮住。。。

放弃的念头像邮差，有时会敲上门来送信。
不！不要阅读那些信！
从来计划中的计划都会实现，只是这次。。。怎么。。。有些阻碍。
准备的一切，是不可能就这样结束！
创业难，守业更难。
可能。。。开始真的遇到不少挫折。
自己一定会赚回所失去的"Pride"，谁有意或無心拿掉的，都回一一拿回來。
立志，永远不会难；做到的才不简单。

笑吧！
那蜡像似的笑容！
上色的蜡，谁也没有办法看透蜡后面的颜色。
因为，就算笑着蜡像告诉你它伤心，你也不会相信。
因为，就算它给你真心，你也只会觉得蜡做的心不算心。

Good Question

Do I have a gun to force you to take out all you money from you ATM and investment stock?
If the answer is no, then you will know why this question pop out.

Today my friend asked me a question.
"Have your friends' attitude changed upon you changing your job?"
YES and NO.
Yes, they are people changed their attitude; and No. If there are friends who don't change, who are those people who changed?

I appreciate those who give me a chance by asking me questions on this field.
Thank You.