一片忠于自己的心情

The thought of putting some words on this site has been flashing in my mind in recent months, but my mind is like a constipating asshole, hardly to squeeze content out; while my thoughts are like foods in a glutton's stomach, too much.

I remember I have posted up this statement once in FB, and no body understand what the heck was I trying to tell.
"I prefer words".
In fact I also can't understand.
To better express my thought, it should be in this way:
"I prefer letters(written words) over words(uttered words).
This was recorded in my diary, oh...once upon a time...

So...the blog had been abandoned for at least 6 months. 
And I've been thinking what title to give to this entry. Finally, the title confirmed as " 一片忠于自己的心情"


Mood 1:
People like to ask: how are you when meeting with each other, at least in western country it just simple works like "Hi!";n but most of the time I don't know how to answer, even it doesn't request me to answer how am I really doing.

How are you?
hmm..good.
hmm...ok la...
hmm..like that loh.
hmm...GOOD~~~~what about you? u are doing well huh? ......

Different mood, different answer.
To be very honest to answer this question: good and bad.
Good, I get to experience more, I have people that I love and love me too,
Bad, i have yet to achieve my goal...
Most of the time, bad part conquer majority of my mind, I've been thinking how and what to do, and at the same time waiting for the right timing to come.
"wait for....? hey, take action! what are you waiting for?"
'ehem...well...before the strategy is out, what kinda action I can take? I do what i can do now, which doesn't result much, so I'm thinking for another more effective strategy; and luck plays another important role...this might be the thing that I'm waiting for?"
well...an argument with no ending. I'm still doing what I can.

Mood 2:
Friends are getting married, getting children, buying houses, changing cars.
Marriage, one of the best dude of mine, married last year and born a baby girl too; UK glasses gang, 1 engaged 1 is getting married; course mates, few are married.
People asked me about this: when are you getting married?
"Not soooo soon la. a lot of things to think about after signing the paper. Only do it when career is build and stable la"
"Why? after that not working meh?" "so what has it to do with career"
............

Mood 3:
Had a pet, the first ever puppy in my life.
notice I use HAD? ya, it died eventually, after 3 weeks in my house.
Very very sad, but now recover, sometimes her shadow will still climb up to my mind, remind me to remember her. Of course I do Coffee =) RIP
Now, have another new pup, sister of Coffee with different breed.
We name her Momoe, thinking to change a name, "Mo-Moe" 无无... doesn't sound good.
发达女？Richie? Cash? Toto? Bonus? 头奖？I think call her "Soon-soon"顺顺, but, she is a girl?

Mood 4:
People come and go.
Sister of my friend passed away.
Bf of my ex-colleague passed away.
Friends in couple broke up.
无常？ya....wu-chang.

If this entry to be continued, it will be thousands of words.

So... look forward!
撑得住既！

Cheers,
Mia

It Just Happen

got back home at this time, not this late, I think half an hour ago.
I wanted to wash cloth and take bath, but just one minute before I want to take up my pail with unwashed cloth, my housemate put his cloth in the machine; and his roommate was using the machine before him. >.< lll
what to do, wait until they finish lo.
then when I realise I should take shower first and wash others cloth with hand, my another housemate stepped into bath room. arghh!
what to do, wait until my turn lo.

sometimes, things happened, what can you do? blame the situation or blame yourself of not acting n such way so that the things happened wont happen? Things go well or not, sometime is not up to our human's control, there must be a reason of such thing happen; since we can't control the uncertain factors which ruin our day, why not we control our thought which ultimately is controlled by us?

sometimes, again, things happened just like that. You can explain but not justify.
I can explain why am I into cross so much but can't justify why.
I like just because I like how it looks like, but why am I so particular like this pattern, non justifiable.
I can explain why am I in this job but i can't justify what makes me in to this career but not others?
I can explain why do I believe in this and that but it is not justifiable why so happen this 2 things come in to my life. to be precise: Insurance and Christianity.
So i said, everything happened must have its reasons, so when it happens, just let it be.

one thing I wish to shout out loud very long time ago: I love Western culture, I love English, I love white, I even have doubt am I wrongly reincarnated into oriental country and in a conservative family.

one thing I should not deny is: I was immature when i thought I was mature enough at that age, if given my recent age, I wont be doing that or I could have a better solution if given a chance to do that again, or choose it again, or act it again.
Give me further sight, I want to see further =)

Found out

Out of sudden, I have a feeling of valueless, if continuing doing what I'm doing.
Other than working; other than being asked what is the NUMBER' other than viewing friends' updates; other than viewing sexy and pretty girls' photos; other than thinking of starting up own business; other than looking for a better way out,other than entertaining those irritating people, I do nothing everyday.

Have a very good idea in brain, but not executing it yet~ say in such way to ease my guiltiness, because I don't know when am I going to start it. We can't deny flame always come and go if it is not kept flaming; this minute the thought of getting this thing done is filled in my mind, next minute i might just give it up. How ridiculous.

Was told I have a chance to present and represent, but candidates chosen are still what they used to see. Hmmm... a little bit of disappointed. If i'm given a chance, ok...I'll accept the challenge. See my title of this blog, I spit in the face of challenge. Ya, i'm waiting....

Seriously, bored to the max on my recent life. Thought of changing keep arousing me, but yet none steps are taken to make a change. In work, I dont act as proactive as before, of course! I've learnt. the more u suggest the more you need to do; it ain't a matter of doing it, but no result turn out or THEY people who occupied bigger table really expect you've done all research and all preparation, when the picture present is clear and workable, they say go ahead, and change a word of praise: WELLDONE. haha, tell u here, urge of getting higher pay is more than desire of listening to welldone, why? Because after welldone, what's next is "now u can do more and I'm expecting you to get me more value. or number.
I also become not so patient in workplace compare to last time. maybe if i were them I'll behave like this too, but now i'm not. So hardly to tolerate them. I almost lost my patient and spoke in a wrong tone, knew it has definitely defended offended them, what to do? what done is done, now i can only glu back the pieces of vase...cracks on the vase, just leave it. I can't serve them like im a slave. I'm paid for my job scope, if you are not contributing to my Kay Pee Eye, sorry, I'm hardly to please you; and also if I have ald told you what to do but yet you didnt do,and also call me anytime and expecting I get ur things done within 1 hour as if i'm working 24/7/7, sorry, your desire is hardly to be satisfied. I think everyone of us need to be taught what is discipline.........

Recently had a lunch with a friend, to be frank, he is my ex. He advised me to know more, M-O-R-E. He said I looked very nerd. hahahahahaha............speechless la, maybe I really am, but will not be in the future.

You know how an animal trapped in a cage? I think i'm the animal, and i can tell how does it feel. I'd rather to be torn in to pieces just to get the shit of the cage, and then the pieces to be sambung balik and Mia is back.

i just found out, there are lots to be improved.

今日好

今天的部落用中文，不用广东话。

今天过得好。。。

我的打扮好特别；好特别的打扮令我发型好级别~

那花了不超过20块的套装穿的我格外不舒服，内层的线头刺得我浑身起鸡皮疙瘩，特高的领子令到我的短发往外翘，外翘的短发看起来真级别。 衣服的线头根根刺着皮肤，人也不自主地提高。。。像是惊弓之鸟，对身边事物特别提高警惕，人也变得特别敏感。 看见车子往前驶来，竟妄想它将会撞过来；眼见前方车辆摩托车快要相撞，不禁捏一把冷汗；见老摩托骑士不开灯驾驶，竟变得闷闷不乐。一切一切，就像吹涨的气球；亦像孕妇超肿胀的双脚，层皮薄得蔽眼即能见其下血丝；一刺既破。

今天过得好。。。 

走在回家路上，心中想着的过去；级别得来又带点情趣。想着遭遇；级别得来带点苦笑。想着你我他的分别，即级别又混扰。摇头一想，为何变得如此多疑？即使他人对我心怀不愧，对我怀恨在心，对我误会重重，有心占我便宜，他妈的老娘人定胜天。有时候多看一眼那些人的嘴脸，少一点控制都会挥拳向以示敬，只不过越想越无能，追根究底就只有改变自己方能以双眼往下瞄人，那种人。镜子里的自己偶尔过得好辛苦，但之一于二的分别就只是多了一划少了一横，想着想着想歪了，就勒一勒自己，二就变一，一也会变二。

今天过得好。。。

听说我变“干”了。

一个女子变干即变“奸”

变奸没有错，变奸保护自己更是天公地道；只是奸不来的鼠鹿要如何跟豺狼拼斗？

一面数着粮银，一面想着。。。 

坐在快乐城看着老婆婆经过，变干的鼠鹿被滋润了一下。

好不快乐哦～～～

补充，是眼睛被滋润了一下。　

今天过得好。。。

级别。

这几天过得好级别。

过去那星期过得好级别。

不过那级别发型的始作俑者－－不过２０块的衣服让我想通一件事。

一件衣服里面的线头令我精神紧绷；一个头脑里的线头令我想的太多。

放松一下，等待旅行吧。　

我想，死在雪山也是个浪漫的悲剧。（鸡蛋！那该死的韩剧烧掉吧！）

放松一下，冲个凉，睡觉吧。

我想，睡醒后我是个变干的女鼠鹿，头颅内不相干的线头也被挑走了！

今天还有两份钟。

明天要过得更好。

言的利，这次我写的部落比你的抽象吧。哈哈！

                     

faking

I love my job, love my company, love my colleague. 

I gained knowledge, gained experiences, most importantly....

I gained weight. 

but why does the title would be FAKING?

it is nothing to do with the post, the content of the title will not be written here, even if it is, you won't realize too. 

Zebra protecting itself with the stripes what, this is instinct ability. 

Anyway...

back to the content. Simply post up some pictures and from there you can see how much weight I've gained in very short few months time.  

2009 Central Annual dinner @ April 5 2010. 

I was geisha, digitalized geisha who plays laptop instead of instrument. 

2009 National Annual Dinner@ April 16 2010. 

normal dinner dress. 

2010 staff dinner @ July 17. 

Go Green, the only Green element on me was--the vest. 

all old items, perfectly fit into GO GREEN concept. Recycle, Reuse what.

See the pictures, you will realize this Mia gains alot weight. WTF. whatever. 

When I decided to do means I will do and I can make it. Diet anytime. 

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Accidentally found an old photo.  Apparently I'm not there, they are all with stick. XD

ok, my very first bf is in this photo. 

(tips: first row with colored waist bell) 

to be cont. 

Good night.

as simple as calculation

Anything with formula, there must be an answer.
So a clever one thinks nothings is going to escape from his strategically calculated outcome.
He is clever, no doubt, but not smart.
because he is dealing with humanized maths.
Simple than additional maths; harder than additional maths. (sorry, my level until additional maths which stopped at Form 5 only, nevertheless, i scored 1A. XD)

Humanized maths is simple, because the formula is what you used to practice everyday; formula is hard because you don't know if the way you practice is a correct one. Or should I say there is no exact formula?
Exactly. Can you say a thief is absolutely WRONG? Undeniably, he is wrong because he steals; but who knows the reason behind of his ethically-not-recognized- stealing behavior? Maybe, he has no choices, death-god is calling his son due to hungriness.  Steal, he is wrong, society not recognize; not to steal, his is wrong, because fail to execute the responsibility of being one's dad. hey, this is the humanized maths.

back to my concern.
the story will be never written down.
close one eye, see nothing, but the car is still coming.
if you know what is comfort zone, then you will know what i'm talking about.

till here.
bye.

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

before this, take note at the title.
" Our birthday are feathers in the broad wing of time" (Richter, Jean, 1763-1825)
Bare with my little plagiarism , I could't find the exact bibliography of the quote above, but nevertheless it is a NICE quote.

ok, very soon, almost without realize, another birthday has came, I've spent 2hours and 28 minutes of my birthday. After all, you will realize birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Let's recall my last birthday at http://mia-patra.blogspot.com/2009/06/22-of-mine.html
that's was my birthday in UK. =)


This year, year 2010. One day before 17 June, I had my first section of small little talk for my company, previously was doing emcee job, finally today I took the first step to talk on CAREER. A plausible one=)

after that, I had my FIRST time driving in KL.
where my courage and guts come from? Didn't I worry and concern so much on "what if I crash?"
choyyyy! eliminate the negative thought! so I drove. Nothing happen, hey, worse come to worst, got sound one ma...if you could catch what I mean. haha

I know Yao was damn gan cheong sitting beside me. You try to let a driver with 6 years license but few months experiences drive your boss car, see how you feel? haha. by the way, his boss is my boss. So I'm glad I took the first step. 

Nothing beat a piece of cake with sincerity. A cake from a friend who takes a lot care on me. If you read this, I'd like to say thank you. 

Carrer, started with 4 bucket theory. What is your dream man? 

I was giving a little sharing on that. I know where my strength at, the only problem is I've been hiding it behind and pushing it to corner. It's time to dig it out.

Hey, others see the strengths in you! your kinder garden teacher until secondary school teacher saw your strength, how could you let it just fade away like that? 

It's been a very long time didn't take a photo. Recently look yong shui la. Dont know is it because work under pressure and heavy work load, I'm too tired and lazy to take care of myself. 

talk about my hair. It looks messy and curly! hey, I'm not type of rambut keriting one, just I tied my hair too much, and that is the knot left permanently on my hair. The only way to get rid of it is either to do rebonding or cut it away! I'm considering both. But I drop quite a number of hairs....Probably I'll go for second choice. 

boy cut dyed with COPPER RED color, or bob hair? 

But serious, I need to take a good care of myself. 

=) 

No one has more obligation to take care of your own self but you. 

ok, almost 3 in the mid night. Time to meet Mr Chow; South Africa and Uruguay is still in the match, South Africa already get a yellow card. All the best 

*whisper to myself* "happy birthday" 

Life is like rowing upstream

Life is like rowing upstream; not to advance is to dropback.

不

进

则

退

言毕。

GOTCHA!

I just set him up; thanks for JJ and Ean of pranking him. =p

http://podcast.amp-media.net/hitz/?p=episode&name=2010-01-26_morning_crew__gotcha__1__jan_26__ong.mp3

It happened on the day, when I woke up in the early morning. about 0600? I appreciate a day like this, woke up early but not working, sit in front of lappie seeing warm morning sunlight beaming into living room, not too irritating car's horn (normally it is, but that day I didn't feel so), and listening to favorite song-- Flo-rida feat Ne-yo, BE ON YOU, without breakfast was like leaving stains on a cloth.

Surfing without target like day dreaming; when I felt I was back to reality,  the mouse point stopped at a column written with "SEND IN YOUR GOTCHA".

I would like to give JJ and Ean a thumb; the post was send by 8 in the morning, and I received their call by 10something, we discussed some tricks to fool him, after an hour, I received his msg:
"XXXXXX, kenakan me! nei hou yeh.......T.T"
Funny man....why cantonese? XD
and he was complaining and nagging me of setting him up. well....just some funssss, and I promise funssss will never stop! GOTCHA!

Read.

Accidentally read this blog. 

http://www.lentalks.com/

If you could understand Cantonese.

Recommend you to have a read.

Not that bad.

Also, his photos. Good.

Mia recommends.

*wink wink*

random facts of me.

Everyone seems to update their blog less frequently since they have started work; assume I might joined their club after 5th Jan, I think I should just update more than I could do at months later. I ain't have much feeling or inspiration towards one particular thing, nor have a particular topic to start on, so... let's talk crap.

I've been sick for days, more than one week. Recover before Taiwan trip, I must. (Yoda)
Hey, do you know JEDI (from Star Wars) is a religion in UK? yea dude, it is... a lecturer told him, and he told us in his friend's small small gathering--his friend come back from Australia. HELLO, Joel, a korean-looking guy (very leng zai!); and him? Weixiang des....

I'm quite fortune to have friends like them. Gang A Gang B and Gang C.
I'm looking back at those photos of others took in Liverpool, I'm regret why didn't I take as much as them? My thought was cool : come on...it is just a street. I'm here for experience and memory, not for getting a fact to prove: "Hey, I've been UK, cool huh?"; but I overlooked the importance of photos, it is not merely prove where you've been, depends on how a photo was took. Raised your hand up 45 degree high and 'chik-chak' definitely is vain, which I rarely do; but a photo with different angles of a street, building, ornament, statue...helps to refresh your memory. Look back at my thought months ago, seems I reacted over-cool of attitude of taking photos non-stop. (I'm quite sick of people taking photos blindly, even a fallen leave was captured in the lens; I think my thought is evolving, photography has started to mean more to me)

Clumsy sometimes is my name, precisely, it is always my name. This clumsy lady just had her lunch downstairs and guess what, I'm not only bring a stomach filled with Roti bakar, half boiled egg, and milo back, also bring a scar of 2 inches long x 1cm width on my right tight. FOOK U! it is painful!

It bleeds straight after scratched by the bamboo chopstick. (why bamboo chopstick? ask the restaurant owner la, why put a half-broken bamboo chopstick instead of steel made bolt)

Another random fact of me: I'm quite blur. XD

the thing is this, Weixiang and me bumped into his friend- Kaixiang when we were on the way to Mid Valley, guys had some talks....then just now Kaixiang left a msg in Weixiang's fb, "asked ur gf quite blur one izi? ytd i intro myself to him but she never intro back"

Er....."Hi, I'm Mia. Nice to meet you" . Do it now, shouldn't be too late =p

No deny, I'm quite blur sometime.

and lazy worms is mass producing in my body. Everyday say I'm lazy, I must. (Yoda)

and the fact now is: I'm boring.

I guess i have a lot things to talk, but my mind gone blank now.

Recap the statement above : "so... let's talk crap. " remember? the first para.

The whole entry is about myself only, so I'm the crap. XD

ok la, not funny.......

(to be cont...)

呕血一梦

忘记了这记忆的开始

总之，就是不好的

那天我一条水在火车看报纸，实现突然被一张照片吸引了

是条‘货’

索？

不太索

两颊雀斑，咪得像线一样的眼睛，两颗兔子牙

还好笑容可嘉。。。

EeeeeeEEEeEeEeeeeEEEEeee?????

醒目的我很快发现有点不对劲

因为。。。

站我隔壁那条水也看着同一份报纸，但是没有那女孩的照片

照片下还有一个‘M'字母

一定是线索

这女的背后一定藏有大秘密

‘冰雪聪明’恐怕不能贴切的形容我现在的头脑

我也想不到另一个词汇来说明我的智慧

一定是上天看我聪明，想要赐我某些东西

er。。。不过假如是照片中的幼齿弱智妹，那到谢了，免啦~~~

凭着地标提示

我相信我来到了上天要我来的地方

“死开啦，一look木在那挡路！’

看到那长到像蛇的木头，心里忍不住骂了出来

‘木你条毛！’

‘谁？谁要look我条毛？”

‘我说木你条毛！那长得像木的蛇”

靠！！！蛇跟我讲话！

‘你就是那个将自己冰雪聪明的孩子？。。。你要找的线索，就在那头。。。。’

说完，又不见了。。。

就像八两金一样，不见了。

说完，我看见不远的那头有个M字。。。。。抬头一看。。。

必不得已我要用傻海来叫那女的

她以为她在占铜像的便宜

认真一看

她好像是报纸上的弱智妹喔。。。

然后，她转过头

‘我不弱智”

好辣！

不是样子辣

是性格辣

我什么都没讲已经被鸟了

不好欺负。。。

‘来’

短而精简

我只好跟着她走

她把我带到进房间

‘坐’

又是一个字的命令

‘不要埋怨’

huh！！！！！！！！她又懂？？？

‘我说不要猜了！’

‘来，给你看一些东西。。。’

她给我一张照片。。。

‘这个死叮当是谁？？？？？’

‘是我’

她回答

‘。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。’

一时之间我回答不上她的回答

‘那时我变性前的照片’

她一面找着她的背包，一面缓缓地讲述着

‘曾经我也是风流倜傥，只不过人算不如天算，我爱上了男人’

‘我很伤心听到你的遭遇。。。’我敷衍的说

她又拿出另一张照片。。。

这时我的心是惊吓的

跳动得比平常快个几倍

因为

因为。。。。。。。

发霉的！！！！！

‘这男人就是刚才被我摸屁股那位

你以为他是铜像吗？

它实实在在是我的男人！

因为他不喜欢男人，我才去做变性手术！’

‘死啦！！我遇到个傻的！！！！！’

自以为是男生，还自己以为铜像是真男人。晕啦~~~~

但是我还得要挤出个我最满意的笑容来。。。缓和她的怒气。。。

‘不要讲我傻！！

我时时刻刻都可以知道你想什么！’

然后她拿起把刀队着我

‘我要你变性’

‘mama-mia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!’

‘嘻嘻，你喊吧！喊破喉咙也没有人来救你了。。。。。相信你会喜欢我的刀法。。。你看我的手术多成功？自己来的~~~哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。。。。。。。。”

啊啊啊啊

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

啊啊啊啊啊

啊啊

我醒来时。。。发现自己坐在椅子上，还是如此平静，弟弟叻？？？？

还在还在。。。。

呵呵。。。

不过回想起刚才的梦。。。

到底它在说什么叻。。。？

有谁能告诉我？

突发奇想

突然

有个人跑来问我

‘失恋是什么’

‘孤独万岁，失恋无罪，谁保证一觉醒来有人陪，我对于人性早有预备，还不算太黑。。。’

一直都爱这首歌，刚好有人问到。。。就大展歌喉一番

“x！ 我问失恋是什么，不是你要不要我陪啊！”

==唱歌都被鸟，活该你失恋

我不敢讲，因为对方来势汹汹，眼睛睁到铜铃般大。我知道我眼睛小，输了啦。。。哪里够他拼？

于是，我调适一下音调，一把正经的说

“其实，你并不许要那。。。”

“你是聋子啊？我问失恋是什么！”

林-老-不-耶---------好心安慰你还被骂

老娘心里不爽到极点咯

但是门面功夫怎么可以省？

我心里想象着有两根无名手指揪着我的嘴角往上扬，就逼着自己露出那不是笑容的笑容

因为不是真心的，所以那不是笑容

失恋就是。。。

他好像真的需要有人给他一个解释，因为我正经八百的回答，他竟然露出天真的容颜，认真地听我。。。‘吠’

他让我联想到 八两金。

怪不得他样子那么熟悉

原来他是八两金

心里暗爽了两下，注意，是两下

暗爽不是因为八两金向我请教

二而是八两金失恋

八先生拿出波板糖，在我面前舔

一面听，一面认真地期待我给他带来答案

老实说。。。

这一刻

我想吐

他眼睛眨了两下

失恋是什么 jeh？？

我没有力了

为了尽早脱离它那无邪的无形折磨

我随意给了他一个解释

“失恋只是个名词，过程才值得回味。两人相爱，名词名分根本不重要。

令人痛苦的不是名词，而是那形容词，形容感觉的那个term

我脑袋缺氧，暂时给不到你那个term

不过我可以大约给你领悟那个感觉

那感觉就像。。。

你肚子痛，终于找到厕所大解

才刚刚解放了一些些

走廊传来吵杂声

厕所的隔壁着火了

烧到 herm herm 声

结果你裤子也没穿好

屁股没抹干净

一手拎着你手上的波板糖

一手拉着裤子往外跑

上厕所上到着火都还好

更过分的是裤子没穿好

更不可原谅的是没抹屁股

最 “xiasui’ 的是身边从着火地点逃出来的人都望着你

捂着鼻子说好臭。。。

八先生，你理解到吗？

我解答你的问题了吗？

他表情复杂

眼眉对上3 公分的两条皱纹上下跳动

是感动吗？

会有人被大便逃生记感动？

那两条皱纹牵动到他脸部的其它有关连接条纹

这时候

我应该用脸部抽蓄来形容了

‘哇！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我-终-于-有-屎-疴-啦-

讲完就不见了

第二天，我从电台听到一把感性的声音

‘失恋是名词。。。。

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大便没抹屁股。。。。

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“电台前既聽眾你地好，我系八兩金。”

finally i know what is the feeling of scare.

Before flying to UK, we are recommended to have a simple body check up, i did it before i fly to sg trip. @$&&)(& to say that, my body check up result was not as normal as what i expected.

i did x ray, blood test and urine test, who knows urine test got problem, it was urine infection, what i duno what is the cause and consequences of it. On the way to airport, question marks keep surrounding in and out of my head.
Honestly, my mood to sg was affected, not to say spoiled but affected....

what i worried were, how if i reli got duno what disease, or because of this i cannt fly uk? If now ask me to die, i would say i have alot of things have not achieve yet, i have alot of thing not yet done, i feel hard to leave him and her.

This morning, i did the urine check up again, well....thx god and thx BACTRIM. it is all right now. But through this,finally, i now what is the feel of scare, scare of death, scare of leaving.

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無聊咯。。。

像風一樣的時間

finally today is my last day working in Puchong, Binary college, which mentioned in previous blog--a terrible place where sunlight directly comes in to the booth, thus my skin tone had became 2 tones darker, and look like not shining anymore. When i first start the job i was thinking when will the hell of the suffer time goin to be spent at here end? as time goes by, today, is the end of the hell of the suffer time, and my date of heading to UK is approaching, only 13 days left. I'm not that kinda homesick, no worry of im missing home there, what i worry is another period of suffer time goin to be spent there. Everyday assignment wil reali drive me crazy man!!!!! OMG

now, thinking deeply, at first i saw my working place, i had the same though of OMG too, dun i? haa, same theory applied, 3 months later i will recall what im thinking now, and sigh: time flies....

and after 3 months, i ahve to start my career, new life of working. GOOD BYE MY FUNNY STUDY TIME, I LOVE YOU.

good news, but not excited.

Just got a message from Chuan, which i requested to know my ranking in my course...

reply is: yo NUMBER ONE QUEEN, NO 9 IN APR2

which means among all advanced dip PR students, i got NO 9...yea, it is top 10... so what? juz an affirmation of my hardworks, sleepyness, dark circle.etc etc

what i want is reli got an achievement and reach my goal....

yea, come one NO 9....

ps: why call me QUEEN, because im immortal cleopatra aka miapatra.
不死妖后。。ngek ngek....

bull shit

haaaaaaaaaaaaaa....swollen on my jaw last for..almost 2 weeks. i tot it is browing wisdom teeth? yes, i think it is. this is not my frst time growning teeth la, but how cum this time will last so long time???

few days ago i read a post in newspaper, sated thta sympton of mouth cancer...one of it was, swellen last for 2 - 4 weeks..=.=how cum this kinda thing always happen on me? last time was doubt something wrong with my uterus, coz alomost 4 months no period. What was my mum respond when i told her?
" hu mei yan.....u know what u've done la.." helo..what i did? crazy...........never worry about that! but i reli worry if something grow inside la. Then? go see doctor finally..nothign happen wo, he saidit is normal for this age(i was almost 20)but period still dun cum>< well, this time..i know it is becoz of growing wisdom teeth, but stil abit worry of that. maybe this few weeks always slp late, and eat too much food that shouldn't eat..last sat, super spicy soup n spicy meat, this few days, bak kut teh, buffet....sounds having happenign life again?dream la~~~~im facing problem that not goin to disclose onli. finally, this mornign when i wake up, feel weird on my face and jaw....=.=
u know wat? swollen worse..................

finally i cant take it, press the jaw strongly in toilet, whn i was working.
i think it was bleeding by the way, and finally死死地buy medicine><

'im growing wisdom teeth...'
'oooo, i give u 消腫藥&止痛藥啦"
'no, 消腫藥will do, i can take the pain'
'.........what for so suffer..?'
'...............................'
my turn duno how to answer.（well....juz kinda dun like take medicine n see doctor, i know they make ALOT profit frm us)

haiz..noting to tell le, juz cannt log in to the god damn e-learing.wat the freaking creepy system, always lag lag lag, my time all contributed to it and yet it didnt record down my movement adn activeness....fuck it..then onli put sometimeon my blog. since long time did update.

byebye dear all.

笑一笑～

爱情 　　

白雪公主，几咁纯洁无瑕。但系谂真啲，白雪公主，识得嗰个系王子，灰姑娘识嗰个又系王子；有个有特殊嚐好，钟意锡青蛙嘅女人锡咗只青蛙一啖，只青蛙变出嚟嘅又系王子！有冇人谂过根本个王子系同一个人呢？根本呢个王子都不知几x花心，周围沟女。仲无良到扮青蛙去沟添！

情窦未开 　　

我第一次恋爱之前，我认为自己就系杨过，而我同书里面个杨过唯一唔同嘅地方，就系佢有只大鵰。而我嗰阵，就钟意撚呢个相思同画眉多啲。同杨过一样，我从来冇谂过要考第一。 　

我只需要爱情，只要搵到我嘅小龙女，我就可以抛弃学业，退隐山林，搬入新界住。但系我一定要住西班牙别墅，我唔住得村屋，我怕蛇虫鼠蚁。然后每个月至多出一次市区，不过我唔会逗留得耐，问亚妈攞完零用钱我就会入番入去。 　　

冇错，基本上，我由中一至中五都系喺呢种咁超然嘅思想下度过。嗰阵时学校最流行嘅辩论题目系：“中学生应否谈恋爱？”我认为，我哋应该辩论嘅系“中学生应否读书？” 　

而喺我第一次恋爱之前，我嘅小龙女只需要一个条件，就系靓，我知我咁样谂好肤浅，但系嗰阵时我仲细，唔知道原来身材都好重要嘎。

性

圣人话：“食色性也！”食同色，好唔同！一个人无论几钟意食，会唔会比几十蚊入戏院睇套“蒸气腾腾小龙包”？一个人无论几钟意食，又会唔会为咗望一旧冇包住嘅牛肉望到畀车撞？

童話

自細睇D童話都話，王子騎住白馬出現， 所以見到騎住白馬既就系白馬王子， 但系有無人念過， 騎白馬既其實系唐三藏咧？

source: cited frm http://car0753.blog.sohu.com/
N modified by Mia.

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NaH..see~~~this is how it looks like...
I did it because i like it, no one shall stop me from behave in MY WAY---

quite BIG tummy~~~
Diet campaign is on the run,
No-Fuck Campaign is on the heat!
(i'm trying to kick-off the habit of saying Fxxx)

show you something----the process of piercing...

not as pain as u imagine

Next stop...tongue, perhaps...