random facts of me.

Everyone seems to update their blog less frequently since they have started work; assume I might joined their club after 5th Jan, I think I should just update more than I could do at months later. I ain't have much feeling or inspiration towards one particular thing, nor have a particular topic to start on, so... let's talk crap.

I've been sick for days, more than one week. Recover before Taiwan trip, I must. (Yoda)
Hey, do you know JEDI (from Star Wars) is a religion in UK? yea dude, it is... a lecturer told him, and he told us in his friend's small small gathering--his friend come back from Australia. HELLO, Joel, a korean-looking guy (very leng zai!); and him? Weixiang des....

I'm quite fortune to have friends like them. Gang A Gang B and Gang C.
I'm looking back at those photos of others took in Liverpool, I'm regret why didn't I take as much as them? My thought was cool : come on...it is just a street. I'm here for experience and memory, not for getting a fact to prove: "Hey, I've been UK, cool huh?"; but I overlooked the importance of photos, it is not merely prove where you've been, depends on how a photo was took. Raised your hand up 45 degree high and 'chik-chak' definitely is vain, which I rarely do; but a photo with different angles of a street, building, ornament, statue...helps to refresh your memory. Look back at my thought months ago, seems I reacted over-cool of attitude of taking photos non-stop. (I'm quite sick of people taking photos blindly, even a fallen leave was captured in the lens; I think my thought is evolving, photography has started to mean more to me)

Clumsy sometimes is my name, precisely, it is always my name. This clumsy lady just had her lunch downstairs and guess what, I'm not only bring a stomach filled with Roti bakar, half boiled egg, and milo back, also bring a scar of 2 inches long x 1cm width on my right tight. FOOK U! it is painful!

It bleeds straight after scratched by the bamboo chopstick. (why bamboo chopstick? ask the restaurant owner la, why put a half-broken bamboo chopstick instead of steel made bolt)

Another random fact of me: I'm quite blur. XD

the thing is this, Weixiang and me bumped into his friend- Kaixiang when we were on the way to Mid Valley, guys had some talks....then just now Kaixiang left a msg in Weixiang's fb, "asked ur gf quite blur one izi? ytd i intro myself to him but she never intro back"

Er....."Hi, I'm Mia. Nice to meet you" . Do it now, shouldn't be too late =p

No deny, I'm quite blur sometime.

and lazy worms is mass producing in my body. Everyday say I'm lazy, I must. (Yoda)

and the fact now is: I'm boring.

I guess i have a lot things to talk, but my mind gone blank now.

Recap the statement above : "so... let's talk crap. " remember? the first para.

The whole entry is about myself only, so I'm the crap. XD

ok la, not funny.......

(to be cont...)

Don't...lose....faith...

looking at friends around, almost all have gotten quite good offer, sounds like i didn't have one? Nah...i got an offer  and will be starting to work 2 days after Taiwan trip, "huh, so rush arh?" yea, i know. So, the job is like this
- do own research
- cold calling 
- Uncountable rejections
this is what i know, in order to have a better understanding of it; Google helped me a lot ^.< 
Internet is a public place(gosh, i always pronounce it pub-bic space ><), its ex-employers shared their comment in forums, 9 out of 10 were negative. =.=


Battle started, the masculine one said have a try and i don't think you can't; the feminine one worried about this and that. Not even start work, I'm already thinking so much. I was so desperate to get this job as the commission package is so so so attractive, and i bet not much companies could offer this. One thing for true and sure: sales, is the more effort you put, the more you can get; however in certain situation, it becomes partially true because it does not merely depend on how much effort you put but how well you can handle. (leave a space of imagination why i'd say this, the answer will be revealed soon) 


In the forums, there were successful and failed examples, failed examples contributed a large number of the total participants. From what i know from forums about the company: it is a non-stop smoking environment(yer.....i want to quit), unhelpful colleagues, and M.O.R.E
But everyone has confidence in me, you know what....? Battle start again. 


"Everyone has confidence in you, you can't lose one; Don't ever lose faith to yourself, if you don't have one, I've in you" 

VS 

"but i can't speak well....they need excellent Eng speaking....I'm bad in doing research...."


A voice raised: what encouraged you from wanting to get it so desperate? What you promised to yourself?
Now only i know how suffering one is caught in uncertainty. I'm so stingy to support myself. 


Arghh...time to read some books again!
Remember ? "And the secret is: be positive"

If people can stay there and climb up to corporate ladder, why can't I?
And do you realize what is the problem, i mean, what cause me lack of confidence? 
speaking....and English...I don't scare of speaking, honestly. So what cause me lack of confidence is speaking in English. 


Most of my friends agreed,  I don't speak terrible English, it shouldn't be categorized as bad, there are even worse out there. Maybe I'm expecting good work from myself?  "you won't be the best but won't be the worst either" 
Why am i so afraid of speaking? nabeh...


ohya...congratz to my panda for getting what he wants. 
"you wont be the best, but you are always part of the best" 
Cheers~ ^^ 

Down-to-earth

Inhale...Exhale...Inhale....Exhale....repeat, poker face still remained as if nothing happened.

"Oh, the world is wonderful, I'm grateful~~~" Bullshit! I know I'm not, just want to calm down the intense flaming dual-personality of a Gemini.

A balance, is what I'm looking for all this while; I dreamt to have unlimited wealth, that was in the past. Now, being idealistic and realistic has to have a distinct difference.

unlimited wealth- Idealistic

allow me to not justify how realistic one should be, perhaps you could judge if I'm one when you scrolled down to the end of the post?

Well, I'm grateful, lucky my bro wasn't meant to study and pursuit education like i did, else I'll lose the chance to study."you should know what is more important." mum told me this when I stated the presumption. She supports me to UK, and yet she always has a negative input. I wonder one day if I might be stricken by lightning

*shrug*.

what happened was, i called her and tell her my latest plan; I'll never deny I'm a career minded female, just that she doesn't realize. She suggested I be a waitress or any part-timer like her era did(come on, DID is past tense), thank god she is Gen-X; could you spot any differences on their career of a part-time agent and part-timer in Metrojaya/restaurant?

Sorry,  I don't mean to be arrogant, but could you give up your own pride as a Uni grad，and to be "HI, MAY-I-HELP-YOU-machine" in supermarket or restaurant? I'm just clearly, or in fact, absofarkinglutely recognize a fact of us being in a different century. I regret I spoke in a rude way in the call, who can control so well when her/his mum discourage again and again? I told her: I've been staying miles away from home, what I involved outside, you wouldn't know if i didn't tell; i choose to tell you because i don't want you to worry (in fact, i just need encouragement, is that too much?), and sorry, i made you worry, again.

I'm naive- I don't know darkness of the society; I'm useless- else i could have started work; I'm stupid- need to sit in exam for times just for the sake of getting a PASS. All, are her perceptions of me.

I'm naive because I still believe kind-men is not extinct yet; i'm useless is because i hope to be encouraged as i know being in a battle alone is a tough job; I'm stupid because I believe kind-men. All the above mentioned are optional for me, I'm still holding the authority to allow myself to be or not to be.

"you don't dream so much, get a job to work first, gain experiences first, be a down-to-earth person...."

arghh!!! when communication system break down, every message brought out is meaningless; when one does not agree with you, whatever you say is bullshit. Of course you could persuade or convince the one, how if the one keeps countering your points by living experience? She knows a lot of friends, what she experienced are absolutely more than what I've gone through so far, sometimes listening to her words are all right, but not words like: "my friend was one of them too, but now he chose not to be; my friend also say why you skewed to a bramble? Be a down-to-earth person, teens nowadays are always dreaming big". Too much, until i'm too tired to recall. You say sly people are everywhere, society changing rapidly, can you imagine if I adopt the ancient approach of so called: "down-to-earth"?

 down-to-earth? how not down-to-earth am I? I'm counting on illegal business or lottery?

I think there should be a new definition for "down-to-earth" particularly for Gen-Y....

what's wrong with wanting to build a career with a different path way? as long as not over-devoted, things should be all right, isn't it? I know the facts, i look further in my life, I'm planning ahead, is it wrong?

Down-to-earth person, no offence but this is what's crossing my mind now. Down-to-earth means being satisfied with current life, but  have no further plans to safeguard if any shit happen one day.

So, am I an idealist or a realist?

Full stop. Beginning.. .

I'm strongly against the conservative notions of horoscope as if there are only 12 kinds of people in the world; however if there is one notion i must admit, I'd say: Gemini has dual-personalities.

Seriously, I'm sorry to all my frosty looks, icy responses; one thing always crosses my mind, and I ponder it quite often, am I too mean to you? You know i felt so. I'm also sorry of rarely utter the three words, but i did to others easily, not even think before say, my friends, my cousins, my nephews, to say it is not hard,  but it is hard when i say to you.

Phobia? mental block?

After the reckless action of putting all eggs into his basket, what left was the hurtful spirit and sinked confidence, when i felt no one could neither understand nor helped, you gave me a hand that secure and comfortable to hold with. Nonetheless, I couldn't as extrovert as last time, I'm stingy to say the three words after the wallop. You taught me, corrected me, lead me; yes, there are something i don't agree with the way of how you dealing with matters, we can over come it, can't we?

When you were with me, I don't feel to talk much, or merely nod, especially when it is an open place with existence of others; after you left, feel of missing you raised. I hate the self-defence mechanism...

"whatever time spent with you is the best time."

this is what i want to tell you, too.

The three words, you know i do.

Thanks for always there for me.

~I LOVE YOU 

Scandal - behave like a real man.

So, what comes to your mind of "SCANDAL"?

Edison? maybe, it is a pronoun of it, but would your interest focused on how thick how long is he when you scrolling down the obscenity pictures?

"she is flat"

"omfg! she is bitch!"

"OMG! I can never accept she would take this kind of pictures"

"Fucker! how great he could have F***ed so many girls"

"$&&%^, not too satisfying, those bitches give priority to his face before have a glimpse of his cock"

" he is jerk, how could he do this to them; they are stupid! why do they let him take all this kinda pictures...?"

See, above are summaries of what I heard in the discussion of the scandal. None of it, stand on the girls' side, the most mercy one was rebuked the guy first, then turned the bazooka to the girls... Pity to those victims. 

Female, took whatever blames as if they deserved it; yes, they were blinded at the moment, indeed, they were stupid when they allowed him to take such pictures, however who should be blamed? The one who nodded to take or the one who took the initiative of preparing equipments, put the camera for the sake of right angle to amplify the most private part of those 'stupid' girls? Worse, camera focus on the girls' face and action when he was enjoying the service of heat, moistures and massage on his god damn cock! 

Female are always the one to be blamed in the cases, could anyone put themselves on the naked girls' shoes? 

I just watched back an interview of Gillian Chung, whom condemned by public after the scandal. 

she said :' I'm silly, I'm naive" a statement that filled with guilty, self-condemn, regret, will to bear consequences before Edison- whom should face public before the victims- took action, was not accepted by public. 

Everyone was saying she was fake.  Why couldn't we showed support with silence? stop releasing arrows on her.  Too late to shout this out, after almost 2 years of the scandal. 

Personally, I'm really impressed with her courage of standing out to face the strike. A normal girl, if same thing happened on her, i think most probably she might wants to end her life before the call; from one perspective, Gill is a normal girl, from another perspective, she is a public person. A normal girl can walk on the street, still, without too many people knowing her, Gill? I think she rather stayed in room even her nature calls rang, when she was in a public function. 

As a female, i just have sympathize her. 

What's most ridiculous was: "i can't believe she would had sex" 

=.=

come on!  she was 23++ when she took pictures, 23++ years old adult shouldn't have sex, whose privilege to have one? 

Back to the topic, I've some friends took pictures like this, 9 out of 10 was half forced, one third of the 9 was took without their consent! who should be blamed then? 

"Girls should protect themselves......know a guy in depth before go with them...." bla bla bla...

What era now? technological advanced age, illness of society take it of leave it la. Even decades ago, female at that age not even know how their husband looked like before had sex! 

Guys like him, control your precious before take action. Cock doesn't think but brain does, don't let the joystick take over your brain. If it does, behave like a real man; not a man by name. 

No Move Back

-Convert 12,500 USD to RM, how much it is?

-They said wanted to hire you, but you don't speak fluent English. 

-“I just said once NO”; my face gone red.

Every little thing happened around reminds me I'm dealing with work."You have no one to rely on" My mum said

Finally, it is the end of study life which i committed for 17years. GOSH, I've studied for 17 years, for God's sake. "how many 10 years in one's life?" quoted from Cai-gou (Rosy Business巾帼枭雄）Just because of the education system in Malaysia, my past life was shaped by study-school-study-college, studying actually took quarter of my life if I have 68 years old life, it is not easy to shift a habit which instilled for years...and now, it is time to change. First step for the changing, get a job first. 

I think i'm optimistic enough to face the problems of job hunting, so I told people good job can be found for sure, but depends how long you gonna spend in the process of hunting one. But i'm getting worry lately, one of the reasons of cause derived from mum. Calls are quite frequent recently. "How? What you doing now? Found a job yet？Did you call to Ah Beng's brother's fren's colleague, ask him to open a door for you to work in XXX la!" Hello, the colleague whom is a friend of Ah Beng's brother,  how do you address yourself when you call him?

"Hi, i'm XXX, my mum is Ah Beng's brother's friends...bla bla bla...." can you tell how complicated the connection is? Well, this is just part of the problems. 

Interview session, everything runs smooth, but still no news days after it. In the end I got to know they crab at my verbal skill...

Another interview session, things happened as above, everything runs smooth. She said will be calling me either today or tomorrow (either 25 or 26), but till now, no calls. SAD. I should have known what caused the failure...Who is always wanted to have my complexion, say it looks rosy even not applying blusher? Tell you, get it if you want and I could. This ‘adorable’ complexion betrayed, and trapped me—to tell people I’m nervous even If I’m or I’m not.

            Honestly, when seeing people around getting jobs with good offers, how could I not afraid of it? Life still goes one huh? Welcome to reality then…

p/s: tough time never last but tough me do; I’m still holding this spirit, and it will be holding on me for the rest of my life. I don’t feel to give the battle…because if I give, i’ll be in miserable life. The environment is crucial to shape your personality; Me- Mia, is willing to take up the challenge. Even it is a big amount, 12,500 USD. If positive thought could make things, I hope the magnetic field of my positivity connected with the authority. You know what I want.

I"m ok?

It's been years studying communication,we were taught to recognize the fact of interpersonal communication is ambiguity; due to individual's perception and of cause it is very based on every elements consists in the communication process. A sentence, a word, a question, an answer always being interpreted differently; interpretation is based on the setting of the conversation's environment, communicators' cultural background, educational background and most importantly, the meaning of the "words" being used. 


Imagine, if a service crew asked: " Coffee?", she is asking if the guest wants one; 
and the gentleman said: " I'm ok".


o.0


what does it means by the  "I'M OKIE"
I'm ok with the offer; or I'm ok, leave me alone, i don't need one? 


A simple conversation diverse meanings. So what should the service crew reacts towards the answer? 
the best is, double confirm what does the OKIE means. 
"i bet you do understand English,don't you?" 
................


Marvelous...Fantastic...
This is why sometimes conflicts happen, when you doubt with the answer, recommended to find out what does the answer means ; however asking might lead to killing reply. What an ironic situation and yet this ironical scenes are always playing everywhere, over and over~


 Congratulations. 
any way to avoid? 

The Secret.

 secRet is: be positive, positive thought makes things. 

How great one's thought could change things? I've heard a piece of infor which i'm not quite sure the credibility.
Said it was an experiment did on a prisoner, or prisoners, purpose was to identify how great  one's mentality was. Prisoner's eye was covered by cloth, wrist was slightly cut, tap was turned on and the prisoner was told: this is the sound from you bleeding wrist, the blood is flooded on the floor.....in the end, the prisoner dead.

The truth is, the cut on wrist was not enough to cause bleeding as the tap did, and also not enough to cause one dying of bleeding. What made the death, actually was the thought of the prisoner... Have you heard a story of a mother carry a car when her child was under the car? how could a woman carry a car which weight few times of hers? Thought, i bet. No, i convince.

Men's life can always be ruined by their thought. family tragedies happened always because of husbands/ wives gone mad based on certain reasons; people suicide always happened when they think negatively. I told my colleague when i was 17, "happy or sad, you are given 24 hours perday; to make it yours or make it sad, you decide." why not make the day yours?

I'm encouraging myself, if one day i lose my courage, i wish i know the direction to trace back this post. If I don't,please show me.

And the secret is: be positive and process positive thought.

preface of 2012; 18112009

The prophecy of end of the world is always spreading around. There were few times saying the end is coming, but i'm here blogging means it never comes. Until weeks before 2012 is on screen, i got to know such prophecy again; yesterday, i watched this movie, an apocalyptic movie which presents a lot scenes of how our Mother Earth is destroyed. Storm, is one of it...

then today's afternoon, i was sitting in the living room. Weather changed suddenly, and raining heavily. Perhaps it should be a word to describe how terrible the rain was...I can only say the rain was heavy until sight very bad, trees collapse, bikes and even hawker stall all collapsed; a kid was blew by the strong wind.  I feel like it was a symptom of end of the world. Beside, water leaking into my room, my mattress got wet because of it... I think, if one day earth quake happen in Malaysia, a building like i'm staying sure going to collapse, and me? haha... can you tell the crisis?

broken branches, collapsed bike and hawker stall

broken and fallen branches

see the bike....

see all photos above...

how if the end of the world is really coming?

well....

it ain't a problem we should worry, because it comes when it comes, with small strength of a human being, do you think you have the ability to change it?

I just hope, if it does come, hit me and let me die straight.

Things about me, happened about me.

I'm back. There is a difference with now and few months back, amount of post is what im referring to.

• Job hunting. I've been keep sending in resumes, keep going for interview. However, none suit me. Waiting for Refinery studio in Sg, Genting, and Public Bank. They said: work for living, not work for money; for me, they are same. 
• First time ate giant prawn. Let me describe how big it was...look at your palm, yes, as that big. it was cooked and bended, can you imagine? and the meat is half finger thick..
• Stayed in luxury hotel. Highland Hotel.
• watching people in and out of the door in casino, saw an uncle uncle holding RM100 note with 4-5 inches thick, don't tell me there is not worth fewty thousand. 
• Addicted to western food, i think this is side effect of being there. or this is hinting how much i miss there? ^.<
• Doubtful. Convincing myself. and I'm really trying hard.
• Mental blocked. and I'm really trying hard, too. 
• Adventure in the mid night. Venue:  Genting Theme Park, haunted house. That was a great experience, trust me. XD
• drama soup boiling. '宫心计”
• Listened to someone, maybe should pass at least part of heart to God?

I'm blanked. due to inefficient sleep this 2 days.

I've had unpleasant experiences.

What is going to happen when a vehicle is burned? Explosion…

  The accident traced back to 30 minutes (8.35p.m, 9^th Nov) before I blog this post. Make it clear, the vehicle is not exploded but burned, so I’m alright. I was reading articles with my baby, why did I read an article? Because I miss UK very much…

  I smelled the burned smell even before I start my baby, the coach was smog bound. Not surprisingly, I was steady as nothing happen. I knew something happened to the train, but what I was thinking was, what can I do other than rushing out from the train? If touch-wood anything happen. I’m a person like this, looked like don’t care of things around, that’s why people care of me, always scold me about this. Xiang, Cheng, Yiheng…ok, all guys…fine, back to the topic. It is really dangerous, if anything happen, if the train exploded, I’ll be not able to update this blog FOREVER, nor you guys see my smile, listen to my laughing, FOREVER.

  The train stopped at middle of nowhere, and I was urged by the nature call; almost all passengers went down, but I was still reading the articles. A passenger came up, shook head, and said: I think the train is on fire , And I listened the staffs said don’t know what “bakar”… no wonder the burned smell happened so badly, I was not confused of the smog , but I was besotted of noticing all those thing but never react to self-rescue. If a smart one noticed something wrong with the train, possible of the one still continue what she was doing as if nothing happen? I should be more alerted of things around, I mean it.

  

  The train stopped about 35 minutes, only continue the journey, it was almost reaching the destination. What makes people dissatisfied was, the staffs never make announcement, at east, inform passengers what happen, I saw many old folks rush here and there, keep calling, the service deserve to be blamed of making everyone frighten out. Who I called? Daddy. If not my jumbo’s message asked me call him back with : ARE YOU OK? CALL ME BACK!, I won’t made a call. The “!” is really a powerful mark, and sorry of making you worry>< promise I’ll take a good care of myself.

What to do for a girl like me when I want to go back Ipoh? 

  Take bus is always dangerous, I thought KTM is much better but who knows, it happened thing like this. Seems, I should have a car, and I promise myself, I will, and soon…

                                                     

it comes when it comes.

The truth was known；I was ready. When it comes to face the problem, somehow fear arises.

I just doubt can i cope with the weakness of mine. I've been trained to do that for years, which level i'm in, the picture of that is clearer than everyone's perceived。

 I've the habit of blogging equals to process good witting skill? put it in this way, I've have the ability to visualize words to picture, might have the ability to put minds in words, however, the words is 'words' that i know only, maybe who close with me will know it, not everyone close with me what. Every of my group mates know i hate paper work, but this "executive" is expected to have good command in writing skill...and was told, CC, forward is damn important there, what represent one before the one is presented physically, writing skill come first. faint...well, i truly know i have certain level of creativity, certain level of writing skill if brush up a little bit, for internally it is useful, but when it comes to a competitive field, like Media. i know my posts are always thrown as trash. but when i think of the rest can get a job and be the same position there, i cant find myself a reason to be frighten of. maybe, posts followed will be in a formal way, F words, imply, hint might be used lesser....

那时那日的美雅，再也看不到了。

T.I.E.

take it easy.

tiring trip, but funny! blow what?

Oct is a busy yet boring month, why? Whole month I’m only doing travelling—which is busy one, or staying in Ipoh’s house, or staying in T-sue-Babe’s house—this is boring. Let me jot down where I’ve done in this month…

-5^th back to Kl, for fitting, 7^th got a job.

-Mid of Oct went back Ipoh with Xiang.

-17^th flew to S.G…

-23^rd went Genting

-26^th celebrate San Princess’ birthday

-27-29^th ---PANGKOR TRIP

Although this is not as “budget” as we planned, but it is still a fun one. After this trip I really have a feel of…GOOD BYE~ don’t know why? Perhaps everyone should keep their ‘have-fun’ mood and look for a job seriously? ><

Anyway, this should be a happy entry~~ total we had 12 person, look at the pictures uploaded ^^

Photos were took when we on the way for “snorkeling”,not diving, but we got to see how under the sea looked. My first jump was a failure because my life jacket was a little bit too loose, hence it was like not enough to support my weight (what I felt), and thus, I drank a lot of seawater. Pangkor’s seawater is salty like &%%#*$&, nearly tasted bitter! And I was wearing contact lens; it was suffering when it came into eyes! We had our ‘gei-fan’- chicken rice on one of the island, although I’m not into ‘gei-fan’, I mean if there’re others choices I will not chose to eat that, but under that situation do you dare to order roti bakar? After lunch, we had our diving, this was referring to plunge into water, not float on the sea to see under-sea view. I jumped twice, but both failed, last one was a pain one… see below…XD

 all of us failed! Babee was the funniest; see she was like standing on the sea.

Before we had lunch, actually tour guide- Ah Soon drove us to have a sightseeing of Pangkor Island. There are many rocks shaped into patterns or shapes, I can’t help myself to give a praise to the works of God. And he showed us sea cucumber, sea urchin, coral… 

After lunch, we had water game which not included in plan initially. This was where the journey of PAIN started…. Our first game was ‘Banana Boat’, we were thrown into water after sometime we sit on the boat. The first throw I never expect it would bring me a heavy strike! My chest bang on the fella in front of me; put the blame on my weight, please! Such “KG” plus the momentum effect, my rib was hurt. I can’t put how was the feeling in words, can’t take deep breath, can’t laugh loudly as usuall, can’t even do sit-up! and tell you a damn ‘dei-sei’ (serve to be laughed) thing… today I purposely bump into Gugu like caused in incautionly, but I forgot my rib! what happened was I pain until don’t know how, only keep saying ‘very pain, very pain’, and the rest were keep laughing only. (Haiz, this story tells don’t always act like a child…)

Ok, back to the water game, the second one was called Big maple, 4 persons in one game. In the half of the game I fell out of the plate and was towed in the water, lucky I managed to climb up to the plate or I will be towed until the game was finished. After this game I was exhausted, and my pants unbuttoned after the game, sadly I don’t even have extra energy to button it up! This was only second game; the last game was the toughest one! 2 people in a game, Jason and me paired together. Thanks dude! We keep encouraged each other did not loose our hand until the game ends. Waliao!!!! I didn’t shout in this game, no more energy! After the game was exhausted!!! See the photos below…

how was the first game until we looked exhausted. What a big contrast before and after played the water game. ><

After the game…I couldn’t fight with the call of sleeping, and I dated Mr Chow for one hour, I think….very soon, the next day was the day going back. About how was the trip when we going back, not much interesting but eating. I brought them to eat ‘Dai Shu Geok’, simply means under the big tree la, and ate tau-fu-fa which both are quite famous in Ipoh. After that, I was sitting inside my room, posting and arrange photos, and blogging until now. I’m in ipoh now…

Below are some photos…have a look =p

this is sea echinus

muacks

there is a word called: Contradiction

Miss the weather; miss the people; miss the accent; miss the currency; miss the fast food; miss the snack food.

I heard cold storage is special in selling import food, perhaps i can find Ben and Jerry there? I was happy and excited to find out Walkers and Hulahoop was available, too. Camera was ready to take some photos for blogging purpose... I alerted there was one "wood" standing there, looks like patrolling but his eye didn't look like one! instead he was more like a surveillant. How weird is that when he was following wherever which rack we stop by?well...

is there any problem? Xiang asked.

"no" he answered, but still stood like a wood there ><

we feel not comfortable of being followed, you've been following us quite some time.

no, because i saw you wants to take photo, i suspect you are competitor...

G0SH

quite some argument then...

this is just a ind reminder, i didn't suspect you are, but...

ok...my turn to shoot

You just said you suspect us? this is not fair to every consumer of Cold Storage...

then he requested to check camera. i wanted to argue about his right to check but since xiang said ok,then...fine, let him check

it is a joke! he didn't even know how to operate a compact camera like mine.

checked. nothing, what his face looked like? he never thought of to say sorry?

i think you should apologize right?

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before we left, he was following again, WTF! Some more wanted to call a guard. Crazy, do i look so stupid to be your surveillant object? We were about to leave but before step out there, i said:

I really don't like the way you talk.

what makes me so particular to catch his word, because he said suspecting us at first; followed said he didn't suspect. This is called contradiction in terms. Don't ever do this if you want to take an action that might bring people uncomfortable feel. Enemies are always ready to catch your mistake, and you will be countered back by own mistake. If you did this, beware.

Anyway, i shouldn't let non-valuable people like him, like any annoyed one, bring my mood up and down.

May i Love you?

I got to know him when i was in Liverpool, it happened when i was you-tubing songs-

--Cry Me a River, by Justin Timberlake--

this song is awesomely present my mood. Well, you know, always clutter of videoclips appeared on youtube, thats why it makes it so famous; many people posted their video on Youtube and it is how the story started. This song, many people sang it and posted it, the clip of a little kid holding a guitar graped my attraction, and i clicked it.

He sings damn good. the first videoclip i watched, he was playing guitar and sing acoustically, i mean without music, the clip is only 2 minutes plus, if im not mistaken; but i din't explore much about him, just impressed by his voice.

He, a kid- a Canadian native who grew up in Stratford called Justin Bieber is only 15 years old. He was started to sing when 3 years old. It happened 3 years ago when he was 12, he participated in a competition called Stratford Idol, and he managed to get first runner up among all participants who took singing lessons and had their vocal couches. Since then he started post his clips on youtube in the intention of sharing his victory with his loved ones. Amazingly this clips hitting rates were up to million, and this lead his manager- Braun found him.

Justin is lucky, and with no doubt he is blessed with talents, he is self-tough musician who plays guitar, drum, piano and trumpet. (This impressed me more! how many can plays trumpet? and I'm deeply believe he plays much more better than me). When he saw Usher, he was brave enough to approach him, said: Hey, i like your songs very much, would you like me sing you one?

Marvelous....Usher wanted to sign to up, meanwhile Justin Timberlake had the same thinking as well...

OK....year 2008, finally he had his debut album..."first time" is his first single, i can foresee this kid will be growing as shine as he can, like a new superstar, like a solid force in music industry with his untapped well natural artistic talent. Justin, I've faith in you.

"i grew up under the poverty line, i didn't have much as others did. I think this made me a stronger person it built my character" Justin said. Haha....a small kid can say this in a sophisticate way, impressed and admire him so much.

i hope this kid will not blind by his achievement, don't be like the main character in Home Alone....

This is him---Justin Bieber.

Defeat and Victory.

Day after day, I’m getting more and more conscious. If everyone has a dream, this is the longest dream I’ve ever had; perhaps I should call it nightmare? If this is a war, I’ll announce my soldiers are defeated but victory is always belongs to us. What a confusing claim when team loses battle yet possess of victory! Yes, things happened are always as ridiculous as the phrase above: white and black, yes and no, on and off, win and lose. It is ridiculous but explainable, ridiculous but it does exist.

White and black= grey (so a fucker cheated but the lies are claimed as white lies-for them, on fucker’s perspective);

Yes and no= uncertain (so a bastard is always with the characteristic of uncertain);

On and off= something wrong (so an asshole on off on off cause difficulties in shitting);

Win and lose= what happened at me (so a silly leant to smile after injury)

Let me make this as a war, describe it as a war.

When the war had just started I’m caution enough not to be trapped, opposition is not friendly. A new general- me who only lead a team once and win once know the truth and fact of I’m not smart enough to handle a war like this. Well, war started and war end, just like that. The war is declared: defeated; BUT, the triumph is belongs to me.

Fine…I’m defeated in the war, but won consciousness; my soldiers are injured in the war but they recovered and getting stronger, tougher. Yes, I’m defeated like dog but opposition dint gain anything. I’m defeated, what I lose is just a war; but the value of what I win is more, much more than what I lose, even over than what the opposition won.

Do you think to stop?

lighted on the harmful stick, stood at balcony, looking at the plants and 2 significant buildings from far, smooky weather doesnt make the buildings look as grand as described. Always, memory of past flashed through my mind when i see something. Feel now and months ago was really different, think depth, im still going no matter what, which means no matter how the ending is the same because i've done what i use to do, i swear no changing but 'the one', 'the one' decided and changed things.

May, the scene i saw was greenish plant and so called grand buildings from far; then i saw historical building in a different place with different mood and weather, what makes the difference, other than what i saw and also what i feel, here is a little bit hot, sticky and sweaty, air is alittle polluted, thats all. few months later what i will see most probably will be building everywhere. these are the stages of one must go through, who knows few years later the scene i see will be .....(whatever).

weixiang always said, move on. i know, life must goes on. (i dont mean to hint anything)
i realised one thing, no matter how much you dont want, time pass as it does, age increased as it used to, responsibility of one keep adding even you dont want. Our parents had this stages, aren't they? 20+++ years ago they were same like us, blur about direction to be step on, but years later they still did it but just the path might be different and destination is different, we're still given birth; i mean, no matter how much you dont want, how much you feel hard, things always routing universally, no one is excluded. years later our children will have the same thought as we do now.

for friends who are still bluring, scaring of facing the cruel world, move on. you know it must goes on but just you are not willing to face it yet. im ready to step on the path that my age should step on, months later i will be an executive of whatever, im going to make a bright future.

move on. and forget whatever blocking you from moving on.

we will meet at the grand destination. see you .