明年今日之回来。

在看着照片的同时，发现有一个人不见了。
此人，正是在下。

太快了

还有一个多月就12月尾了。
妈的，时间总是在你们无聊的时候让你觉得它太多，但却又不知不觉的飘走。
想抓住，才发现这个想法太无知。
今年根本没有什么resolution 可谈，因为我今年废了一整年。。 。好惭愧的说。。。
减肥？咸丰年前已经放弃了啦。。。
收入增加？我还用了不少储蓄呢！！！
我唯一的目标就是settle掉那令人烦恼的loan. 结果。。。

走了一个肥的，来了一个壮的。
今年最大的收获就是垃圾掉了，拣到个宝。
收到最贵的生日礼物，吃过最好的食物，见过最亲切的长辈，得到最多的礼物。
真的。。。20112011 的2319 我好怕。
因为，24快过了，25来了。
我还有2年的时间把自己像水一样给嫁出去。
成家之前最重要的是什么？
鸟你！收入稳定啦！
嫁不嫁出去还真的不大重要，重要的是$$$$.
(我管你觉得这是犀利眼？重物质？ 还是$$$眼睛？）
换句话说老娘只剩2年时间来巩固事业！
眼看一切来着，但前面却有一片玻璃阻挡着。
无助无助。

不要让爱你的人失望太久；不让看低你的人笑太久。
别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。
就算我变，也只不过是策略改变。
快了。。。
快了。。。

正常的，不正常的。

头痛，似乎变成邮差，偶尔会敲上门来送信。
好些日子了，那许下的诺言好像无法达成，再过一些日子眼皮又会再垂一些，原来双眼皮胶带也抵不过岁月的重量。
没有办法说不纳闷，看着不熟悉的自己把自己所熟悉习惯的自己踢得越来越远。
很想，很想，非常着急的把自己带回来，不是那熟悉的自己被踢远了，原来只是怂恿夏娃亚当的毒蛇把眼睛给遮住。。。

放弃的念头像邮差，有时会敲上门来送信。
不！不要阅读那些信！
从来计划中的计划都会实现，只是这次。。。怎么。。。有些阻碍。
准备的一切，是不可能就这样结束！
创业难，守业更难。
可能。。。开始真的遇到不少挫折。
自己一定会赚回所失去的"Pride"，谁有意或無心拿掉的，都回一一拿回來。
立志，永远不会难；做到的才不简单。

笑吧！
那蜡像似的笑容！
上色的蜡，谁也没有办法看透蜡后面的颜色。
因为，就算笑着蜡像告诉你它伤心，你也不会相信。
因为，就算它给你真心，你也只会觉得蜡做的心不算心。

Good Question

Do I have a gun to force you to take out all you money from you ATM and investment stock?
If the answer is no, then you will know why this question pop out.

Today my friend asked me a question.
"Have your friends' attitude changed upon you changing your job?"
YES and NO.
Yes, they are people changed their attitude; and No. If there are friends who don't change, who are those people who changed?

I appreciate those who give me a chance by asking me questions on this field.
Thank You.

Cheers

Don't really blog about what I think directly, that's why most of my posts are not reader friendly. 
 Just to cheer myself up.
*aghast*
can't put a proper word here. 
It's better not to put. 
ask how, don't ask why.

What is Regret?

What chosen is chosen, what said is said. 

There must be sour, sweetness, bitterness and hotness; all I have prepared before make the choice. 

The moment I was looking for car is the moment I was planning for this, so there is impossible I'll give up. 

Only one reason to make me give up---- I'm not myself and I wanna let myself to be another useless hopeless creature.

The mind to be persistent is strong, however sometime somehow there will be swinging....

"Why not I go for this and part time do this?"

"hey, fuck u la....what you want to be?"

then, then mind will wake up again. 

Nevertheless, result speak everything. 

I though that is easy, but it is not as easy. 

In fact. it is as easy as it is difficult. 

Yo...you know you must. 

No matter what. 

You know where is the problem, if you dare not to say, I'll confess on behalf. 

- Afraid. You worried. and fuck u again, what the hell are you worrying? the words they talk about you? come on, you better worry the moment when everyone having good life while you are still driving the SAGA! and even pathetic, you gotta see people's face when you are down in a bad condition. 

- Not enough activity. hey, what most frequent happen on you is kena FFK. then you know the problem, so you gotta polish it. 

- Procrastinating. hopeless on this la weiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. For things to change, you must change yourself first, you have taken the first step, and the rest are what you GOTTA take. 

In your dictionary, there is none REGRET. 

there is only "YOU GOTTA BARE THE RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERY DECISION YOU HAVE MADE"

Although there is one person, always doing some destructive things like harassing you through phone, demotivate you through words. 

Let say, if one disagree what another party is doing, most probably, in this modern, civilized and democratic society. the one might just advise you but truely the one should hope you can do well on your decision. 

This ridiculous particular one, is not only disagreeing and discouraging, this person not even want you to be successful in your decision. 

What a JOKE! 

Marry a rich nice man is a fairy tale. Come on! which business man doesn't want their wife to be mindful one, to be able to help him one? Idiot will thought the rich nice men nowadays are still like those old days men. If there is any, the wife must be like the old time wife. This is like the ecosystem. 

back to the reality, there is no regret! 

and I swear, I'm gonna take back all the pride that has taken by others. 

I was given a formula to success

talk about my name. 

Mia Foo Mee Ngan 

in Hokkien, Mia= destiny. Mia Foo, sounds like bad destiny; Mee Ngan, sound like 'Meng Ngang" 命硬in Cantonese, either name is not a good sign. 

Although I don't have a good childhood like most of the people.

However, I got whatever I want in my life, provided I really go for it. 

I blamed at luck at times, after think deeply, I'm actually better off than many people, at least i have what they don't have. 

Everyone talks about opportunity. 

Friend, you wanna have a better life in the future, no doubt. else why the hell you wok so hard for? 

For some people, no matter how hard they work, theirs hard works are not recognized. 

For some people, they are looking for opportunity but there is no one to tell them that this is an opportunity. 

I'm the lucky one, which I have ald told Jason (my best dude) before, I have what I want, even I don't have it, there are somebody to help me. But of course, I need to really work my hard shit out to get it. there is no free lunch in the world. 

I got the formula to success. 

I got the formula to success

I got the formula to success

I got the formula to success

I got the formula to success

I got the formula to success

I got the formula to success 

The Only Thing You Can Do Now

Let me answer the title before start the post.
The Only Thing You Can Do Now, is Do Well!

得力说；“看着你用华语写的部落，我觉得我们很近。”
在我爽着的时候，得力又说：因为都是粗口。
妈的。
突然很想得力看3D肉蒲团看到进医院。
不然让那只Jot Bat看 3D肉蒲团看到claim PA，然后才后知后觉得发现大飞机打到受伤是不受保的。
都说别得罪没有第3只脚的动物。

老娘的兽行。。。不，是受薪日子快要结束了。
很快就要步入另一个阶段。

如果不是受到刺激，我是不会踏出那安全圈子。虽然我懂终有一天我会出来。
这几个月，发生了好些事情，好坏没关系，反正都是将来的故事。
现在我只有一个目标
就是做好现在要做的事，发展好现在要发展的事业。
就如以上所说的，the only thing you can do is DO IT WELL.

老娘的妈超反对。
她说对面街三姑的儿子的女朋友的表姐出来呆在银行，慢慢做几年后月薪４千块。
哇！！！　
（＝。＝）
都未见过大蛇O 屎
2-3年后老娘驾Harley Davidson 和Mini Cooper 啦！

这是目标。
我会到达
无论多辛苦
我会累
我会哭
我会怕
slap9 我假如我因此而打退堂鼓。

各位，再聊。

oh-so-irritating

I think i can't keep it any longer. 

Human's brain has the most complicated structure compare to EVERYTHING in the world, human's mindset too. 

So, the more you don't want to recall, the more it comes back. 

yea, you! 

you bad mouth others without urself noticing it, and you thought how great yourself is? 

you critic on others, which you shouldn't. That's so private, you didn't pay a little respect to the one you loveD. 

you peep on others email, which is fucking unethical. 

hello! you are really fucking first class mentality, third class practice. 

the more i critic you, the more it reflects how stupid i was and how naive i was. 

you shouldn't even exist in my blog, fucker. 

I should leave a big mark on your face on that day- that day after the silent storm.

 

牛～

听了一段很有意思的话。
把它改了一下，变成自己的话。

“几乎没有多少人能够抵挡金钱的诱惑；金钱不是万能，不过它能够保护你爱的人和身边的人不被金钱诱惑。”

震撼。
这两个个别本来没有威胁意思的单字，在我听完这句话之后深深地往心上插上旗帜。

钱是万恶啊。
多少人因为它做尽坏事，自尊道德尊严亲情爱情理智，通通被撕破。
能够秉持艺术之梦，不像万恶之首折腰的，小女子只有深深地敬礼。
而那些对金钱嗤之以鼻,　鄙视着他人对金钱的热诚，说着自己不会为金钱的作出违反自己原则的人，小女子对他们也来个深深地鞠躬。　

人啊～
要是今天有人给你１万，叫你离开身边的那位，你头也不回的走掉；
当那人说１０万，你的脚步依然大步迈向自己的天堂；
当那人说１０００万，你的脚步停了一下；
１０００万。。。脚步困难的往前踏多几步；
１亿。。。你还能不回头吗？
是低估了筹码的号召力？还是自己的道德理念站稳住脚？

身边不少人被金钱害死。
先说大老虎。
认识多年的朋友为了数十万，陷他一脚，至今仍然不见，老胡仍然爬不起。
小老虎？
为了一笔听说客观的数目，被骗了５个数字。丢了不只是钱，是信任，是亲情。
再说最近身边朋友发生的。
就被骗了一座别墅的钱，过百万。还一辈子也不懂又没有能力清债。
要是这个时候有人给他１００万，叫他离开，不要管这些事妻房子女，你是他，你会走还是留？１０００万吧？走还是留？
话别说的太尽。

我又发完一番伟言／危言；不爽就别看吧。
这社会还有言论自由。

晚安。　

The First Impression

That is the first image u left for others. 

You can say nothing, you can do nothing, but it will still leave people an impression of the image you carry. 

24th. 

Through out those years, what image i left for others?

And what should I give others in the future. 

Rebel...I think most of the people in secondary school would agree

Act like a boy....definitely this is agreed by most of the people 

Big Sister... don't know is it because of my size in those days

Strong women.....Tough women....

This is a heavy word. A very heavy description, indeed, HEAVY.

What trained me to be one? Until these day I already feel numb to tell again. 

But if there is a choice, will I prefer to be one? 

Ya, definitely....but can I have a little privilege, a little rewards, a little request?

I would like to be a strong and tough female who can be pampered, can be taken care of. 

'You are very independent, you are very tough, you are very special, you are different, you are...'

it's been not less than 100 times I'm praised in this way. My pleasure =) 

But if given a choice, can I choose to be the one who can hide in side an even stronger arm?  

The biggest joke ever is: men thought a strong and tough one doesn't deserve protection. 

What is the point of being strong then? while I lose all the privileges that a girl deserves? 

Biasa dah, tapi biasa pun mimpi nak dapat protection jugak. 

I'm just a species of chromosome X. 

By the way, 

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy 9th Chinese New Year. 

 

Flame 2

Light + Matches. 

A box of matches was abandoned, Gerald brought it home, and so happen it was put under the light. 

The light said let me illuminate you, hopefully my heat could dry up the dampness in you, so you can shine as how you should be. 

 

The matches in the end burn themselves not because too much of the heat from the light, but the purpose they are created to. 

Like a pencil and an eraser. 

Pencil: I'm Sorry.
Eraser: For What? You Didn't Do Anything Wrong.
Pencil: I'm Sorry Cause You Get Hurt Because Of Me. 
Whenever I Made A Mistake, You're Always There To Erase It. 
But As You Make My Mistakes Vanish, 
You Lose A Part Of Yourself. 
You Get Smaller And Smaller Each Time.
Eraser: That's True. But I Don't Really Mind. 
You See, I Was Made To Do This. I Was Made To Help You 
Whenever You Do Something Wrong. 
Even Though One Day, I Know I'll Be Gone 
And You'll Replace Me With A New One, 
I'm Actually Happy With My Job. 
So Please, Stop Worrying. 
I Hate Seeing You Sad.

Sounds touching. Shed tears when first heard this. 

Everything was created for one purpose, eraser was made to cover the pencil's ass; but the matches is made to start up a flame, not to be heat up by the light. 

Matches are flammable, easily burn up...

You might have forgotten this since you started to use lighter. 

-The End- 

Flame

除了战斗之外，我一无所有。