Flame 2

Light + Matches. 

A box of matches was abandoned, Gerald brought it home, and so happen it was put under the light. 

The light said let me illuminate you, hopefully my heat could dry up the dampness in you, so you can shine as how you should be. 

 

The matches in the end burn themselves not because too much of the heat from the light, but the purpose they are created to. 

Like a pencil and an eraser. 

Pencil: I'm Sorry.
Eraser: For What? You Didn't Do Anything Wrong.
Pencil: I'm Sorry Cause You Get Hurt Because Of Me. 
Whenever I Made A Mistake, You're Always There To Erase It. 
But As You Make My Mistakes Vanish, 
You Lose A Part Of Yourself. 
You Get Smaller And Smaller Each Time.
Eraser: That's True. But I Don't Really Mind. 
You See, I Was Made To Do This. I Was Made To Help You 
Whenever You Do Something Wrong. 
Even Though One Day, I Know I'll Be Gone 
And You'll Replace Me With A New One, 
I'm Actually Happy With My Job. 
So Please, Stop Worrying. 
I Hate Seeing You Sad.

Sounds touching. Shed tears when first heard this. 

Everything was created for one purpose, eraser was made to cover the pencil's ass; but the matches is made to start up a flame, not to be heat up by the light. 

Matches are flammable, easily burn up...

You might have forgotten this since you started to use lighter. 

-The End- 

Flame

除了战斗之外，我一无所有。

You Will See Me in TIME Magazine!

Year by year, that's why, I'm turning into 24. 

Since 2002 Dec, I decide to make my life to be abundant one, life is meant to be abundant, isn't it. I declared to my classmate: " one day you will see me in TIME magazine" 

17,18,19,20,21-- I said I wanted to focus on study, so I scored top 9th in Advanced Dip, but it doesn't mean anything. I focused too much in analyzing cause and fact. I focused too much in study drama--> damn this! 

22-- I said I want to strive for success when I stepped into working life. 

23-- ...

2258, everyone in FB pouring their true heart, true wish towards the new year.

- This is not a good year, I want to have a better one in year 2011

- My resolution in 2011 is to bla bla bla

- Year 2010 treats me like shit! 2011 give me luck! 

If you can imagine how my face and body language shows, *shrugged + nod* 

Why resolution must be set in the end of the year but not when you noticed something wrong? 

90% of those ppl who wrote that will repeat the same shit in end of 2011, and wishing for a better year in year 2012. Come on...let Mia reminds you, if Mayan is correct, u left 10 months in 2012 only. 

What i wrote above support the fact of why humans' mouth and eye located at front but not back. 

We talk we look forward but never look back and see what went wrong,  and never correct from the mistake. 

I dare not, DARE NOT to declare anything this year... What I know is to do to try whatever I can I could I should. My target set in year 2009, it still knocks at me every single minute; my wish in year 2002, i'm still looking forward to it, if this is achievable. I was scolded of not being focused... I thought, I can multitasking, aren't I. I can, I really can. 

You should never ask a deaf how sweet is Carpenter's voice, they will never know, If they knew, they must have forgotten too. 

A blind man shall never been asked how beautiful the rainbow is. 

You will never know if you never know; you will never know if you were not part of them.  

I'm young, I can take risk, I can bare risk. I'll do WHATEVER I can to achiever what i want and what I've set. 

in this journey called life, we all are either die too soon or live too long. 

the word of regret is forever deleted in my dictionary. 

We are human, we learn from mistake. 

Branches.

it's been a very long time didn't clean up and decorate my house.
I'm very tired, and very sleepy now, but i want to write this down.
Today my department give up incentive.
Incentive means...get it if you meet the budget. Honestly I've been trying very hard to reach my target but things just didn't run that smooth.
The instinctive me-- I guess, should be a very aggressive one. Just don't like the feeling of losing.
Don't need to be the best but at least second best!
there are few questions in my mind.
1. Should I or not delay my plan-- when actually i don't really have a very concrete plan to run as alternative. If delay means delay again and again;' if don't delay means I give up the battle here.
2. Should I or not give myself a burden-- to buy a car.
these 2 matters are interrelated.

I also don't know how. Feel like getting direction of spirit.

My Business

Find this !







will be continued.

To make a move

yupe, I love the red mountain logo so much.

since 2 days back the rythem of the theme song was keep surrounding in my mind, and I agree this is a good song. 

Recently i'm starting to absorb as much financial knowledge as I can and started to read those financial newspaper, share market news, stocks, everything regarding to investment; and also fall in love with a book called:" why we want you to be rich"

A very good point that I've picked up(as far as the half book i've read)- Society now has been changing from diamond shape (which Rich and Poor occupied the tip of top and bottom while middle class has occupied the middle part of the diamond) to a shape of concave lens and the middle part is getting thinner, soon the middle class will distinct from the middle. In short it means, rich will get richer and poor will get poorer. This is the problem, so they( the authors) want us to be rich is because they dont want us to be part of the problem, they want us to be part of the solution so the hypothesis they made will not happen. 

Thus i've been contemplating to start another journey; to be more precise i don't only think this after read this book, even earlier i've been thinking of this. The killing point is that, sayonara is hard to sing. 

to be cont. 

Lend me a pair of sincere ears.

End of year 2010. Aghast. 

None of any vocabs or words could describe the mood now.

Scientifically or logically, everything happens has a cause; every individual's story can be traced back. Hence, from my history, I should not just end up like this. Every folks praised me could be someone- in their mind someone must be holding authority, with good pay; when I enter college, peeps around though I must be someone, too- with capability, with good pay. Me myself thought that would be a good show, a show cost more than 50k. Pathetically this show ticket sold in low price. 

Didn't the previous post mentioned I feel like myself is like an useless freak, peek at others picture in fb- and think how could someone lose so much weight, what bag is she using... what an valueless action! Couldn't I spend the time in something more valuable like starting own business? I'll have a strong determination for diet when seeing someone lose weight, but damn it, I'll only jealous when seeing someone has achievement. 

The longer I stay in this place, the more I find myself non-capable; the longer I stay, the more I turn myself to a typical working people; the longer I stay, the farer the gap is, between me and them. Every gathering, compare their look with mine, I find myself getting smaller. Every talk, they are talking what is next plan when to buy car what house to buy, I can only listen with a smile- If you zoom into the smile, yon will see the ingredients of bitterness, and jealous. I used to show how strong am I, how tough am I, but I forgot tough and strong need the support of the s sign.

Every chat with friends, those lost contact for quite sometime, the first thing they ask must be: HOW ARE YOU? 

actually my answer is: I want to die.

I already exhausted, don't bother to complain, no energy to complain. Do you know how pain is this?

The stress is from the s sign. 

If we have enough, my mum will not has illness like now--mental illness is hard to cure. 

If we have enough, my family will not like what it is now, quarrel break down the communication, less communication freeze the bond. 

If we have enough... at least, no fake smile. 

I really...really...really want the courage to jump out from this comfort zone, encouragement from some important person as support, the request not high right? The most support i need from, is the one who most demotivate me and give the most discouragement. It is like crawling into the tip of a con. 

Set Me Free. 

P.L.E.A.S.E.

Can the light beam in?