Monday, November 24, 2008

arghh~

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HATE
PAPER
WORK
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CRAZY WITH THOSE PROPOSALZZZ
-THESIS
-FINDING
-ASSIGNMENT WHCH CLAIM TO PREPARE FOR UK STUDY(anyway...i might not goin~~)
-EVENT THINGIE
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PHOBIA when receive msges and call frm my team,my leader....
almost forgotten what KS trained us, tough time never last but tough people do...
i said this when everytime facing peoblem
i was like quite blur sometime, since being tough is so suffer why should tough then?
ok, i have no choice...
tough, u r living
lembut, u r living too
so....y dun i tough?
fiz...........
no idea on what shit i releasing...
no point
no significant
anyway..just to release tension here....
i'll be alright!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I've done

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NaH..see~~~this is how it looks like...
I did it because i like it, no one shall stop me from behave in MY WAY---




























quite BIG tummy~~~
Diet campaign is on the run,
No-Fuck Campaign is on the heat!
(i'm trying to kick-off the habit of saying Fxxx)



show you something----the process of piercing...

not as pain as u imagine

Next stop...tongue, perhaps...

incomprehensible

I heard from net about something happen in my intern company, the main character is a guy called: "Ndrow". He is elder than me onli 1 year, which means he is 22. but he drive volvo, he is very confident like nothing can defeat him,as i knwo he comes from a very rich family,his uncle is ranked top as wealthy man in Penang. concluded: he is very rich .

when first see him, first impression was: can he??
coz my boss said he is very capable, he handled a lot events and he followed the mobile library which done in a ship and the ship is moving all around the world.

in the few months time working with him, honestly he doesnt give me a comfortable feel. I think he is over confident, and he is not a GOOD one.

how to say......i was too idiot, seem too good to be bullied...i always feel like he is cheating me and find advantages from me, what funny is: nothing he can get from me. i dun look pretty yet not rich as him.
so i started stay away from him.


during few weeks we work outstation, i can tell he is not a ethic people, frm the way he handle things, what he did and the stories he tell

but what good happen to him was: he courted our promoter who look nice,pretty, pure etc...
this fella show he is very love the gal at first, after some time, which not very long, this fella said he got her precious, well...should know what is the precious i refer here...what cums to my mind was: take care...


quite a long time i didnt heard about him. the recent story was: he tried to fraud my company, not only that, he spread rumors about my colleague,something bad and malicious...

detail, im not goin to tell more....My mind is like stuck there. he is onli elder than me 1 year, he is just a 22 year old guy, what makes a 22 year old guy do such lot of unethical things?

well....make money, this is one of the ways...
business, always unethical...
should anyone transform to be unethical one just because of MONEY??

Sunday, November 9, 2008

whose fault?

Heard from a fren who jus broken up with gf, he likes, he wishes, he hopes, and he wanted his wife is not a type of strong woman, should not work outside, should saty at home, take care of kids.
reason being is, he wants his kids grow up in a healthy environment that has love form father and mother, he doest want to see he and his wife working, but ignore the kids...he said he is sad when he knows his ex is a strong-woman-to-be...

ok, link to my part... im not sure if im strong but i wil never let myself weak. I dun wanna staying home, take care of kids, waiting husband come back, give money regularly every month...this is kinda insecure life, for me... since the case in my house, men are no longer reliable human-being, so i rather believe my self. of course sometime i hope to get shield and protection from someone i care and i love... few times BB lim complained that he hates me works... he said when i work, when i concentrate, he will be totally ignored. So when i listen to my fren, regarding his simple wish of --he works, she stays--and after listen to his reason, i started to revise my mission and perception. how is the outcome? nope...im stil stick to my principle. who is right who is wrong?nah~~~

should be my characteristic or xperiences, i hate people beat female, i mean, i hate a guy if he beat female...i once hate my dad, because i saw he slap my mum, n me...when i ask them try to calm down. my face, is no longer precious. My mum always slap me, when i was secondary school, or even secondary school. My family story, is not as what we perceived how a family should be but yet it is not as worse as what we watched from movie,drama. I HATE PEOPLE USE VIOLENCE, HATE PEOPLE AGGRESIVE. i dun rmb when is the last time my mum slap me, i think shoud be end of year 2006. Everytime she slap me, i have a strong feeling of attack her. so, i duno since when i hate people slap me,and hate people use violence. I warn BB lim, no return once he slap me. everything has a cause and a consequence, i was growing up in this environment of facing financial problem, violence problem, so my mind tend to be more complicated. but whose fault? tough n realistic were embodied with me, from the experiences.

I hate people not respect me, too...my mum, throw things at floor, she wans me to pick it up and bring to somewhere else, why throw it on floor? why cant just pass to me, or out it on table? i will take it. WHY WHY WHY??? since then, i HATE people not respecting me. I hate people shout at me, yield at me, because they dun respect me, as what my mum did, shout. Verbal communication can be done by using speaking, but why someone wans to use the way of shouting???????????????
yes, YH LIM, im refering to u. Why cannt u speak to me like normal u speak to someone else? every time u shut at me, i was like teling softer to u, hope that u can calm down, but every time what the fucking tone u used is increase the volume even when i trying hard to control my anger speaking soft to u, it is absofuckinglutely piss me off. Im really really sick of it...
whose fault??? u hav ur reason of gone mad shouting at me, and i have my own reason of hating u shout!

happy and angry.

End of the year, should hav quite many jobs one...this months i got quite pack schedule on working,which is a good news...last Friday i skip class to replace job of my fren, that is a ciggie sellig job but we are not allowed to approach, instead we just stand a side,when there are any customer come in, if they wanted to buy ciggie, then onli ask them, woul u lek to try on this...bla bla bla...
such an easy job, but i hate the uniform, which si too sexy and not suitable to be worn at daytime.>>>i need to wear tube insie or it is extremly too short !see, that is the top of the uniform, wanted to take a full body one, but the cleaning ah-sou cleaning toilet...><

silly face, with the DAMN uniform, what a big contrast..

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it was a enjoy yet tiring weekend, i hang out with old fren.
after the movie is dinner time, these is where we dine.
a very special designed restaurant, with classical american feel. I get to know it frm Dee's blog, but i have no idea where is it at that time.

Bubba gump shrimp co

it is cute, use to put chili sos and ketchup



ask for service? show the red

blue? no disturb..haha

i like the paper....

caesar sald, i tot to hv light food..but it is big big portion...

terkejut when i see this board, the left 2 look alike ying rui!!!

female watch with guy's hand; male watch with gurl's hand...

happy weekend, with torturing ending....
my roommate lock the door, i sleep in car~~~~><

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

dare or not dare

I just received an email from my fren, it email's content is about donating a liver to a small pity little girl, she is just 12 years old, n she has been stopped frm school 5 months d..
when was i doin when i was 12? although not traveling the world but i can run and jump, and get trophy n metal for athelete activities, but pity her, lying on the bed, waiting some one to giv her a hand, thus she can survive...

after a while, i was thinking to donate my liver--the email was sent one week ago, should be all right... but after i key in the phone number, i dare not to press the "CALL" button...
lotta questions pop out in my mind: what is the consequences after donated the liver? can i still pursue my dream? can i play "bumpgy jump" in the future? can i wear bikini again if the scars left on my abdoment? how if after i donate i gotta stay in hospital for days? then i couldnt catch up my study n business--i mean academic thingie.

I called daddy, he said he support me to do that, but who is gonna take care of me after the operation? i think the girl's family will bare the bills, but they will not make nuorishment for me rite?

ooooooooooooooo.............in the end, still i dare not to make the call, i scare if i giv them an empty hope...i dun wanna be the jerk who gives hopes n take away the hope...


girl, sorry ...this old lady dare not to risk her future....
wishing you, get some one reli baik hati to donate his/her liver to you.
all the best.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

W-A-T-A-H-H-H

gosh~~ald November, in a wink time...what did i do i the past 10 months ya? perhaps there are something valueble~
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last friday i went station one which near by my area, we ordered beer, and captured some photos, wtf of my face look damn chubby,think twice....><..i've put on weight again
c my face, like a crap!

this is a reward for my effort on putting weight
hrm...actually everytime after take liquor, i mean anything with alcohol, the next morning sure i gotta 'laosai' one, so the next morning, 8 sumthing, i cannt stand the heavy metal rock band in my stomach, they rock inside my body; i rock inside my canopy-haha, i mean toilet =.=''
the next day after my drinking session, actually i gotta work, but~~~since work is something not funny yet essential, why not we make it not funny but reward-able?
actually i've been looking for a watch very long time ago, since there is some budget left frm my laptop, so~as below>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>


Nice??actually the (L) is quite nice too, but it is too formal.
left: RM 498, Right:RM448

Net n BB Lim said left one better....
Left: RM 358; Right:Ibid

Ibid.
Left: RM 398; Right: RM 498
U know wat...i've ben visited 2 shops, one is pavilion, one in Lot 10...i tried all above in Lot 10, sorry ya-to the salesperson who served me...i didnt buy frm u~
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Lastly--which means ytd-Sunday, 2nd Nov 2008
i bought 3 watches in a day, from 2 shops...COST ME A LOT!!! this months damn poor d....good punishment of spending too much, good effort of diet...

deng deng deng deng!!!i bought Solvil from city chain, DKNY n Hush Puppies from TANGS
my mum sure kill me if she knows it

this is a damn nice watch! frm DKNY, similiar with one of model i wear above, but this one has diamond--i mean crystal la...
RM548


MR BB LiM, happy?
what a weird face><>
like doing modeling only~haha
ahla, although look damn la~
Up: Solvil, Down: DKNY


from left: Solvil, HP, DKNY
"it took up my wallet space"although they dunot ride a plane
haha...my dudes, u got what i mean...?


illustration might be diff with real item, illustration juz for photographic purpose
haha
just SS la--Siok Sendiri



wah sheh---ok la, it is just self-satisfaction.As same to all photos below...for SS