choose either one. UK or Bro?

I was trembling, and im worring. Rarely eating become tasteless, i ate the sandwich just for feeding starving stomach. To be frankly, im trembling and feel scare/ worry since yesterday nite untill..now.

Yesterday he called, i can tell the unusuall everytime he calls. It must be related to monetory matter. I lent few times, few hundred, few hundred, few hundred. This time, he requires more, he requests more. 3.5 k.......i lent, this morning i transfered to him.

just now he called again
"姐。。。你一定要幫我。。。"
"又怎么了？"
"bla bla bla...這次要4.5k。。。”

I stunt a while, how to help?????4.5 k....
added with the amount he not yet return to me, it is more than 8k......
3-4 k, i still can fly UK even he didnt return, but this time, 8 k......
My heartbeat was faster than normal it does.
Without this 8k...for sure my UK plan have to be terminated.
My Bali dream, my Taiwan trip...all gotta be on hold...

i was lying on the bed, energyless, spiritless...
I started to analyze the problems of lending him or dont.
but no matter, that amount, for sure i will lend him. just becoz he is my brother.

if he didnt return, worse come to worst, i sacrify the chance fly over UK; if i dint help,who knows i might lose a brother, my only brother............

'what cums up must cums down'....
everything has a solution, wat different is the price of the solution...

a sleepy day

Today is a spiritless, hot, sleepy, boring...day

i was wake up late, i guess is my alarm problem, becoz juz now before i went dinner i set the alarm to wake me up at 8pm but it doesnt, it just doesnt ring...><

i brought my readings to work, but no use, my eyes feel like closing, and the words were like dancing, gosh....just cantn concentrate
then, i was thinking how when what...for moving back to Ipoh...too sudden of movig out before May, but the reason behind i feel lazy and extra to recall also.

when i was working, at 4.30, finally, i cannt tahan anymore, take a short nap in toilet.....genius *blink* *blink*

after 15 minutes, i went out, go back to work=p
the sun was soooooooo aggresive, keep giving its resource as worry we gain not enuf energy. MUMMY~~~~i was like buring under the sun....

after 2 hours journey, finally i reach home and had dinner...after dinner, somehting wrng with me...i ate another 3 packs of munchy crackers, kuih, cookies..as a hunger ghost, nah nah...correction: a pregnant hunger ghost, becoz after taken the trash, my tummy is like having 2 months baby...and after that, whole body feel hot...im stil trying to figure out it is cause by hot sun? or the instant effect of biscuit.

oh yeah....Aaron jio me to Poppy, but i cant go..i said i wana rush assignment, but im not....im lazy now....Poppy byebye....T.T

reinforcement of the thought,-NO!!!!!!!

I like kids, i like babies, when they are not crying...

I will gone mad if a kids keep crying--on the intention of getting something they wan have but adult not allow--

Since when I dont like kids..? when i saw my nephew tear my idol's poster into two...my idol, was WON BIN- a korea artist, i was attracted by his charming smile=p My room, pasted few naked guy's posters...Beckham, Won Bin, Edicson...

Clearly remember, i was busying with my SPM exam, but auntie brings her children to my house. The youngers one, the KILLER who torn my poster, just learnt how to walk, but she is super notti....push the chair all over my house, it is noisy, she climb to my bed and her hand was holding my WonBin, i sensed the threat once i get it to my room---i know she was goin to tear my poster!

'''Kunnnnnnn, Dooooooooooont----"

"chiiiaaaaa..."

my poster torn into 2

before she did it, she turn bvack her head to me, show a cute smile...

T.T----she just killed my Won Bin.........

since then, i know if i have kids @#%&^(&)))#$#@#@!$#^&^

I gave myself alot of reasons, actually is excuses not to have child.

Within this few years, my thought changed abit, maybe i should have my own child???

But just now, i read an email....it is about a mother who pregnant triples.

below is her photo, of how her stomach looks like after gave birth...

WAH!!!!!!!!

i just cannt imagine if all these effort of giving birth stamped on my kyte...

If im a guy, i feel disgusting when see these.....

for my kyte's sake.....i dun feel i wana pregnant...

thought might change, but for now--NONONONONONONO---

突來的不爽

忐忑不安的心情已經陪伴我好幾天
理智不停告訴自己---‘淡定有錢凈’
時間雖然不多
但是著急都幫不了什么
----樂--觀-----
終于周末來了
不早，10點爬起身（昨晚5點睡）
就是為了那網上的出席率
試了差不多2 個小時
還是不行

'I only request you to log in 3 hours per week, if you cannt even do this simple request, sorry, i think better you dun aim for first class or even 2nd upper'

Iqbal 兄的名言又在我腦海中閃過
站在他的立場
他的話絕對是有理由的
才不過3 個小時也做不到？
但是當一個人置身煩惱中
想東西往往就是不理智

結果

終于

到最后

我發脾氣了
（米啊，發脾氣有屁用哦？）
我又做了傷害自己--對經濟貢獻，對環境污染，令朋友失望---的事
謝謝“單和俚”薄荷大盒裝

它也不見得幫我很多
最終
還是自己冷靜下來
繼續要做的事

路-再不平坦也的走下去

踢路邊不犯事的石頭不止傷害自己的腳

也會傷害了石頭

米啊。。。歡迎你回來

apperception

Apperception, what a old yet long ignored word for me
i use to do it all the time, few years ago. Recently,this few years, it is a busy life. I dun have much time to stop by beside the road and appercep something, perhaps is not walk as much as last time?

Apperception, it cum bak this few months, after my advanced diploma. I got a little more time as compare to during my collage time. Espeacially this few months i work, travel go and back to puchong, im free enouh to think, explore my thinking.

when i cross the road, sometime i dare not to cross it, cause there are too many cars, actually, i can. What i've apperceived? Chance will not wait u if u dun take a step, as the car will not let u cross the road if u dun make the first step. U can either stand there, wait untill no car; or u hav to take a risk to cross the road, but be carefull, be smart. If u keep waiting the chance cum over u, sorry, no such thing, u hav to grap the oppoirtunity, but have to be smart.

In the LRT, everyday, i met alot of poeple, some of them without basic polite, cut Q; some of them( like me) juz wait when until it is ur turn. But be displined, the outcome will be lost chance to get it, so sometime hav to use a little bit of tricks to get to wat u wan, but please be ethical-using tricks is not ethical, but dun be tricky in a harmful way.
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Today when i take bus, goin to work, an auntie scold me, because she tot i wana cut Q. Cum on.....i hav plenty of time as compare to u, old auntie, u think i cannt wait juz a few minutes? i have better physique than u, u think i cannt stand for the whole journey which is merely 30+++ minutes? she scold, she use big gesture ask me stand behind, just behind her, there were onli she n me in the Q. I was thinking to keep quite, but her responce make me did once 'not respect to folk'--i speak in a non-polite way, not in a good tune: her respond, i think, was an embarass one.

I JUST WANT TO ASK THE STAFF SOMETHING, AUNTIE!!!(Auntie spoken in a louder tone)

her respond, i think, was an embarass one.

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