new life, new measurement

Although myself was feeling hard to leave, but as time flies, the day was there and i ald aboarded, flied, stayed and now stayng in uk liverpool. everythin i've adjusted very soon, like their timing, which slower than malaysia 7 hours, thier weather, which colder than genting, wind stronger than Genting, imagine when u feel cold yet wind blowing towards u strongly, speedy..yea, u will know the feel. And their food, frens know me, will know that im nt reli like fast food, fried food as if im healthy-eating-habit-advocater XD, i dun like all fastfood-styled food, ready made food which selling in market, the rest is all right. My eating habit is simple, anything feed me full will do.
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today is sunday, i went church this morning, simply just to kill my time and get to know more people. Im like this, wat the point of goin somewhere new but remain the old culture? Been here nid to adapt to their culture,i mean the way they speak. For God's sake, im manage to listen what they said, but when someone talk to me it would be wuite difficult, mabe the one speaking on the stage use mic, voice is louder, when someone is talking to me i cant reli get the pronounciation? maybe, i duno..

the priest? i wonder how to name him, he is not wearing gown, but he is the dai lou in a church, the name is start with Pxxxxx la..He said, life is about perspective, everything is about perspective, you wan to view something BIG, then the value of it is big,and when u lose it you feel pain, and vice versa.
It is right, his word reinforce my mind set, where lose n win is not a crucial thing, gain n lose must be a balance, you won get anything, but whenu lose somethig, u will gain sumtign bak. When u view the thing small, u will not feel that pain even if you are reli pain. You got me? it sounds so philosophic....
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I wrenched my arn few days back, untill now, it is stil pain, i cant use my left hand to squeeze my wet washed cloth, i can even hold the things that fal down from my cupboard, it sounds serious rite? yea, i know it, but i cant find traditional massage oil....wat i can do, is let it recover slowly...i wont use myleft hand that much until it is recover.
sorry tissue, let u worry le..
sorry deardear, let you wory too.

there are another few months time here, n i know i gota miss here a lot...^^

finally i know what is the feeling of scare.

Before flying to UK, we are recommended to have a simple body check up, i did it before i fly to sg trip. @$&&)(& to say that, my body check up result was not as normal as what i expected.

i did x ray, blood test and urine test, who knows urine test got problem, it was urine infection, what i duno what is the cause and consequences of it. On the way to airport, question marks keep surrounding in and out of my head.
Honestly, my mood to sg was affected, not to say spoiled but affected....

what i worried were, how if i reli got duno what disease, or because of this i cannt fly uk? If now ask me to die, i would say i have alot of things have not achieve yet, i have alot of thing not yet done, i feel hard to leave him and her.

This morning, i did the urine check up again, well....thx god and thx BACTRIM. it is all right now. But through this,finally, i now what is the feel of scare, scare of death, scare of leaving.

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無聊咯。。。

像風一樣的時間

finally today is my last day working in Puchong, Binary college, which mentioned in previous blog--a terrible place where sunlight directly comes in to the booth, thus my skin tone had became 2 tones darker, and look like not shining anymore. When i first start the job i was thinking when will the hell of the suffer time goin to be spent at here end? as time goes by, today, is the end of the hell of the suffer time, and my date of heading to UK is approaching, only 13 days left. I'm not that kinda homesick, no worry of im missing home there, what i worry is another period of suffer time goin to be spent there. Everyday assignment wil reali drive me crazy man!!!!! OMG

now, thinking deeply, at first i saw my working place, i had the same though of OMG too, dun i? haa, same theory applied, 3 months later i will recall what im thinking now, and sigh: time flies....

and after 3 months, i ahve to start my career, new life of working. GOOD BYE MY FUNNY STUDY TIME, I LOVE YOU.

开心日记

After Shin n Rui went back, i was brimmed with expectation, excited. Coz another one is coming, and i can leave the maxis job behind~ no nid to work...haha


to Thai food, i duno wat perception i should have towards it~
anyway.....
this Thaifood is located at Ampang, quite famous i heard, and someone told me nid to book before dine in.
Thx for bringing me along to have a try on it.
The environment is good, you will feel like you are surrounded by all green wood, it is like surprisingly found a waterfountain in desert. You would never expect at such a place would exist this restaurant with the environment and setting.


We both not eating much~chic, fish and keropok, all not finish, even soup not finsih too, onli the mussel consists of 6 finished.
Didn't take much photo, coz i feel ps of keep taking photo...hahaand when i recall wana take a photo, the fish ald look ...*aiks* le...

After the dinner, we went for movie^^ er~~~blur me, i tot we watch X men o, when went in onli i know, we actually watch mall cop......=p

after movie, we got another program...which is sing K
actually tuesday i ald feel to sing,n booked room in Green box, tot to ask tissue sing tgt, coz monday i was very very very bad mood....
bak bak bak....bak to happy mode~
sing until 4, when arrive home ald almost 5....pity my dear~ tired like....


The next day we went Ampang Korean Village, to have so called true born korean food.....i guess it is too 'trueborn", i duno how to eat, and the service is like...how cum i would had a feel of having korean food in mamak stall? u got wat i mean??

this is the BBQ pork, the meat is quite thick, and not reli bloated well, not reli taste like wati tried somewhere.

Ginseng tang.....erm.....no comment too.

does it looked delicious??? yea, this is quite tasty la~

left 2 are starting, right is when we left...nothing much diff...

Now you know, who is he...

happy happy day.

After the sad and bothering April, May would be my happiest month among this few months in year 2009. RUI n SHIN came KL, from SG, they stayed here few days, almost one week I could say~ When Shinshin stay my house, we did enjoy suck-blow culture at balcony,(pls dun mix it up with THAT, you know what I mean if you think that)

Jason and me are workaholic (Jason worse), we work until Thursday although they arrive KL earlier than that. Friday, 1st of May, we first met! After taken lunch at little tree which nearby my place, and decided what to do at night, we heading to mid valley, just for hang out~


Perhaps not surprisingly, this is what we first do once sit down.

The only guy in this gang no matter how, refuses to have one, and kedekut sangat not to buy starbuck, he siad: expensive wo~~ lastly and finally, he purchased a xxx, duno what name of the drink. Jawa chips???perhaps...


four of us re-union ship before jason and me fly UK~



how to define?? CUTE rui, SEXY shin, and COOL mia??

we took quite alot photo when sitting at starbuck, people around, some watching us, showing expression like: WAH....hwo cum this few people so much into take photos? some, showing an expression of NO BIG DEAL, coz they take more exaggerate than us, lying on the sofa, posing.... *salute*

We said wana steamboat, but quite expensive...so, we shifted plan of goin to have steak instead of steamboat. I've forgotten the name of the restaurant, but it is located at BUKIT LANGAT, there is a GASONLINE there, we were not goin GASOLINE but another western restaurant. i be frankly, the food and service is suck.....><. It is not a reason of public holiday, crowd. Doin catering business should have ald predicted and foreseen the crowd, and should have had a better strategy to handle the crowd wat =.= put the service aside, the menu.....GOSH...have you seen a restaurant which located at such a travel industry site, provide a menu that made by home-print paper and filed in folder????REDICULOUS. N talk about the food.....obviously, apparently, all food served were rushng work, ok, this i can tolerate, becoz even in hotel, they would did the same thing too, but the honey milk, is what i cant tolerate the most! aiks......named honey milk, but taste like super diluted almond tea..haha == THUMB UP!


Before our turn to dine in, we took some photos, for sure, this is a must~



i like this photo~

It doesn't look like Malaysia but Taiwan, doesn't it?

well~~~ lets get it started!

see the steak and the 'honey milk' at my left...

The next day, we went JOGOYA~~^^

the more time i consumed JOGOYA, the more i feel it's ordinariness. It is like nothing special as compared to first time and previous time. Feel like it becums smaller.


u know wat,thisis the first photo i took in JOGOYA...haha, shinshin's typical pose~

buahahahahaha...just for fun....everyone is eating, enjoying~

Jason actually got a series of photos where he keeps eating without entertain or even give a sight to us when we keep taking his photo. XD

ERM~~~~yummy~~~ i like it the most. This time i taken 5 as compared to previous time, another 2 more ^^

Thermal egg??? erm, like it too~

i like sweetness, i like dessert. I HATED it when i was a child, duno since when i like it, but now i wont dun like it^^ as same with my deardear mauley~

forgotten Jimmy or Ah pang once asked why dun go for wine but coconut? This time we go for wine, but...is it long time didnt drink? i feel weirdness of it...

Rui and Shin took red wine, but i took white wine.

Although wine is better than coconut, but coconut cant absent of this banquet wat~banquet??sound too serious.....==

Can run off of RUDE CULTURE. Thx MIA, poluted everyone...

This is another reunion photo of us...the truth is we din take much photo...

This is our kissing culture, not only restricted in CLUB^^

The next day we went sing K~~

how funny Jason's face is....

haha

n i asked T-sue along too^

this gal has an excellent voice~~ Deardear said it too.

WE ARE----hard rock player?

'Don't fuck with us, we play hard"

Get lost or Fuck-ed up!

And i discover something funny.......after i scroll over the photos i had taken...

below.....expresison was almost the same >.<

after the K day, is ald sunday....
AND..i did sumting XXX le~ we bought lottery at TOTO, but we duno it is 6digits, we tot it is 7 digits, but the counter indian gal sibeh guai lan! the way she looked us, the way she told us, the way she throw the bill and balance to us....wtf...i juz cant take it.

after jason took the bill.....

Me: apa nama?

Her: Kenapa?

Me: tak...nak tau u punya nama saja....

Her: kenap? (but her face ald turn green....and showed her anxiety)

the girl beside her ask, why

Me: her attitude very very bad.

then she started explain to thegirl beside

the girl said: she is new worker....wo.....ceh..

actually i just wan to scare her la....so i just leave after it, buti know sure the curse me behind.

so wat!?

那年那天

怎么有芒果香？原來有位老伯伯在用竹竿採芒果。那竹竿的那头钉着一个milo铁罐，被採的芒果就这样跌进罐子去。





思绪飘到那年那天。。。





门口那棵大芒果树还在，我和他总是期待着那芒果几时熟？即使可以採？





又想起两个贪吃鬼，偷跑到隔壁街去偷採别家芒果。。。结果芒果吃了，也随之送来‘藤条焖猪肉’






面前有两个小孩在跑。想起那天的傍晚，一放学回家，他拿起球拍就往外跑。那条斜坡，我追也追不上。






两个小家伙在家没事做，就交换衣服穿。看着他穿上我的女装白底粉红樱花的日本kimono，我穿上他的宝蓝底龙纹kimono，我忘了我穿成如何，却记得他像一个剃了光头的肥妞，站在床上傻笑





早上要去补习了。他还躺在床上熟睡着，当然，他都不需要参加哪个PTS额外补习班~~看着他熟睡的可爱脸蛋，忍不住，亲了他一下，才抱着那书包出门。。。






‘你不帮我做功课，我就发誓！你会被妈咪打’小孩就是小孩，以为发誓是种咒语 ==







‘打我啦~ 啦啦啦啦啦啦~~~~’他拿起椅子，就向那肥妹扳过去。结果换来的是那肥妹父母上门投诉，和一顿毒打。







在佛堂里的少年班，阿姨们叫我们，用各自的名字画成一幅画---我那时的名字：胡媚媛。我彩上天蓝色作底色。至于我的名字是如何画上去就没印象了。他：胡景豪， 胡，他把古和月分开，古它化作一个坟墓，月，我忘了。。。 景，我也忘了；豪，他把它化作一个僵尸，上面的部分是僵尸的帽子，下面类似家的笔画。他把它化作僵尸伸直双干手跳动，右边的一撇一捺，使将士帽子的羽毛。在场的大人都说他有别于一般小孩的想象力。那时，我们是10-11岁。他已经是大家眼中的坏孩子，因为他不做功课，有一个会读书但不会照顾弟弟的失败姐姐，在姐姐的比较之下，他显得特别懒惰。。。







学业上的分别，没有分隔我们的感情。两人都在缺少某些因素的家庭长大，都爱自由。他最爱骑着脚踏车，一到外婆家就往外跑，直5-6 点才回去吃饭。一次我要求他带我去，我们一起踏角他车，去到不懂多少里以外的芭场。他说他平时就是喜欢来这里看白云，看沙石。







我一直都知道，我弟弟是比较特别。。。。。。难教







到我们发生冲突，在家里祖先面前，他打了我一掌，把我推倒在地上。。。我发誓，我不认这弟弟。。。









时过境迁，当时的我是幼稚。






最近好怕接到家里电话。。。





尤其是他的电话。最后这次，最后这一千。我想帮也无能为力了。。。





刚才接了妈的电话后，冲凉时多想释放锁在眼球的压力，却发现，在这时候我忘了怎么哭。。。





我。 累了。真的累了。可不可以让我自己一个，就独自一个承担自己的一切，不需要你们，同样的，你们也不要给我问题。就一个交换，好吗？





明明不是我惹的祸，不是我的问题，怎么变成了我的问题？为什么我就这样被牵涉了？





数个月前，我知道我可以过得很好，前提就是：必须在我没有别的担忧负担。


我绝对可以一个人生活，过着不错的生活。


就请高抬贵手，还我站起来的勇气跟坚强，好吗？