A dinner and a touched moment

this is my first time cooking in England. It is not because i don't know, but i don't want.

i cooked alot back in my house, bored of it, somemore it's been few years staying outside, i really really...use to "cincai" eat ald.

of cause i didn't cook all, juz one of it is prepared by me. i just clear here clean there, cut this minced that, and tried this ate that... =p
Hai-Nan chicken

Sze-chuan chai

bean sprout

onion egg

mix vege

minced pork with egg

chili with lemon????

fried rice

full- table......

this is my 4th or 5th time eat rice. i mean "RICE"

what i eat usually?

milk+ cookies

bread

potato

choco

vege

mee......just like that

San took her speaker play music when 7 of us (6 in out house+jason) having rich dinner

Serene suddenly mentioned first day we left Malaysia, carrying heavy luggage

feeling of that day leaving was filled my thought.

everyone said they feel to cry, some said they cried.

i was keep quiet, look like i didn't feel to cry.

tell u. i did.

suddenly, two of us cried... they said time pass very fast........

ya... i feel so.

3 months. things changed. style changed. everything changed.

soon, i'll be back to Malaysia. that is a new journey of my life. How will it look like? roughly i have a picture. Of cause i do hope to get a better future as everyone does.

' Don't ever lose lose faith in your own confidence'

someone said this to me when i was down.

hope this works to everyone, not only me.

For all my watevermates, good luck.

now. i cant open my eye. it is like a line.

finally i know what is human is not machine; human is not iron...

this is again, one night i sat infront lappie continuous since wake up, ops....15 hours.

troughout these months, how many days i could really have a good sleep? no i think...

tonnes of taskssssss, in and out, study and personal, past and future...

fine..my brain cant work anymore. could you stop a while, rest a while?

T.T cant. i've no time.

can you stop a while to re-construct your brain?

T.T. sorry, cant. i've no time.

how much i hope i can go back to this moment. when my uncle put me on his shoulder.

T.T. cant. time cant reverse.

If i can like him. devoted to things he loves.

T.T. cant. i hate what im doing now. no more paper work.

no more critical thinking, stupid.

hair getting thinner and thinner because think too much.

I'm like them? stand at border.

support ? babe another end of the sky.

encouragement on the wall.

40-steps-away Doraemon.

badge below there is a reverse energy.

when the day i have time to sit on this field again, is the time i left here.

B.y.e

clear or blur, who cares?

又天亮了

還不睡？

再見。

fall in the morning. 4 in the morning.

good morning. good nite. sweet dream.

new goal, but don't know when it can be executed...

Baby boy

永遠永遠手牽手

一步兩步一起走

永遠永遠要記得

我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候

不管下雨的時候

不放開手到永久

我們要一起生活

oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long, Just tryin find my way back home, The old me's dead and gone, Dead and Gone, oooh,I've been travelin on this road too long, Just tryin find my way back home, The old me's dead and gone, Dead and Gone

我就是这样 天马行空的磁场

或许你还不习惯 我在等你变成拍档

我就是这样 注定和你不一样

谢谢你欣不欣赏 我的风格是限量

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I really miss those moments

although it was tiring

although it is really pek cek when facing negro

although it is boring

at least, it hels to kill alot freetime

now......

aiks....

seems.................time to look for a new one

everytime when listen the super classic ringtone "ring ring...ring ring...", it doesn't make me have a feel to answer the call...

p/s:I want a new phone! Those are my ringtones few months back =p

Just a thought,ok?

miss you-dearest

"We go taiwan for our trip".

im proud to tell my fren im goin to go Taiwan, and going to save an amount of money to go

plan changed.

I was told not to go Taiwan.

"I wana to Gui-ling"

haa....not really feel to go those places le....

then, I back to Kl for my study

a very long time din't go back home, even when i back in Ipoh, you are not there.

my room, become my onli space, last time you were sleeping beside me, we talk something bad of my mum, talk something of my ambition, you give opinion on my thought.

sorry to say, sometimes your thought is a bit kolot la....

how can i accept "just to be like that"?

now, no more...you dint sleep with me.

I afraid, we have not much chance to sleep together

I'm nearly crazy, brain overloaded, stressed out like duno wat.

suddenly, you face come to my mind.

I miss You

so i called you

it is expected i've to repeat on what i said, 1- signal problem, 2- you are in a noisy market, 3- you cant really hear...

"end of the year im goin to Taiwan with my frens"

"Taiwan is not interesting one..many of my frens came back and regret of going there..."

"we are young people, we can enjoy there"

"trust me, it isn't fun...i was just discussed with Tein-tein gu-gu, she is interested to go HongKong, we go HongKong la..."

"erm...." (im thinking my budget)

"I wanna have a trip when im still able to do that. Few more years later i duno if i still can walk, now i always feel pain on my leg"

Im stunt a while.....how if popo cant walk anymore? even i have bundles of cash like Kenneth, i cant have a trip wit her.

"ok then, you ask gugu when she wans to go, i'll be going too"

Actually it is really take almost all of my saving if i go both place, and i might not to go SG to find my dream that soon. What's more important?

"you can find money anytime, but time flies never 'rewind' ", "especially when you miss a chance to be together with someone you love, deep from you heart", "you gonna regret the rest of you life"

so, i'd rather to delay of pursuing my dream and what i want for temporary, if the chance and thing determined to be mine, it is mine. It is just two months to be delayed, if like that the chance will go away too, fine, it is not mine.

I miss you, too.

popo, miss you so much.
im still remember the first time i meet you in KL, in my study life
Im gonna take more pictures with you
you are always cute like a kid.
I'm always love to lean on you shoulder
but you lean on the sofa....
popo, i love you, i miss you.

Renaissance

Yea...i do

should not let people worry.

see when is the next obstacle?

Im ready, but not now, please.

Forced to...

yesterday, i was speechless

looked like nothing huh?

indeed, i don't know what i can do.

the baby...is a down syndrome baby

i saw many parents were carrying the baby, something wrong with the baby

like mine, down symdrome...i think nothing worse than a dwon syndrome baby

i was waiting the doctor from 12- 3, he cheched for my baby

said things like , you should take care of it, not onli feed it, you have to change its pampers too.

"you have to look at both side of the coin"

after the consultation, and before the consultation, i've to force myself accept the fact of this is your baby, no matter you want it or not, it is your baby.

i've seen the worse, the mum was suspect stolen the baby from someone, but the fact is, she is not. "when your effort is suspected, is denied, you fall to abyss; when your effort is a good one but yet you are being suspected of that is not your effort, you fall to bottomless abyss."

this is a reality, this is a community, this is the fact, this is the rules, this is the regulation which I've no way to make a change on it.

ACCEPT, is the only thing i can do

ACCOMODATE TO IT, is the recommended thing i should do after accepted

ADOPT, is the only way i've to do after accept and accomodated.

在这个时候，任何声音都变得刺耳

任何时候，我都不敢抬头

任何时候，我都不敢有主见

任何时候，我只能接受

for YOU

Chef BiaNbian

add oil~

"Over prepare, then go with the flow; Believe in Miraclesssss"

OMG

sii fohh lorhh....

ngmm gew looi yoong tiam!!

nya zhak yet ngmm hohh yi yoong dek tai doh lo.

ngai dou ngmm di nga D looi yoong heong lai wooi, miin miin gai goh loi, gew gak? chi gah si chi gah di la, ngm hao yan yin hor yin.

siit le? porm night zhoong ngoi mai hai toong accessories tiam, hann giin yoong loh!

chin 350 pong for nya zhak yet siit yoong+ mai dong xi +Europe trip expenses, hann D yoong loh!

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ngai hao dam sim sin jit wo....choong loi dou mao lam gohh sin jit hiao cha goh yim hohh yit zhak tong ngai chu geh pen yew, gin hah liang o! sin jit zhui cha hea ngai....mao toong ngai gong sin jit mao seong gon, ngai ngmm hea chin chin cai cai geh yin loh, nga mak bong ngai pok john D looi loi, dou hea seong nga chien tuu hao D, gin har ngai hao chee sai hoi gia sim gee, mummy, dui ngmm chu...

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zhoong yew, ngai hao seong gii....

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Mian-Zhi will be the only one can decode this message.......

I do, do you?

This is a mail i received 5 days ago, but today only i have sometime to read through it.

The lessons below, i knew it very long time ago, but seldom to practise it.

4th lesson i ald not doing it very long time, sorry frens, and my family.

7th...i'll try

10th, absolutely, im fancy choco, especially dark choco.

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion,
Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone and everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give it time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

I love the first quote, life isn't fair, but it's still good.

I can think, i have my thought, my have heart to love and to be loved, i have freedom to choose, i have everything that everyone should has, what for compare whose better? Everyone has, fair.

I'd like to give this to someone who ready for an important competition

"Over prepare, then go with the flow; Believe in Miraclesssss"

peaceful minded? Hope u do.