random facts of me.

Everyone seems to update their blog less frequently since they have started work; assume I might joined their club after 5th Jan, I think I should just update more than I could do at months later. I ain't have much feeling or inspiration towards one particular thing, nor have a particular topic to start on, so... let's talk crap.

I've been sick for days, more than one week. Recover before Taiwan trip, I must. (Yoda)
Hey, do you know JEDI (from Star Wars) is a religion in UK? yea dude, it is... a lecturer told him, and he told us in his friend's small small gathering--his friend come back from Australia. HELLO, Joel, a korean-looking guy (very leng zai!); and him? Weixiang des....

I'm quite fortune to have friends like them. Gang A Gang B and Gang C.
I'm looking back at those photos of others took in Liverpool, I'm regret why didn't I take as much as them? My thought was cool : come on...it is just a street. I'm here for experience and memory, not for getting a fact to prove: "Hey, I've been UK, cool huh?"; but I overlooked the importance of photos, it is not merely prove where you've been, depends on how a photo was took. Raised your hand up 45 degree high and 'chik-chak' definitely is vain, which I rarely do; but a photo with different angles of a street, building, ornament, statue...helps to refresh your memory. Look back at my thought months ago, seems I reacted over-cool of attitude of taking photos non-stop. (I'm quite sick of people taking photos blindly, even a fallen leave was captured in the lens; I think my thought is evolving, photography has started to mean more to me)

Clumsy sometimes is my name, precisely, it is always my name. This clumsy lady just had her lunch downstairs and guess what, I'm not only bring a stomach filled with Roti bakar, half boiled egg, and milo back, also bring a scar of 2 inches long x 1cm width on my right tight. FOOK U! it is painful!

It bleeds straight after scratched by the bamboo chopstick. (why bamboo chopstick? ask the restaurant owner la, why put a half-broken bamboo chopstick instead of steel made bolt)

Another random fact of me: I'm quite blur. XD

the thing is this, Weixiang and me bumped into his friend- Kaixiang when we were on the way to Mid Valley, guys had some talks....then just now Kaixiang left a msg in Weixiang's fb, "asked ur gf quite blur one izi? ytd i intro myself to him but she never intro back"

Er....."Hi, I'm Mia. Nice to meet you" . Do it now, shouldn't be too late =p

No deny, I'm quite blur sometime.

and lazy worms is mass producing in my body. Everyday say I'm lazy, I must. (Yoda)

and the fact now is: I'm boring.

I guess i have a lot things to talk, but my mind gone blank now.

Recap the statement above : "so... let's talk crap. " remember? the first para.

The whole entry is about myself only, so I'm the crap. XD

ok la, not funny.......

(to be cont...)

Don't...lose....faith...

looking at friends around, almost all have gotten quite good offer, sounds like i didn't have one? Nah...i got an offer  and will be starting to work 2 days after Taiwan trip, "huh, so rush arh?" yea, i know. So, the job is like this
- do own research
- cold calling 
- Uncountable rejections
this is what i know, in order to have a better understanding of it; Google helped me a lot ^.< 
Internet is a public place(gosh, i always pronounce it pub-bic space ><), its ex-employers shared their comment in forums, 9 out of 10 were negative. =.=


Battle started, the masculine one said have a try and i don't think you can't; the feminine one worried about this and that. Not even start work, I'm already thinking so much. I was so desperate to get this job as the commission package is so so so attractive, and i bet not much companies could offer this. One thing for true and sure: sales, is the more effort you put, the more you can get; however in certain situation, it becomes partially true because it does not merely depend on how much effort you put but how well you can handle. (leave a space of imagination why i'd say this, the answer will be revealed soon) 


In the forums, there were successful and failed examples, failed examples contributed a large number of the total participants. From what i know from forums about the company: it is a non-stop smoking environment(yer.....i want to quit), unhelpful colleagues, and M.O.R.E
But everyone has confidence in me, you know what....? Battle start again. 


"Everyone has confidence in you, you can't lose one; Don't ever lose faith to yourself, if you don't have one, I've in you" 

VS 

"but i can't speak well....they need excellent Eng speaking....I'm bad in doing research...."


A voice raised: what encouraged you from wanting to get it so desperate? What you promised to yourself?
Now only i know how suffering one is caught in uncertainty. I'm so stingy to support myself. 


Arghh...time to read some books again!
Remember ? "And the secret is: be positive"

If people can stay there and climb up to corporate ladder, why can't I?
And do you realize what is the problem, i mean, what cause me lack of confidence? 
speaking....and English...I don't scare of speaking, honestly. So what cause me lack of confidence is speaking in English. 


Most of my friends agreed,  I don't speak terrible English, it shouldn't be categorized as bad, there are even worse out there. Maybe I'm expecting good work from myself?  "you won't be the best but won't be the worst either" 
Why am i so afraid of speaking? nabeh...


ohya...congratz to my panda for getting what he wants. 
"you wont be the best, but you are always part of the best" 
Cheers~ ^^ 

Down-to-earth

Inhale...Exhale...Inhale....Exhale....repeat, poker face still remained as if nothing happened.

"Oh, the world is wonderful, I'm grateful~~~" Bullshit! I know I'm not, just want to calm down the intense flaming dual-personality of a Gemini.

A balance, is what I'm looking for all this while; I dreamt to have unlimited wealth, that was in the past. Now, being idealistic and realistic has to have a distinct difference.

unlimited wealth- Idealistic

allow me to not justify how realistic one should be, perhaps you could judge if I'm one when you scrolled down to the end of the post?

Well, I'm grateful, lucky my bro wasn't meant to study and pursuit education like i did, else I'll lose the chance to study."you should know what is more important." mum told me this when I stated the presumption. She supports me to UK, and yet she always has a negative input. I wonder one day if I might be stricken by lightning

*shrug*.

what happened was, i called her and tell her my latest plan; I'll never deny I'm a career minded female, just that she doesn't realize. She suggested I be a waitress or any part-timer like her era did(come on, DID is past tense), thank god she is Gen-X; could you spot any differences on their career of a part-time agent and part-timer in Metrojaya/restaurant?

Sorry,  I don't mean to be arrogant, but could you give up your own pride as a Uni grad，and to be "HI, MAY-I-HELP-YOU-machine" in supermarket or restaurant? I'm just clearly, or in fact, absofarkinglutely recognize a fact of us being in a different century. I regret I spoke in a rude way in the call, who can control so well when her/his mum discourage again and again? I told her: I've been staying miles away from home, what I involved outside, you wouldn't know if i didn't tell; i choose to tell you because i don't want you to worry (in fact, i just need encouragement, is that too much?), and sorry, i made you worry, again.

I'm naive- I don't know darkness of the society; I'm useless- else i could have started work; I'm stupid- need to sit in exam for times just for the sake of getting a PASS. All, are her perceptions of me.

I'm naive because I still believe kind-men is not extinct yet; i'm useless is because i hope to be encouraged as i know being in a battle alone is a tough job; I'm stupid because I believe kind-men. All the above mentioned are optional for me, I'm still holding the authority to allow myself to be or not to be.

"you don't dream so much, get a job to work first, gain experiences first, be a down-to-earth person...."

arghh!!! when communication system break down, every message brought out is meaningless; when one does not agree with you, whatever you say is bullshit. Of course you could persuade or convince the one, how if the one keeps countering your points by living experience? She knows a lot of friends, what she experienced are absolutely more than what I've gone through so far, sometimes listening to her words are all right, but not words like: "my friend was one of them too, but now he chose not to be; my friend also say why you skewed to a bramble? Be a down-to-earth person, teens nowadays are always dreaming big". Too much, until i'm too tired to recall. You say sly people are everywhere, society changing rapidly, can you imagine if I adopt the ancient approach of so called: "down-to-earth"?

 down-to-earth? how not down-to-earth am I? I'm counting on illegal business or lottery?

I think there should be a new definition for "down-to-earth" particularly for Gen-Y....

what's wrong with wanting to build a career with a different path way? as long as not over-devoted, things should be all right, isn't it? I know the facts, i look further in my life, I'm planning ahead, is it wrong?

Down-to-earth person, no offence but this is what's crossing my mind now. Down-to-earth means being satisfied with current life, but  have no further plans to safeguard if any shit happen one day.

So, am I an idealist or a realist?

Full stop. Beginning.. .

I'm strongly against the conservative notions of horoscope as if there are only 12 kinds of people in the world; however if there is one notion i must admit, I'd say: Gemini has dual-personalities.

Seriously, I'm sorry to all my frosty looks, icy responses; one thing always crosses my mind, and I ponder it quite often, am I too mean to you? You know i felt so. I'm also sorry of rarely utter the three words, but i did to others easily, not even think before say, my friends, my cousins, my nephews, to say it is not hard,  but it is hard when i say to you.

Phobia? mental block?

After the reckless action of putting all eggs into his basket, what left was the hurtful spirit and sinked confidence, when i felt no one could neither understand nor helped, you gave me a hand that secure and comfortable to hold with. Nonetheless, I couldn't as extrovert as last time, I'm stingy to say the three words after the wallop. You taught me, corrected me, lead me; yes, there are something i don't agree with the way of how you dealing with matters, we can over come it, can't we?

When you were with me, I don't feel to talk much, or merely nod, especially when it is an open place with existence of others; after you left, feel of missing you raised. I hate the self-defence mechanism...

"whatever time spent with you is the best time."

this is what i want to tell you, too.

The three words, you know i do.

Thanks for always there for me.

~I LOVE YOU 

Scandal - behave like a real man.

So, what comes to your mind of "SCANDAL"?

Edison? maybe, it is a pronoun of it, but would your interest focused on how thick how long is he when you scrolling down the obscenity pictures?

"she is flat"

"omfg! she is bitch!"

"OMG! I can never accept she would take this kind of pictures"

"Fucker! how great he could have F***ed so many girls"

"$&&%^, not too satisfying, those bitches give priority to his face before have a glimpse of his cock"

" he is jerk, how could he do this to them; they are stupid! why do they let him take all this kinda pictures...?"

See, above are summaries of what I heard in the discussion of the scandal. None of it, stand on the girls' side, the most mercy one was rebuked the guy first, then turned the bazooka to the girls... Pity to those victims. 

Female, took whatever blames as if they deserved it; yes, they were blinded at the moment, indeed, they were stupid when they allowed him to take such pictures, however who should be blamed? The one who nodded to take or the one who took the initiative of preparing equipments, put the camera for the sake of right angle to amplify the most private part of those 'stupid' girls? Worse, camera focus on the girls' face and action when he was enjoying the service of heat, moistures and massage on his god damn cock! 

Female are always the one to be blamed in the cases, could anyone put themselves on the naked girls' shoes? 

I just watched back an interview of Gillian Chung, whom condemned by public after the scandal. 

she said :' I'm silly, I'm naive" a statement that filled with guilty, self-condemn, regret, will to bear consequences before Edison- whom should face public before the victims- took action, was not accepted by public. 

Everyone was saying she was fake.  Why couldn't we showed support with silence? stop releasing arrows on her.  Too late to shout this out, after almost 2 years of the scandal. 

Personally, I'm really impressed with her courage of standing out to face the strike. A normal girl, if same thing happened on her, i think most probably she might wants to end her life before the call; from one perspective, Gill is a normal girl, from another perspective, she is a public person. A normal girl can walk on the street, still, without too many people knowing her, Gill? I think she rather stayed in room even her nature calls rang, when she was in a public function. 

As a female, i just have sympathize her. 

What's most ridiculous was: "i can't believe she would had sex" 

=.=

come on!  she was 23++ when she took pictures, 23++ years old adult shouldn't have sex, whose privilege to have one? 

Back to the topic, I've some friends took pictures like this, 9 out of 10 was half forced, one third of the 9 was took without their consent! who should be blamed then? 

"Girls should protect themselves......know a guy in depth before go with them...." bla bla bla...

What era now? technological advanced age, illness of society take it of leave it la. Even decades ago, female at that age not even know how their husband looked like before had sex! 

Guys like him, control your precious before take action. Cock doesn't think but brain does, don't let the joystick take over your brain. If it does, behave like a real man; not a man by name.