No Move Back

-Convert 12,500 USD to RM, how much it is?

-They said wanted to hire you, but you don't speak fluent English. 

-“I just said once NO”; my face gone red.

Every little thing happened around reminds me I'm dealing with work."You have no one to rely on" My mum said

Finally, it is the end of study life which i committed for 17years. GOSH, I've studied for 17 years, for God's sake. "how many 10 years in one's life?" quoted from Cai-gou (Rosy Business巾帼枭雄）Just because of the education system in Malaysia, my past life was shaped by study-school-study-college, studying actually took quarter of my life if I have 68 years old life, it is not easy to shift a habit which instilled for years...and now, it is time to change. First step for the changing, get a job first. 

I think i'm optimistic enough to face the problems of job hunting, so I told people good job can be found for sure, but depends how long you gonna spend in the process of hunting one. But i'm getting worry lately, one of the reasons of cause derived from mum. Calls are quite frequent recently. "How? What you doing now? Found a job yet？Did you call to Ah Beng's brother's fren's colleague, ask him to open a door for you to work in XXX la!" Hello, the colleague whom is a friend of Ah Beng's brother,  how do you address yourself when you call him?

"Hi, i'm XXX, my mum is Ah Beng's brother's friends...bla bla bla...." can you tell how complicated the connection is? Well, this is just part of the problems. 

Interview session, everything runs smooth, but still no news days after it. In the end I got to know they crab at my verbal skill...

Another interview session, things happened as above, everything runs smooth. She said will be calling me either today or tomorrow (either 25 or 26), but till now, no calls. SAD. I should have known what caused the failure...Who is always wanted to have my complexion, say it looks rosy even not applying blusher? Tell you, get it if you want and I could. This ‘adorable’ complexion betrayed, and trapped me—to tell people I’m nervous even If I’m or I’m not.

            Honestly, when seeing people around getting jobs with good offers, how could I not afraid of it? Life still goes one huh? Welcome to reality then…

p/s: tough time never last but tough me do; I’m still holding this spirit, and it will be holding on me for the rest of my life. I don’t feel to give the battle…because if I give, i’ll be in miserable life. The environment is crucial to shape your personality; Me- Mia, is willing to take up the challenge. Even it is a big amount, 12,500 USD. If positive thought could make things, I hope the magnetic field of my positivity connected with the authority. You know what I want.

I"m ok?

It's been years studying communication,we were taught to recognize the fact of interpersonal communication is ambiguity; due to individual's perception and of cause it is very based on every elements consists in the communication process. A sentence, a word, a question, an answer always being interpreted differently; interpretation is based on the setting of the conversation's environment, communicators' cultural background, educational background and most importantly, the meaning of the "words" being used. 


Imagine, if a service crew asked: " Coffee?", she is asking if the guest wants one; 
and the gentleman said: " I'm ok".


o.0


what does it means by the  "I'M OKIE"
I'm ok with the offer; or I'm ok, leave me alone, i don't need one? 


A simple conversation diverse meanings. So what should the service crew reacts towards the answer? 
the best is, double confirm what does the OKIE means. 
"i bet you do understand English,don't you?" 
................


Marvelous...Fantastic...
This is why sometimes conflicts happen, when you doubt with the answer, recommended to find out what does the answer means ; however asking might lead to killing reply. What an ironic situation and yet this ironical scenes are always playing everywhere, over and over~


 Congratulations. 
any way to avoid? 

The Secret.

 secRet is: be positive, positive thought makes things. 

How great one's thought could change things? I've heard a piece of infor which i'm not quite sure the credibility.
Said it was an experiment did on a prisoner, or prisoners, purpose was to identify how great  one's mentality was. Prisoner's eye was covered by cloth, wrist was slightly cut, tap was turned on and the prisoner was told: this is the sound from you bleeding wrist, the blood is flooded on the floor.....in the end, the prisoner dead.

The truth is, the cut on wrist was not enough to cause bleeding as the tap did, and also not enough to cause one dying of bleeding. What made the death, actually was the thought of the prisoner... Have you heard a story of a mother carry a car when her child was under the car? how could a woman carry a car which weight few times of hers? Thought, i bet. No, i convince.

Men's life can always be ruined by their thought. family tragedies happened always because of husbands/ wives gone mad based on certain reasons; people suicide always happened when they think negatively. I told my colleague when i was 17, "happy or sad, you are given 24 hours perday; to make it yours or make it sad, you decide." why not make the day yours?

I'm encouraging myself, if one day i lose my courage, i wish i know the direction to trace back this post. If I don't,please show me.

And the secret is: be positive and process positive thought.

preface of 2012; 18112009

The prophecy of end of the world is always spreading around. There were few times saying the end is coming, but i'm here blogging means it never comes. Until weeks before 2012 is on screen, i got to know such prophecy again; yesterday, i watched this movie, an apocalyptic movie which presents a lot scenes of how our Mother Earth is destroyed. Storm, is one of it...

then today's afternoon, i was sitting in the living room. Weather changed suddenly, and raining heavily. Perhaps it should be a word to describe how terrible the rain was...I can only say the rain was heavy until sight very bad, trees collapse, bikes and even hawker stall all collapsed; a kid was blew by the strong wind.  I feel like it was a symptom of end of the world. Beside, water leaking into my room, my mattress got wet because of it... I think, if one day earth quake happen in Malaysia, a building like i'm staying sure going to collapse, and me? haha... can you tell the crisis?

broken branches, collapsed bike and hawker stall

broken and fallen branches

see the bike....

see all photos above...

how if the end of the world is really coming?

well....

it ain't a problem we should worry, because it comes when it comes, with small strength of a human being, do you think you have the ability to change it?

I just hope, if it does come, hit me and let me die straight.

Things about me, happened about me.

I'm back. There is a difference with now and few months back, amount of post is what im referring to.

• Job hunting. I've been keep sending in resumes, keep going for interview. However, none suit me. Waiting for Refinery studio in Sg, Genting, and Public Bank. They said: work for living, not work for money; for me, they are same. 
• First time ate giant prawn. Let me describe how big it was...look at your palm, yes, as that big. it was cooked and bended, can you imagine? and the meat is half finger thick..
• Stayed in luxury hotel. Highland Hotel.
• watching people in and out of the door in casino, saw an uncle uncle holding RM100 note with 4-5 inches thick, don't tell me there is not worth fewty thousand. 
• Addicted to western food, i think this is side effect of being there. or this is hinting how much i miss there? ^.<
• Doubtful. Convincing myself. and I'm really trying hard.
• Mental blocked. and I'm really trying hard, too. 
• Adventure in the mid night. Venue:  Genting Theme Park, haunted house. That was a great experience, trust me. XD
• drama soup boiling. '宫心计”
• Listened to someone, maybe should pass at least part of heart to God?

I'm blanked. due to inefficient sleep this 2 days.

I've had unpleasant experiences.

What is going to happen when a vehicle is burned? Explosion…

  The accident traced back to 30 minutes (8.35p.m, 9^th Nov) before I blog this post. Make it clear, the vehicle is not exploded but burned, so I’m alright. I was reading articles with my baby, why did I read an article? Because I miss UK very much…

  I smelled the burned smell even before I start my baby, the coach was smog bound. Not surprisingly, I was steady as nothing happen. I knew something happened to the train, but what I was thinking was, what can I do other than rushing out from the train? If touch-wood anything happen. I’m a person like this, looked like don’t care of things around, that’s why people care of me, always scold me about this. Xiang, Cheng, Yiheng…ok, all guys…fine, back to the topic. It is really dangerous, if anything happen, if the train exploded, I’ll be not able to update this blog FOREVER, nor you guys see my smile, listen to my laughing, FOREVER.

  The train stopped at middle of nowhere, and I was urged by the nature call; almost all passengers went down, but I was still reading the articles. A passenger came up, shook head, and said: I think the train is on fire , And I listened the staffs said don’t know what “bakar”… no wonder the burned smell happened so badly, I was not confused of the smog , but I was besotted of noticing all those thing but never react to self-rescue. If a smart one noticed something wrong with the train, possible of the one still continue what she was doing as if nothing happen? I should be more alerted of things around, I mean it.

  

  The train stopped about 35 minutes, only continue the journey, it was almost reaching the destination. What makes people dissatisfied was, the staffs never make announcement, at east, inform passengers what happen, I saw many old folks rush here and there, keep calling, the service deserve to be blamed of making everyone frighten out. Who I called? Daddy. If not my jumbo’s message asked me call him back with : ARE YOU OK? CALL ME BACK!, I won’t made a call. The “!” is really a powerful mark, and sorry of making you worry>< promise I’ll take a good care of myself.

What to do for a girl like me when I want to go back Ipoh? 

  Take bus is always dangerous, I thought KTM is much better but who knows, it happened thing like this. Seems, I should have a car, and I promise myself, I will, and soon…

                                                     

it comes when it comes.

The truth was known；I was ready. When it comes to face the problem, somehow fear arises.

I just doubt can i cope with the weakness of mine. I've been trained to do that for years, which level i'm in, the picture of that is clearer than everyone's perceived。

 I've the habit of blogging equals to process good witting skill? put it in this way, I've have the ability to visualize words to picture, might have the ability to put minds in words, however, the words is 'words' that i know only, maybe who close with me will know it, not everyone close with me what. Every of my group mates know i hate paper work, but this "executive" is expected to have good command in writing skill...and was told, CC, forward is damn important there, what represent one before the one is presented physically, writing skill come first. faint...well, i truly know i have certain level of creativity, certain level of writing skill if brush up a little bit, for internally it is useful, but when it comes to a competitive field, like Media. i know my posts are always thrown as trash. but when i think of the rest can get a job and be the same position there, i cant find myself a reason to be frighten of. maybe, posts followed will be in a formal way, F words, imply, hint might be used lesser....

那时那日的美雅，再也看不到了。

T.I.E.

take it easy.

tiring trip, but funny! blow what?

Oct is a busy yet boring month, why? Whole month I’m only doing travelling—which is busy one, or staying in Ipoh’s house, or staying in T-sue-Babe’s house—this is boring. Let me jot down where I’ve done in this month…

-5^th back to Kl, for fitting, 7^th got a job.

-Mid of Oct went back Ipoh with Xiang.

-17^th flew to S.G…

-23^rd went Genting

-26^th celebrate San Princess’ birthday

-27-29^th ---PANGKOR TRIP

Although this is not as “budget” as we planned, but it is still a fun one. After this trip I really have a feel of…GOOD BYE~ don’t know why? Perhaps everyone should keep their ‘have-fun’ mood and look for a job seriously? ><

Anyway, this should be a happy entry~~ total we had 12 person, look at the pictures uploaded ^^

Photos were took when we on the way for “snorkeling”,not diving, but we got to see how under the sea looked. My first jump was a failure because my life jacket was a little bit too loose, hence it was like not enough to support my weight (what I felt), and thus, I drank a lot of seawater. Pangkor’s seawater is salty like &%%#*$&, nearly tasted bitter! And I was wearing contact lens; it was suffering when it came into eyes! We had our ‘gei-fan’- chicken rice on one of the island, although I’m not into ‘gei-fan’, I mean if there’re others choices I will not chose to eat that, but under that situation do you dare to order roti bakar? After lunch, we had our diving, this was referring to plunge into water, not float on the sea to see under-sea view. I jumped twice, but both failed, last one was a pain one… see below…XD

 all of us failed! Babee was the funniest; see she was like standing on the sea.

Before we had lunch, actually tour guide- Ah Soon drove us to have a sightseeing of Pangkor Island. There are many rocks shaped into patterns or shapes, I can’t help myself to give a praise to the works of God. And he showed us sea cucumber, sea urchin, coral… 

After lunch, we had water game which not included in plan initially. This was where the journey of PAIN started…. Our first game was ‘Banana Boat’, we were thrown into water after sometime we sit on the boat. The first throw I never expect it would bring me a heavy strike! My chest bang on the fella in front of me; put the blame on my weight, please! Such “KG” plus the momentum effect, my rib was hurt. I can’t put how was the feeling in words, can’t take deep breath, can’t laugh loudly as usuall, can’t even do sit-up! and tell you a damn ‘dei-sei’ (serve to be laughed) thing… today I purposely bump into Gugu like caused in incautionly, but I forgot my rib! what happened was I pain until don’t know how, only keep saying ‘very pain, very pain’, and the rest were keep laughing only. (Haiz, this story tells don’t always act like a child…)

Ok, back to the water game, the second one was called Big maple, 4 persons in one game. In the half of the game I fell out of the plate and was towed in the water, lucky I managed to climb up to the plate or I will be towed until the game was finished. After this game I was exhausted, and my pants unbuttoned after the game, sadly I don’t even have extra energy to button it up! This was only second game; the last game was the toughest one! 2 people in a game, Jason and me paired together. Thanks dude! We keep encouraged each other did not loose our hand until the game ends. Waliao!!!! I didn’t shout in this game, no more energy! After the game was exhausted!!! See the photos below…

how was the first game until we looked exhausted. What a big contrast before and after played the water game. ><

After the game…I couldn’t fight with the call of sleeping, and I dated Mr Chow for one hour, I think….very soon, the next day was the day going back. About how was the trip when we going back, not much interesting but eating. I brought them to eat ‘Dai Shu Geok’, simply means under the big tree la, and ate tau-fu-fa which both are quite famous in Ipoh. After that, I was sitting inside my room, posting and arrange photos, and blogging until now. I’m in ipoh now…

Below are some photos…have a look =p

this is sea echinus

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