*yawn* *again* ==

Thoughts are going in and out of my mind. I have alot to blog about, alot of ideas, alot of issues to talk about. But i can't find a right mood to put them into words, neither I do want to complaint this and that, pronounce what I want and what I hate. Being transparent is not a good idea.

Thought of talk to someone? 

Feel like talking too much, every time talk about heavy topics, or topics which too early to think about, or topics that have no conclusion yet. 

Sometimes even I do think this might instill negative power to others. But i grew up in this environment. 

Blaming? 

too much can be blamed and yet, 99.9% of them are not supposed to be blamed. 

Sometimes I rather to have a simple brain, short sight (i mean,not to think too far). So I won't be planning so much for future. 

Sometimes I wish I don't expose to outside world so much, so I won't be looking further and higher. To be a frog at the bottom of a well isn't too bad, as long as you are satisfied, but one thing, make sure not expose to a little bit more than what a frog suppose to know, else that is another fucking hell.

So, you could tell this is not a constructive post. 

This is the hidden truth

Don't you agree that New Year should be a happy period? (Actually shouldn't only happy within New Year)

ok la, since New Year--especially Chinese New Year, is recognized as no negativeness, suppose to be absolute flawless- no argument, no sadness etc...
Too good to be true.
Arguments still happening, sadness still existing.

Why?
This is what happened to my neighbor, who stay just next to my house.
An old man, nearly 70, went to his farm as usual on a day before Chinese New Year, never come back home since then. Suspected, he was murdered in his OWN farm. Until now, his body is still missing. =/

This is what happened to my auntie.
Her new BMW 5 was stolen.
Ok la, not that new, 1 year old +.


This is what happened to the old auntie appeared on TV
Her son dead in an accident, left her a syndrome down grand-daughter
2 females survive with merely 80 bucks @person @ month, thanks to don't know which association by giving them a hand worth RM160 per month for 2 jobless female- to be more precise, both have no ability to work. I think the old auntie is middle 60? the grand daughter can't even walk, only lying on the bed and beat on her own head.

This is what happens everyday.
And this is the hidden truth

Ops. It happened again/ Braces

Before i start this post, I was thinking to blog about planning to do braces, did search some photos. Then, dad reached home. We had an informal chat, then talk about my work and salary.

He asked me what is my salary? I gave him a rough figure, enough. I don't like to reveal much about my financial situation, and I meant it. He wanted to know the exact amount, com'on...I don't feel comfortable to tell, why force me to tell? Before salary topic, he asked me why I couldn't made a deal in ME-my ex-company that only kept me for 2 weeks. Chill...this is my taboo.
 "huh? you stay 2 weeks only?"
 "huh? why can't even sell a thing?"
Hey, that's more than enough to spend 2 weeks to figure out that is not your company; and, I was not selling a thing. That is a service which meets clients' need, and the criteria for them (client) is to have sufficient modal to participate,it costs a lot, it is NOT CHEAP.I was once blaming and despised myself of not being longer there...
dad, I've tried really really hard you know. Chill...CNY is near the corner, i told myself.

Dad: "how much you earn?'
Me:  "around XXXX."
Dad:  "how much?"
Me:   "below XXXX"
Dad:   "how much? XXXX(which is the nearest figure, only 1 cent difference) EX: RM1999.99? (nearest to 2k)
Me: Don't want to tell. You thought I'm rich.
Dad: hmph....I knew it...I knew what you mean...(then he walked away)

Ops...

Me: "Daddy, sorry. I don't mean that" (repeat for times as if begging for forgiveness. From another perspective, I was.

Now.
Daddy went out. My fault of hurting his feeling. But dad, don't force me if I don't feel like saying. I'm having big head to settle my financial problem, and planning further.

Last year I had argument with my mum once I reached home; this year I had communication problems with dad. Arghh. Enough! Stop it.
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anyway, I'm still going to upload some braces photos, imagine if I put it on my teeth...(to be cont)

Differences of different braces. 

Well, damon braces is cool, and expensive for sure.

Traditional one, different colours? yupe, that is the selling point of it, to conceal the ugliness of wearing steel. 

(cont: imagine if it is put on my teeth?)

This is much more better, Ceramic braces. I have a thought of putting this.

(cont: Imagine if I put this on my teeth?)

don't you want to wallop me? 

haha

This is my resolution for year 2009 at end of year 2008, but It hasn't done yet, until now. Hopefully, It can be done latest by next year, beginning of year 2011...

Talent. Interest. Culinary.

The first recipe I read, was in my grandmum's house, my mum always forced my bro and me to stay there for nights. At night, there was no tape player(at my age of 7-9, VCD player was not popular yet, DVD was not launched yet), so i tend to read. There were 2 books I've read again and again, one is guidebook for pregnant women ( the scene is still clear where I saw private part of female in the book, showing how the part looks like when giving birth to a baby; I hold the book and chased the others kids--because they feel embarrass to see that? =p), another one is cooking recipe.

The first recipe that tempt me so much was a "tong shui" (oriental dessert) made by papaya, I don't think it is hard to do; in the following years, I'm still keep an eye on any recipes, until now ^^ Actually I cook not bad*(i think), my soup and dumpling successfully gained good comments from my ex, and ex's friends. =p
Frankly, I rarely cook in the 2 years, don't know if cooking skill gone rusty =/

This few weeks, I look back to recipes again, and I have a strong feeling of cooking. Bakery, western cuisine, oriental cuisine...Let's not waste anymore time on words, shift attention to visual~~ yummy.

you wont believe, this is moon-cake, content made by meat floss instead of lotus+york which damn sweetening and high cal . I have no idea why does it named moon cake?? 

I LOVE egg! This can be done within 2 minutes, but with help of a microwave, which I don't have. If I have one, this can be my breakfast everyday~ ^^ 

Cheesy baked rice, well~ It isn't hard to prepare. Simply cook rice with flavor ingredients like ham, beans, corn...lastly, top with cheese and bake a while, cheese melted and here you can enjoy cheesy rice^^ 

this is easy...XD

I never know cook choco is that easy, but of course practice makes perfect. What is that again? yea, moon cake again...surprise?choco moon cake fill with strawberry jam, content can be varied accordingly la, according to individual taste~muacks, I LURVVVVVVE it!

The author said she never tried macaroon, and this was her first time bake macaroon. Honestly, doesn't look like one lo. I ate, it is sooooo nice. I miss Paris and Italy. 

Orange mousse. Is an easy one too! I can remember how to make it. Digestive biscuit--which I ate too much in UK--make into pieces, add into melted butter, press to solid as its base....the middle part (mousse) i need to refer back to recipe la XD

I'll do this soon. haha.....

pretty right?

It is made by chiffon cake without needed apply cream, because I believe apply cream is a skill indeed, first or second time could not do it well, right? ^.<

So, finger biscuits were used to replace cream, then top with peeled oranges as deco. DONE. How lovely is it~~

I LURVVVVE EGG!! From the blogger, I found tons of recipes of making egg. Huat lahhhh~~

Trust me, pop corn is the easiest to be done, but there are criteria for corn. Only certain corn can be used. pour oil into cooker(i mean, cooker, rice cooker, haha), put corn inside~ thats easy =p

woahhhh...this is easy man....prepare rock candy, pumpkin and Tremella fuciformis(雪耳). Take out pumpkin fresh, put in water, rock candy and tremella fuciformis, steam until done, and it is done! 

This is as easy as the orange mousse ^^ procedures also same, this is a cheese cake, but don't need to bake.

Pumpkin cream soup. Forgot the exact way...><

I'll cook all that, and cook more~ but most importantly, I need cooking utilities. Just moved to a new house which don't equipped with cooking facilities. I want oven, I want microwave! I want scale to timbang amount needed for certain ingredient! 

interest, remain interest, is about money....haha

all equipments need money man~ 

This is/was my dream, to open own cafe, cook own food, If I don't capable to be in corporate world. Ideally, have the cafe when i retired from cirporate world...XD

p/s: I was trying to find the balsam pear-bitter melon's recipe. Panda doesn't eat bitter melon, if I could cook a bitter melon dish without taste of bitterness, he would eat. He said. 

Good night. 

Relek

Wonder how are freelance event girls busying at the backstage?

like that lo...

I'll always be the outgroup within the ingroup. 

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The next day after the freelance job, Maxis annual dinner usherette (this is my 3rd year involved in their annual dinner), I was going to attend an interview in IBM. (hence, i'm cracking my head to decide where to go)

I kept my stomach empty until the interview finished, and my first meal of the day, caused my thumb bleeding. 

The sharp stick went through the plastic bag, here my bleeding thumb presented! =.=!

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At night went Souled Out, to celebrate Cheemeng's birthday. 

here we go. 

This, apparently was a greedy lady grabbing others drink.

If any brand find a model like me to be their spokeperson or ambassador, I'm sure the brand is ready to lose their market share....

How souled out look like, inside.

here we have: Cheemeng, the star of the day and his girl friend, Chingsiew. 

Birthday star had to be decorated as a X mas tree, Cheemeng portraits it well.applause... XD

Serious man is a handsome man (2009) 

Serious man is a nice man (2010) 

So, nice doesn't mean handsome. So, above= ugly

Above not pretty, but not so ugly. 

The fact is, whoever worn this won't be looking good. 

The next day. 

We both know Valentine's day is fall on Chinese New Year, first day. 

We both know Valentine's day, Xmas, whatever festival is a good date to chop--consumer

We both have an agreement, in order not to be chopped, we schedule our celebration days before the festival. 

This is what I used to do- I know everyone's work is different, not everyone entitle to have public holiday as everyone else. So if you think I'm like lady A, B and C, then you are wrong. If you judge me like judge a book through cover, then you are wrong. If you think I'm like every lady like you assumed, then you are super super wrong. (talk cock....haha) 

The Garden, I know One Utama has a branch too. 

Feel like Full House. 

Description of it? not going to elaborate more. 

Visual is better than words. 

So, we were settled with

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Contrast of color tone didn't bring an extreme sweetness to your taste bud, in oppose,

it was mild and smooth,  getting you ready to have a sumptuous meal. 

Chocolate Ice Blended

This is sinful....

Thick taste of chocolate with well blended ice, I have to remind myself to stick to my diet plan. 

Apparently, I failed.

There are some options for dessert, Opera which made by layers of butter cream, chocolate and coffee cream indulged my id, like seducing me to put it into mouth. Imagine if combination of creams mentioned melted on tongue...*slap myself to stay conscious* 

too much and too heavy meals+beverages were ordered, go for a lighter one. 

Gree tea slice cake, absolutely fulfill the need. 

I'd say Bread story in Sg sells better green tea cake. 

The fresh cream in between fail to attract my desire of "one more bite", cake body was too dry (compare to Bread Story's) 

However, its decoration when it served was pleasing. There it saves marks. 

Not too bad 

The red ant was trying to steal a bite. No way, it was finished.

Potato salad, this was extra lor! because main dish served with side dishes what...

anything la, it is in another form now, after digested, what it would be? XD

Butter fish fillet. I should order salmon. This was a heavy meal, for me. Creamy white sauce and olive oil, it is a new try. (I never try this ma). Slightly spicy fried ginger slices dipped with white sauce added surprise! 

Sirloin steak done in medium rare, served with sour sauce. I'm not a big fans for steak, but will not resist to have one bite or two of a nice steak. 

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Supposedly, it was a very filling meal, indeed, it was. 

Sometimes should reward stomach (seems I do it too frequently) 

In cinema, we ate a large popcorn. 

Normally I would stop grabbing popcorn after few minutes eating it. Too sweet.

Out of normal, I ate half of it. 

It was because it tastes nicer or something wrong with me huh....?

SEE! I said i ate too much recently, this was another evidence! 

We ate ayam penyet after movie. 

I can shout loud: I can eat very spicy food, but this ayam penyet...

Don't underestimate its chili, this hot stuff is greater than chili padi, hotter than tabasco 

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I was not trying to be innocent, if you notice my mouth, it was swollen. 

When it was too spicy, closing mouth helps to make your mouth watery, I was doing that to release my 'pain'.

This was absolutely acting. I was too full to drink! 

That is why we are paired...

We are same weird creature. 

haha! 

=p

ya da ya da-- your day your day. Yeepy!

Less words, more picture. Let's pictures tell.

scary man.....i miss my curly hair

This is 10 minutes before

no matter how, need to be calm 

Because, I'm attending an interview, yea, again.

So, good luck yo my self. 

*i look not bad in formal right?I'm looking forward to be professional, wearing full formal executive wear* 

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is my only emotion and facial expression now. 
Who knows the feeling of waiting and worrying?
I'm here waiting and worrying again.

F you on the spot will only make me look stupid like you.

Another day with empty schedule. Actually not that empty, I've done quite many things today according to pre-planned schedule: like cleaned new room, trimmed eye brown, bought things like hanger, tumbler..., did gym, and also, insulted by a fucker-- to be more into detail, he is working in a mamak restaurant called BINTANG TUJUH, an around 17-18 years old indian guy.

Tell you how...
ok, i like thosai, one of my posts in year 2008 or beginning of 2009mentioned how much i like it. Every time I'll order thosai, rarely order others. After bought things and trimmed eye brown, I went the restaurant for lunch; I was not hungry, yesterday night had a sumptuous supper which prepared by Winson(my house mate, mentioned in previous post). Thosai is not a heavy meal, perfectly suit my need. So I sat down, with few bags things. The stupid Indian boy normally does not talk to me, but didn't know what's wrong with him, today smiled and talked with me, playing fool with me as if he is still a kid or still cute, perhaps he thinks he is leng zai? My ass! I was wondering why~ "maybe today look good? since wearing lens, dyed a red hair, trim eye brown, not too bad what~ phe-vit~~~ XD" this was what i thought. Then, I took newspaper that provided, and read.

Read till half, regarding East Malaysia sensed minor earthquake happened there. I was thinking if Malaysia will be located within earthquake area...
"Thosai telor" he said; spontaneously and naturally, i answered: "oh"
The dum ass said: this is thosai, not oh. Is it humor? Like i don't know?  nah-->o0o

After finished, I continued with news. After 10minutes (estimated), I looked around because I worried if customer come but no seat. Then the sohai came and said something like still alot to read? read so long? kind like that la. YOR!!!!!!!!!!!! I was thinking to leave, now he said earlier than I take action, like I really 'buy his scare" (cantonese 买拒怕), like I leave merely because of the few words he said.

"kira" after reading, I asked for bill.
The stupid ass came, "2.80" (yes, thosai n Limao Ice really cheap, YEAH)
I took out 5 bucks, then I checked if i have enough coin. yesh! I have, then I wanted to give him a just right amount, easier for him and for me, I didn't need to wait for change and so he doesn't need to change for me.

"tarak duit kah?" wtf !? == he said this.
"ini  duit la!" dum me! I intended to prove I have enough money.
"mana tau u ada 7.80 saje?"
Hey, is this funny? I don't know he really thinks I'm poor like that or he just wanna make a dump joke, but is this what you should do? A waiter in a mamak restaurant?
Sorry, I don't mean to insult him as a waiter, but why he did it at the first place?
AND, what's next which is ridiculous is: I smiled at him.
Fuck you la Foo Mee Ngan! Smile to a Cibai who just insulted you? stupid!
I was thinking to scold him:" U ingat sini memang 7 star ke? ada minimum expenses ke?" but this is nothing to do with the owner; OR I say :"mana boss? i nak jumpa dia!" Crazy! this is not a 7 stars restaurant la....

"ennada ottkeleh!!!!? Kuthiiiiii!!!"

means: what the fuck you are talking about? cibai! , in Tamil  

wtf?!
I'm so boh song, I think most probably...He got it half true...i'm freaking not enough money now. Every single little things is about money, and I not even got a new job yet. sigh. BUT, HOWEVER, I don't deserve to be insulted by a dumm ass like him lo, okay!!!!

I think each post should at least has a picture, so it doesn't look dull. XD

These few days of mine.

My mum told me, no, she warned me: do not dye your hair any more! you teens only concern about outlook, beauty, "yeng", you know how harmful and what are the side effects of colouring your hair? the chemical......bla bla bla (non-stop....=.=). Mum, i just want to tell you, i dyed again. =p

I don't mean to be bad daughter; good or bad isn't judged by how obey am I, it can't be measured anyway. 

Year 2010, i dyed the same color as last year, which is red. Last year was more vivid; due to working soon, over striking hair doesn't bring a good image. So, I go for a darker one... 

hehe, compare the picture below. (up: year 2009, down: year 2010 ) 

very obvious, last year was brighter, face look younger, slimmer. Can't help from aging. 

Hair dying was on Saturday; today is KL holiday, xiang is not working (yeepy!): I got a job on wednesday, so today need to go to try up the costume. Sad fact, i need to wear size L!!! M was alright except my hip's part, a little bit tight. Better take a larger one, else..Just dare not to imagine how embarrass is it.  

.After that, we went for brunch-- nasi daun pisang. here you go...

I need some days to adopt this culture, by using hand. Finger licking good huh? =p

Cutler fish is nice, so he ordered one more for me. We didn't know what is the small small thing called, so he described ...In the end, we knew it is called ikan cutler, is a small piece of fried minced tuna. 

Obviously, he ate larger portion, and a lot of gravy. Guy, it isn't healthy you know. tsk tsk tsk...

The fork and spoon is evidence of I was not eating with hand, portion of rice proved I didn't eat as much as he did, and the gravy, normally I don't put gravy.

I'm using hand to grab food too! Compare, mine was not as MAN as AIG opposite me.

It was undeniably filling, I was full after that. Then, back to my house, and continued second activity of the day, shifting things from my block to another block. When I was leaving, I felf hard to leave this house, haha! I stayed here quite sometime, fun and joy happened here. 

this is the first chinese mandarine of the year

and thanks to Winson who gave me that. My housemate. =p

(I'm very tired now, cause moving things...and this entry looked shit la, can't adjust alignment...and a lot of grammar mistake >.<)