complicated mood

I dreamt to work in UK, at least to cover my school fees, but after considered of the issue of: once get caught, wil be blacklisted 5 years of prohibited to leave Malaysia for 5 years, yea, i mean not even go to SG which is the nearest foreign country...And recession, risk with my future is not a wise idea.

Anyway, bullshit above will be noted down because this week and next week is lesson classes for preparation of flying UK. To be frankly, the classes are boring, i cant find any others words to decribe(i dun say the class irritating becoz at least it is not that bad until i cant stand on it)

everyday 10 am class, then continous 4 hours, with short break of 15 minutes in between, keep yawning and feel pekcek is the symptons of me getting bored, but yet nid to sit there, pretend listening( coz the bald is a sly one, he will catch someone who is not listening, and wil ask question, worse, he will point u out or hinting you that he awared of you long time ago, therefore you will get bak to the class both physically--shut ur big mouth up, stoping playing fool with frens and mentally--as a trouble causer,after being warned, who dare to the the challenge of make him point u out again?)

anyway, just take 2 stupid photo during the merely 15minutes break time given----

few days of the class, i just feel the stress of approaching of May, i will be flying at 28th, latest by 29th. there are too many thigns nid to be prepared: biggest and most annoying problem----cash flow, gonna pay school fees and flight ticket, then nid to change UK sterling, at least need to bring 300 pound cash, nid to open an account which the bank is a oversea bank, here it goes, money again.. after that, staying there is not a problem to be worried too much as im strong in adapting to new environment, but after the 3 months hell lesson to get the bloody BA hon degree, we will have a bakpack plan, o Eurotrip that organize by authorised organization. Here is the problem we gonna think adn revise, to enjoy smart, budget and estimation of budget need to be done well. i've missed out alot thing that not stated here...

Rest a pretty long time, sudd get bak the the embracement of the hell journals, sick of citations, ass of academic principle...etc, i hava feel of wana escape. If now SIA offer me a job, i'll say good bye to LJMU=p

ops...i might reli say good bye to LJMU, if i failed any subject. If i fail, it is the first and ever subject that i've failed in my college life...touch wood, pls!

BTW.....tmr nid to work again...............><

bloody hell, im cuming...