You Will See Me in TIME Magazine!

Year by year, that's why, I'm turning into 24. 

Since 2002 Dec, I decide to make my life to be abundant one, life is meant to be abundant, isn't it. I declared to my classmate: " one day you will see me in TIME magazine" 

17,18,19,20,21-- I said I wanted to focus on study, so I scored top 9th in Advanced Dip, but it doesn't mean anything. I focused too much in analyzing cause and fact. I focused too much in study drama--> damn this! 

22-- I said I want to strive for success when I stepped into working life. 

23-- ...

2258, everyone in FB pouring their true heart, true wish towards the new year.

- This is not a good year, I want to have a better one in year 2011

- My resolution in 2011 is to bla bla bla

- Year 2010 treats me like shit! 2011 give me luck! 

If you can imagine how my face and body language shows, *shrugged + nod* 

Why resolution must be set in the end of the year but not when you noticed something wrong? 

90% of those ppl who wrote that will repeat the same shit in end of 2011, and wishing for a better year in year 2012. Come on...let Mia reminds you, if Mayan is correct, u left 10 months in 2012 only. 

What i wrote above support the fact of why humans' mouth and eye located at front but not back. 

We talk we look forward but never look back and see what went wrong,  and never correct from the mistake. 

I dare not, DARE NOT to declare anything this year... What I know is to do to try whatever I can I could I should. My target set in year 2009, it still knocks at me every single minute; my wish in year 2002, i'm still looking forward to it, if this is achievable. I was scolded of not being focused... I thought, I can multitasking, aren't I. I can, I really can. 

You should never ask a deaf how sweet is Carpenter's voice, they will never know, If they knew, they must have forgotten too. 

A blind man shall never been asked how beautiful the rainbow is. 

You will never know if you never know; you will never know if you were not part of them.  

I'm young, I can take risk, I can bare risk. I'll do WHATEVER I can to achiever what i want and what I've set. 

in this journey called life, we all are either die too soon or live too long. 

the word of regret is forever deleted in my dictionary. 

We are human, we learn from mistake. 

Branches.

it's been a very long time didn't clean up and decorate my house.
I'm very tired, and very sleepy now, but i want to write this down.
Today my department give up incentive.
Incentive means...get it if you meet the budget. Honestly I've been trying very hard to reach my target but things just didn't run that smooth.
The instinctive me-- I guess, should be a very aggressive one. Just don't like the feeling of losing.
Don't need to be the best but at least second best!
there are few questions in my mind.
1. Should I or not delay my plan-- when actually i don't really have a very concrete plan to run as alternative. If delay means delay again and again;' if don't delay means I give up the battle here.
2. Should I or not give myself a burden-- to buy a car.
these 2 matters are interrelated.

I also don't know how. Feel like getting direction of spirit.

My Business

Find this !







will be continued.

To make a move

yupe, I love the red mountain logo so much.

since 2 days back the rythem of the theme song was keep surrounding in my mind, and I agree this is a good song. 

Recently i'm starting to absorb as much financial knowledge as I can and started to read those financial newspaper, share market news, stocks, everything regarding to investment; and also fall in love with a book called:" why we want you to be rich"

A very good point that I've picked up(as far as the half book i've read)- Society now has been changing from diamond shape (which Rich and Poor occupied the tip of top and bottom while middle class has occupied the middle part of the diamond) to a shape of concave lens and the middle part is getting thinner, soon the middle class will distinct from the middle. In short it means, rich will get richer and poor will get poorer. This is the problem, so they( the authors) want us to be rich is because they dont want us to be part of the problem, they want us to be part of the solution so the hypothesis they made will not happen. 

Thus i've been contemplating to start another journey; to be more precise i don't only think this after read this book, even earlier i've been thinking of this. The killing point is that, sayonara is hard to sing. 

to be cont. 

Lend me a pair of sincere ears.

End of year 2010. Aghast. 

None of any vocabs or words could describe the mood now.

Scientifically or logically, everything happens has a cause; every individual's story can be traced back. Hence, from my history, I should not just end up like this. Every folks praised me could be someone- in their mind someone must be holding authority, with good pay; when I enter college, peeps around though I must be someone, too- with capability, with good pay. Me myself thought that would be a good show, a show cost more than 50k. Pathetically this show ticket sold in low price. 

Didn't the previous post mentioned I feel like myself is like an useless freak, peek at others picture in fb- and think how could someone lose so much weight, what bag is she using... what an valueless action! Couldn't I spend the time in something more valuable like starting own business? I'll have a strong determination for diet when seeing someone lose weight, but damn it, I'll only jealous when seeing someone has achievement. 

The longer I stay in this place, the more I find myself non-capable; the longer I stay, the more I turn myself to a typical working people; the longer I stay, the farer the gap is, between me and them. Every gathering, compare their look with mine, I find myself getting smaller. Every talk, they are talking what is next plan when to buy car what house to buy, I can only listen with a smile- If you zoom into the smile, yon will see the ingredients of bitterness, and jealous. I used to show how strong am I, how tough am I, but I forgot tough and strong need the support of the s sign.

Every chat with friends, those lost contact for quite sometime, the first thing they ask must be: HOW ARE YOU? 

actually my answer is: I want to die.

I already exhausted, don't bother to complain, no energy to complain. Do you know how pain is this?

The stress is from the s sign. 

If we have enough, my mum will not has illness like now--mental illness is hard to cure. 

If we have enough, my family will not like what it is now, quarrel break down the communication, less communication freeze the bond. 

If we have enough... at least, no fake smile. 

I really...really...really want the courage to jump out from this comfort zone, encouragement from some important person as support, the request not high right? The most support i need from, is the one who most demotivate me and give the most discouragement. It is like crawling into the tip of a con. 

Set Me Free. 

P.L.E.A.S.E.

Can the light beam in?

The Fox and The Tail

I'm Foo, not Fool.
The beauty of Chinese make Foo become FOX-- 'hu' 狐
so MeeNgan Foo actually is Megan Fox, don't you think that is not just a coincidence?
okay, that's all for today bullshit.
The thing is like this, long time ago, there were 2 foxes. A fox mama and a fox daughter, fox daughter loved mama's tail very much. She said the tails was very soft, very nice to hold, holding it was like filled with happiness. Mama told her, she had the tail too, it was just right at her back side. Since then the fox daughter wanted to catch her own tail like how she hold mama's one, but neither she touch nor hold the tails. Until one day she was really frustrated, she cried to her mama. "i can't catch my tail..........i cant catch my happiness~!!!!!!!!!!!"
mama said:"you walk ahead, dont look back.... see, ur tail is following you as you walk ahead, your happiness is be with you as long as you walk ahead"
-end-

We get inspired by story, but seldom we act like the story. That's why I never see people wear glass heel; that's why i never see a girl keeps her hair so long untill can throw down from castle and let a guy climb up.


But if the story could get you to grin for a while, this is what we should be grateful of.
Guys, have a nice day.

It Just Happen

got back home at this time, not this late, I think half an hour ago.
I wanted to wash cloth and take bath, but just one minute before I want to take up my pail with unwashed cloth, my housemate put his cloth in the machine; and his roommate was using the machine before him. >.< lll
what to do, wait until they finish lo.
then when I realise I should take shower first and wash others cloth with hand, my another housemate stepped into bath room. arghh!
what to do, wait until my turn lo.

sometimes, things happened, what can you do? blame the situation or blame yourself of not acting n such way so that the things happened wont happen? Things go well or not, sometime is not up to our human's control, there must be a reason of such thing happen; since we can't control the uncertain factors which ruin our day, why not we control our thought which ultimately is controlled by us?

sometimes, again, things happened just like that. You can explain but not justify.
I can explain why am I into cross so much but can't justify why.
I like just because I like how it looks like, but why am I so particular like this pattern, non justifiable.
I can explain why am I in this job but i can't justify what makes me in to this career but not others?
I can explain why do I believe in this and that but it is not justifiable why so happen this 2 things come in to my life. to be precise: Insurance and Christianity.
So i said, everything happened must have its reasons, so when it happens, just let it be.

one thing I wish to shout out loud very long time ago: I love Western culture, I love English, I love white, I even have doubt am I wrongly reincarnated into oriental country and in a conservative family.

one thing I should not deny is: I was immature when i thought I was mature enough at that age, if given my recent age, I wont be doing that or I could have a better solution if given a chance to do that again, or choose it again, or act it again.
Give me further sight, I want to see further =)

Found out

Out of sudden, I have a feeling of valueless, if continuing doing what I'm doing.
Other than working; other than being asked what is the NUMBER' other than viewing friends' updates; other than viewing sexy and pretty girls' photos; other than thinking of starting up own business; other than looking for a better way out,other than entertaining those irritating people, I do nothing everyday.

Have a very good idea in brain, but not executing it yet~ say in such way to ease my guiltiness, because I don't know when am I going to start it. We can't deny flame always come and go if it is not kept flaming; this minute the thought of getting this thing done is filled in my mind, next minute i might just give it up. How ridiculous.

Was told I have a chance to present and represent, but candidates chosen are still what they used to see. Hmmm... a little bit of disappointed. If i'm given a chance, ok...I'll accept the challenge. See my title of this blog, I spit in the face of challenge. Ya, i'm waiting....

Seriously, bored to the max on my recent life. Thought of changing keep arousing me, but yet none steps are taken to make a change. In work, I dont act as proactive as before, of course! I've learnt. the more u suggest the more you need to do; it ain't a matter of doing it, but no result turn out or THEY people who occupied bigger table really expect you've done all research and all preparation, when the picture present is clear and workable, they say go ahead, and change a word of praise: WELLDONE. haha, tell u here, urge of getting higher pay is more than desire of listening to welldone, why? Because after welldone, what's next is "now u can do more and I'm expecting you to get me more value. or number.
I also become not so patient in workplace compare to last time. maybe if i were them I'll behave like this too, but now i'm not. So hardly to tolerate them. I almost lost my patient and spoke in a wrong tone, knew it has definitely defended offended them, what to do? what done is done, now i can only glu back the pieces of vase...cracks on the vase, just leave it. I can't serve them like im a slave. I'm paid for my job scope, if you are not contributing to my Kay Pee Eye, sorry, I'm hardly to please you; and also if I have ald told you what to do but yet you didnt do,and also call me anytime and expecting I get ur things done within 1 hour as if i'm working 24/7/7, sorry, your desire is hardly to be satisfied. I think everyone of us need to be taught what is discipline.........

Recently had a lunch with a friend, to be frank, he is my ex. He advised me to know more, M-O-R-E. He said I looked very nerd. hahahahahaha............speechless la, maybe I really am, but will not be in the future.

You know how an animal trapped in a cage? I think i'm the animal, and i can tell how does it feel. I'd rather to be torn in to pieces just to get the shit of the cage, and then the pieces to be sambung balik and Mia is back.

i just found out, there are lots to be improved.

The Best Rojak ever.

he-ll-o~~

let this be a blog like ROJAK, FYI, if you don't know what is rojak.  
ROJAK /roh-jahk, noun and adjective. A Malay salad-like dish with a dressing of a sweet black sauce, prawn paste and chopped peanuts. Also used as a colloquial expression for an eclectic mixto describe the multi-ethnic character of Malaysian and Singaporean society.
For those eat rojak, are those who would like to eat few fruits in small amount at one time, with various of reasons.

let this look like ROJAK.
The only reason is: the typing fella here feels like telling tons of thoughts but none in complete piece; instead of posting few posts, why not make it all-in-one, like how rojak does. Rojak is being served, NOW.

Ingredient 1:

OF COURSE this little dummy likes her JAM.OR.BREAD; else she won't be sacrificing lots of time on the imbalance output and input subject(as capital). That's so right in that track and that projects a so bright picture to her. BUT will the subject gives her what she wants? this is different story. Like her friends who like production so much, will that future projected by the ideal outcome comes true? If you believe in insistence and persistence which in the end leads most Great Men to success, make sure you are in a right track; insist and persistently walking to West to see sun rise is just a joke. Is the capital subject is a joke?

Ingredient 2:

Look back to what she is doing in her capital subject above...this is damn so fail lo. She is always like a ham of the hamburger, insert in between 2 breads and dressing + vege. Trying to be an added value ham, but the situation always make her so useless. maybe, this is another failed ham too. She hatesn of being a stupid. "THE MORE YOU KNOW, THE MORE YOU'LL KNOW HOW LITTLE YOU KNOW". She used to be strong, she wanted to be strong, everyone say she is strong. In fact, she rather to be smarter. Is an abandoned woman who works hard to bring up her children strong? Defintely!Still strong over smarter?

Ingredient 3:

the iPhone 4 has just been launched, look the 3GS. Why not wait another few months to get this? even cheaper! at that situation there were too many reasons to make her made this decision. ANYWAY, 3GS works good for her.

Ingredient 4:
she is too tired.
tired of being tired.
Why should she think so much? Why can't she go directly once identify the direction. Why others can while she is yet to achieve?

Ingredient 5:
She had nightmare, she was about to be murdered. In the dream she thought of many tricks to escape, to save others. In the end, she was rescued, but the rest? No idea, because she was woke up by alarm. Few times ald, few times she thought of tricks in dream to save people.

 hey, i'm too tired to think her problems. I have a lots too.
Naturally it will be solved.

room to let @ pindah rumah

no surprise, I'm again looking for a room.

damn surprise, renting a room/house out could earn so much.

current room and housemates are all right, except too little interaction. Perhaps I don't stay in living room so often, perhaps I wear only pyjamas in room, perhaps I stay in the house too little. It is really all right, except sometimes I have too fruitful imagination that someone is looking at me at the window. Everything is all right except is was a kitchen which opposite is another kitchen of neighbor. Everything is damn all right, i have water heater i have fridge i have washing machine i have internet access. The only thing not right is it is not located in somewhere where near my working place.

again, called few agents and surf quite some web pages. Why is rental cost so much? Why couldn't I myself have a house and rent 2 rooms of it out, to cover part of my installment of the house? come on Mia, can you afford to buy a house now? I whisper to God and myself, how I wish.

a 23 year-old girl has too many dreams to be achieved.
I want my own house, I want my own car.
I want money, I want lottery.

back to the end. I want what I haven't get.

今日好

今天的部落用中文，不用广东话。

今天过得好。。。

我的打扮好特别；好特别的打扮令我发型好级别~

那花了不超过20块的套装穿的我格外不舒服，内层的线头刺得我浑身起鸡皮疙瘩，特高的领子令到我的短发往外翘，外翘的短发看起来真级别。 衣服的线头根根刺着皮肤，人也不自主地提高。。。像是惊弓之鸟，对身边事物特别提高警惕，人也变得特别敏感。 看见车子往前驶来，竟妄想它将会撞过来；眼见前方车辆摩托车快要相撞，不禁捏一把冷汗；见老摩托骑士不开灯驾驶，竟变得闷闷不乐。一切一切，就像吹涨的气球；亦像孕妇超肿胀的双脚，层皮薄得蔽眼即能见其下血丝；一刺既破。

今天过得好。。。 

走在回家路上，心中想着的过去；级别得来又带点情趣。想着遭遇；级别得来带点苦笑。想着你我他的分别，即级别又混扰。摇头一想，为何变得如此多疑？即使他人对我心怀不愧，对我怀恨在心，对我误会重重，有心占我便宜，他妈的老娘人定胜天。有时候多看一眼那些人的嘴脸，少一点控制都会挥拳向以示敬，只不过越想越无能，追根究底就只有改变自己方能以双眼往下瞄人，那种人。镜子里的自己偶尔过得好辛苦，但之一于二的分别就只是多了一划少了一横，想着想着想歪了，就勒一勒自己，二就变一，一也会变二。

今天过得好。。。

听说我变“干”了。

一个女子变干即变“奸”

变奸没有错，变奸保护自己更是天公地道；只是奸不来的鼠鹿要如何跟豺狼拼斗？

一面数着粮银，一面想着。。。 

坐在快乐城看着老婆婆经过，变干的鼠鹿被滋润了一下。

好不快乐哦～～～

补充，是眼睛被滋润了一下。　

今天过得好。。。

级别。

这几天过得好级别。

过去那星期过得好级别。

不过那级别发型的始作俑者－－不过２０块的衣服让我想通一件事。

一件衣服里面的线头令我精神紧绷；一个头脑里的线头令我想的太多。

放松一下，等待旅行吧。　

我想，死在雪山也是个浪漫的悲剧。（鸡蛋！那该死的韩剧烧掉吧！）

放松一下，冲个凉，睡觉吧。

我想，睡醒后我是个变干的女鼠鹿，头颅内不相干的线头也被挑走了！

今天还有两份钟。

明天要过得更好。

言的利，这次我写的部落比你的抽象吧。哈哈！

                     

Respect

今日我要讲既系: 尊敬-respect-menghormati- "junee-geng"(Cantonese) - "June-keen" (Hakka)

有好多理由令小妹尊敬你敬佩你； 但系只有一个理由令我不尊敬你，就是你吾将我放在眼内！我好声好气讲, 有礼貌甘问,皆因我知书识礼, 就吾似D 人, 揸住鸡毛当令箭.
well, i can't stand of using Chinese to type as it is real slow + inefficient; as like I can't stand and can't keep myself to tolerant on your behavior.

If you think that is a way of protecting yourself, what do you think I'll trap you by merely few words? Why can't you just response when people ask you earlier? why must you reply at the very last minute when people ask in a very formal way. ok, you can say you are very busy, but your phone still functional right? or you have blacklisted me from leaving a miss call on your phone? You can say you are sophisticated wolf, and i can say i'm a born jerk.If you say I didn't keep you in loop, my apology; but since centuries ago I made a change of keeping you in loop what, oh~ now is your turn to revenge? Your trick, I know it quite well and witnessed it quite sometime; i understand you don't need to apply the idiot and non-genuine trick on me, oh thanks ya! My sincere and deeply apology if I put an ass between u and me, but i can't help not to think you are that type of person. AND, u know how to cry, I know how to shed tears also.

In this society, not yet transformed to a capitalism society as America does, but the philosophies of a dog can only bark louder after they caught a thief is always exist. I mean, if you wanna be a barking dog, make sure you did something. What makes you yelling on me?
- Age? then you are a real fucker who abuse your years of experiences!
- your achievement? then you are a real failure because you didn't show you have any!
- Race.....? haha, then you are a real prisoner that should be jailed.
- or by the dirt on your teeth which proved you ate too much and smoked too much?
- ooooh, by the annual income that you have more than me....hey, who the hell are you on earth to judge I won't earn more then you in the future?

-You know how to spell RESPECT doesn't mean you do it well.
If you don't respect me at the first place, how do you expect me to respect you?-

 I always respect PEACE, if you wan to break the bone, reverse the PEACE, you deserve it. 

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NAH

 

Determination

Everyone said I gained weight when i back to Ipoh, this really stimuli my determination of DIET-ing. I never shame of revealing my weight, it is 57 now, there was one time went up to 59. This freaked me out, but since working in the office, the least weight i had was 56; 57 is the fattest moment i had at 4 years back, then I had my very intense diet program, in 2 weeks time, it dropped to 50. *clapssss* but side effect was i dreamt of various of food. 

how i had it was:

breakfast: cereal + milk. 

lunch     : nasi lemak (i didnt know it was diet killer, however i still lost weight) 

dinner    : oat ( must have it before 6pm) 

beside this, i had 2- 3 hours exercise everyday

since then i maintained my weight from 50-53, untill the day before I joined the current company. within 6 months, i gained about 5-6 kg, and the worse is they are planning to make me having 51%growth on my weight =.=ll 

Joke is joke, I wont compromise to such 'good faith' 

no matter how hard i tried, the least i had was 50, never drop lesser than 49 since 16 years old. 

I declared: the war of dieting start today onwards! 

-less sugar, i drank Milo and coffee too much in office, cut it down!

 

-less oil, although i never like this, but since start working till now, consuming oily food is much more frequent then total amount that i had consumed in the past one year. 

-less salt (eating with colleagues sometime put me in a dead end, this is peer pressure) 

-Have dinner before 6.30pm (which means strictly no supper!) 

-Exercise, this is somehow quite difficult, unless I leave office earlier. 

today is the first day of Dieting

erm, still consumed quite some amount of food, but they were braised meat and vege, few bites of ayam bakar and i consume a lot of fruit. 

Fruit is a must =) 

i cant diet without fruit =) 

to be cont

Unforgettable

I was thinking to write a abstract one, to describe my mood, actually nothing to tell, I mean don't feel like telling. So i surfed net, and found clips below.

You will never know how much I loved band, being in military band and orchestra. I was willing to argue with my mum because of it. In fact I shouldn't use past tense, i'm still loving them. It is clear in my mind I love to watch any performances when i was secondary student, and was given a palm-stamp by my mum.

arghhh....without bullshiting, just wanna share some clips with u..

USA nation theme song-STAR AND STRIPS FOREVER.

This is hard...

THE NEW COLONIAL MARCH. previous one is from USA; this is from UK.

I'm damn happy that i'm still able to play the fingering, 80% of it. Hello, i've been away from this more than 5 years okay? See, how much this is engraved in my memory.

ahhhhhh~~~~ this is it! Theme Song of Jurassic Park!

You'll never know how much I'm hooked to this song; behind has a beauty story.

Because of this, i hurt my knee...

I didn't have discman, neither have a CD of it, forget about downloading as that was about 9 years ago...

I took a recorder to record it, when the theme song was playing in the end of the movie, since then the tape accompanied me fro years, until I was form 5...

this is the exactly same version as I always listened to.

then, someone bought me a CD of it. hmm.....all memories.....

this will takes you about 20 minutes if you listen every clip. XD

enjoy~

Law of Nature

Law of Nature-- it is you will scream when you are frighten out. this is just a very simple example.
This law's content is set by nature and thus it is validity everywhere, according to Aristotle, this is the common law according to the nature. In shot, this is just a common sense or any behavior, response that is deemed as NATURE.

In Chinese proverb, there is a sentence said: one type rice cultivate hundred types of people. How true is it, you will know when you look around. I met somebody, very... petty, this doesn't mean she is stingy in spending, i think "small-town-manner" would be more suitable. She is just nice, but a very typical revenger; and will feel offended if her idea is not adopted or accepted. What i can say is she has very own style, doesn't like means doesn't like, maybe this is called spontaneous. But look from other perspective, she said she will not show good face to people who offend her, when the person is with her she talks nicely with people. Sometime I will think, am I one of the person in her list? Talking bad of me in front of others but talking nicely with me. She said she doesn't like to entertain people, very fake; sometimes I think, aren't you faking almost all the time? She said she hate the person who take care of own ass, I think aren't you doing the same? This made me very depress sometime. Doesn't mean you hate the person, then drag me into water. If you talk about the matter of fair, I think isn't it you should fair to me at the first place? One type rice cultivate one of those person, i'm glad I'm not in this category.
What does this to do with the title above?
according to Law of Nature, this is instinct of every human? but according to my adoption to Law of Nature, I think better keep myself away from telling her gossip (yes,sometimes we do talk about this), better just hear but not listen to what she said(when that is not advice), better get myself away from ANY conflict, better keep myself shut up. To alive this is the formula; to survive, I'm still looking for the formula.
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before end the story, let me show something.

 this is what I saw when I on my lappy and MSN.
isn't the 2 most visible picture showing the same pose? haha....

p/s: the eagle is missing the wind, so do the wind missing the eagle.

what for keeping it if dont want?

if don't want it, what for keeping it? 

I've been thinking to cut it short since....N months ago, ok. done now. 

look pretty much difference? 

i tell everyone, will grow back one. 

no worries. 

Titleless.

My hands are on keyboard quite sometime but couldn't even type a single word. 

Doesn't this show I have a lot to express but have no way to start from?

So, there are some self-blaming issue-- sometimes i'm really lose control. 

at the other side of the coin, how can I not tolerate to those people? say it like: i have to...

but thanks God....someone told me something and from there i realize some others thing. 

yea lo! get the right spot light and grow under the right light. 

 

this morning ald felt the wrongness, so msg a friend. He replied: do whatever your goal has set, there is no right or wrong but only win or lose. Hey this is the truth this is the reality; how can one deny this? 

but but but, selective listen can be a good approach if it is applied correctly; whatever might be hurtful, forget it, adopt the encouraging part. I mean, hey Mia, you know you are capable of,centuries of pressure suppress on a right stone and make it into a raw diamond, correct approach makes it into a valuable shinning diamond. Let's see how long this diamond needs; I make it 2 years, all right? =)  

almost done my self-encouragement part. Time to share some F-up thing. 

I've never seen people have such a high pride and dignity when others was asking for their name. fine, dont tell, vertical or horizontal, have to tell after meeting the Lord. 

k, time stop here. 

to be cont.

faking

I love my job, love my company, love my colleague. 

I gained knowledge, gained experiences, most importantly....

I gained weight. 

but why does the title would be FAKING?

it is nothing to do with the post, the content of the title will not be written here, even if it is, you won't realize too. 

Zebra protecting itself with the stripes what, this is instinct ability. 

Anyway...

back to the content. Simply post up some pictures and from there you can see how much weight I've gained in very short few months time.  

2009 Central Annual dinner @ April 5 2010. 

I was geisha, digitalized geisha who plays laptop instead of instrument. 

2009 National Annual Dinner@ April 16 2010. 

normal dinner dress. 

2010 staff dinner @ July 17. 

Go Green, the only Green element on me was--the vest. 

all old items, perfectly fit into GO GREEN concept. Recycle, Reuse what.

See the pictures, you will realize this Mia gains alot weight. WTF. whatever. 

When I decided to do means I will do and I can make it. Diet anytime. 

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Accidentally found an old photo.  Apparently I'm not there, they are all with stick. XD

ok, my very first bf is in this photo. 

(tips: first row with colored waist bell) 

to be cont. 

Good night.

wtf Spring and Autumn fact.

In the ancient China empire- there was once a period called: Spring and Autumn period. Which and which states involved in the war is not elaborated here. Let's zoom it into a one of the state involved, state of Lu, then zoom in into the warriors department..
 
There was a system to train warriors, so few teams were assigned to train and sharpen those new and existing warrior; however the tactic to be used in the battle field were the same shit: attack, strike, defend...
can you see the picture? no matter new or existing warriors had to go though same shit theories training, but because of the difference in level, they had to be separated into different team.

Facilitator said: "we work in a team, although each has different task"
In the end of the day, whether you can protect the head on your neck was determined by how many warriors left in your team.
what a pathetic fact.

There is no way to let the Spring and Autumn period story put my mood down. After all, shout internally may help the problem.
Or, wash face with cold water will do.

I miss you, can i meet you again?

              I miss you. 

                       yes, i miss you 

That was a sunny day; and I was at the land that I dream to be at. 

Kinda fed up when peers shouting of disappointed and blaming the burning weather; but I was satisfied by walking down the hot sun, with the self rolled ciggie. My mood was there; and yet part of it was gone. 

The scene came into my mind again and again. The famous places always appear in movies as if reminding me I've been there or urging me to go back for once? I swear, I'll be back. 

That was a wonderful experience. If i have only 3 months life left, good bye my friends, I will spend all my money to go back there. Not sentimental, but an unrealistic and not mundane choice of ending one's life. 

On the way back, i met her. 

this has been written down in entries last year. 

Was an old lady who can only speak Italian. 

"Ciao, bella~" 

 my last word to her. 

i remember her eyes were looking at me. 

She smile at me when I look into her eye. 

tiredness all gone. 

what a kind old lady. 

She started to ask me a lot of questions, but sadly I couldn't understand Italian.

Her face of frustration of couldn't make me understand her looked cute; and I was pointing here and there, trying to use body language to answer. 

within 10 minutes, we communicated a lot; but both of us couldn't catch a ball. 

the only thing I knew was, she was a piano teacher. When she showed her fingers, all bended and distorted.

I can understand how tough Makxim to be a great pianist now

before we get down from the bus, i took out my camera, ask for her permission to take a photo. 

She was willingly took with me; and happily squeezed on my face. 

My turn of getting distorted on part of my body. 

What a perfect match with cute *-----* finger and cute *-----* face. 

When we got down, she was waving her hands to us with a white handkerchief. How lovely this old lady is. 

Ohhh....

i miss you.

till then, I have a silly request. Can any one knew this old lady, leave me a clue where can I meet her again?
I'm Mia.

as simple as calculation

Anything with formula, there must be an answer.
So a clever one thinks nothings is going to escape from his strategically calculated outcome.
He is clever, no doubt, but not smart.
because he is dealing with humanized maths.
Simple than additional maths; harder than additional maths. (sorry, my level until additional maths which stopped at Form 5 only, nevertheless, i scored 1A. XD)

Humanized maths is simple, because the formula is what you used to practice everyday; formula is hard because you don't know if the way you practice is a correct one. Or should I say there is no exact formula?
Exactly. Can you say a thief is absolutely WRONG? Undeniably, he is wrong because he steals; but who knows the reason behind of his ethically-not-recognized- stealing behavior? Maybe, he has no choices, death-god is calling his son due to hungriness.  Steal, he is wrong, society not recognize; not to steal, his is wrong, because fail to execute the responsibility of being one's dad. hey, this is the humanized maths.

back to my concern.
the story will be never written down.
close one eye, see nothing, but the car is still coming.
if you know what is comfort zone, then you will know what i'm talking about.

till here.
bye.

Our birthdays are feathers in the broad wing of time.

before this, take note at the title.
" Our birthday are feathers in the broad wing of time" (Richter, Jean, 1763-1825)
Bare with my little plagiarism , I could't find the exact bibliography of the quote above, but nevertheless it is a NICE quote.

ok, very soon, almost without realize, another birthday has came, I've spent 2hours and 28 minutes of my birthday. After all, you will realize birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Let's recall my last birthday at http://mia-patra.blogspot.com/2009/06/22-of-mine.html
that's was my birthday in UK. =)


This year, year 2010. One day before 17 June, I had my first section of small little talk for my company, previously was doing emcee job, finally today I took the first step to talk on CAREER. A plausible one=)

after that, I had my FIRST time driving in KL.
where my courage and guts come from? Didn't I worry and concern so much on "what if I crash?"
choyyyy! eliminate the negative thought! so I drove. Nothing happen, hey, worse come to worst, got sound one ma...if you could catch what I mean. haha

I know Yao was damn gan cheong sitting beside me. You try to let a driver with 6 years license but few months experiences drive your boss car, see how you feel? haha. by the way, his boss is my boss. So I'm glad I took the first step. 

Nothing beat a piece of cake with sincerity. A cake from a friend who takes a lot care on me. If you read this, I'd like to say thank you. 

Carrer, started with 4 bucket theory. What is your dream man? 

I was giving a little sharing on that. I know where my strength at, the only problem is I've been hiding it behind and pushing it to corner. It's time to dig it out.

Hey, others see the strengths in you! your kinder garden teacher until secondary school teacher saw your strength, how could you let it just fade away like that? 

It's been a very long time didn't take a photo. Recently look yong shui la. Dont know is it because work under pressure and heavy work load, I'm too tired and lazy to take care of myself. 

talk about my hair. It looks messy and curly! hey, I'm not type of rambut keriting one, just I tied my hair too much, and that is the knot left permanently on my hair. The only way to get rid of it is either to do rebonding or cut it away! I'm considering both. But I drop quite a number of hairs....Probably I'll go for second choice. 

boy cut dyed with COPPER RED color, or bob hair? 

But serious, I need to take a good care of myself. 

=) 

No one has more obligation to take care of your own self but you. 

ok, almost 3 in the mid night. Time to meet Mr Chow; South Africa and Uruguay is still in the match, South Africa already get a yellow card. All the best 

*whisper to myself* "happy birthday" 

simple thoughts.

just a photo, but it includes few thoughts. 

1- i did something silly, real silly. 

2- It tells the fact that i'm missing there. a place with white. 

3. I just want to be with my another half   like the couple sitting on the candy-bench when we are old. 

that's all, finish. 

happy happy!

i don't know bleeding can be so happy..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

what if i tell the truth? more happy or feel releasing? 

indifferent. 

I'm still as happy as always.....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

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dot dot dot tells better than words. 

猫

14

14划

算

算了吧。

Been There.

How are you? On and Off you appeared in my mind, although I'm moving on. 

"we are just two parallel lines, moving but never crossed" 

Just like the cameras, you have wide screen function when taking pictures, I have my 8GB memory card to store pictures, no matter how dark the sky is, the picture is captured, the memory is left. 

I've to tell myself, look back means stay, stay means no progress. No progress isn't what you want. So, i moved. Moving forward. Human, is a tiredness enabled creature, when I'm tired, when I'm in the mood, I'll stop by, to look back. This moment, I see clearer what is in front of me; I see where am I.

Don't know if you are awared, TIME is the greatest thief. Last summer I was there, and now another summer is coming. You are ready to shout "fucking asian",year by year, every year the same kind of yellow piece of monkeys are jumping in the streets; you shout to the same species, one of the species is missing you so much. I think, I'm not missing you that much, I just miss the time I spent there.

If I could give up everything here, I will move into your armpit..yes, you kertiak. =D

So I salute to myself

you know why, just like a kid push her head towards her dad's chest, then her dad hold her tight with his kertiak. 

or like me, lie on your chest, and you hold me with your arm, and buried my head under your kertiak.

I know, kertiak there, is forever cleaner than what I have now. 

If you, Jumbo could with me, buried head under the kertiak....

=p

FAINT.

To Be Cont.....

the very first time

Nothing more than food.

Recently my life is full with work only, as well as absorbing knowledge, you know no ending in learning process ya. I don't know in the future, for now i'd think not enough time to work, it would be good of working full month. However, sometimes a little bit of recharge helps release tension a lot.

So, i went back to Ipoh at Saturday, back to KL at Sunday. 

and I tried very good food in Ipoh, in Pondok Mushroom for the very first time. Don't ask why this was my first time, am I from Ipoh? 

without further ado(if this could be applied here), here we start the short yet intense food trip. 

look at the white light board, you can tell how old it is. 70s? i don't know about the rojak, but the curry mee is the best! Very typical Ipoh taste, I'm not saying KL's not tasty, it is! the difference is KL's spiciness very impact-full, Ipoh's very hometown taste, spicy with fragrant. 

This was the first food I ordered. Oyster fried egg, so bad we were, messaged Babee and sent the photos for her, criminally seduce her temptation! XD so happen that she hadn't taken dinner yet, those photos definitely caused her saliva.  

was introduced by T-sue babe, she said the grill fish is good. I'm strongly oppose with her! The grill fish is I-CHI-BAN neh! Superb! When I was ordering, I was a little bit skeptical with the size of the fish not as big as what I see in KL, anyway, i chose the smallest one, serve for 2 only what. Surprisingly, the fish was look small, but fresh was very thick. Then i knew it was too much for 2....

Grill fish, among all i've tasted, normally the fresh very dry one, and they use alot paste to cover the dried up fresh, this is another good grill fish that I've tried after Hai Ou in Danao Kota. This, paste quite alot also, but the most important part was the fresh, still very juicy although the skin was grill to burned. 

I was ordering this for fun only, unexpected, first bite already captured my soul. The peel was so crunchy! see the brownish triangle that facing you? yes, that is it... 

sometimes the F-tard wans to show her face too. see how tender the white fresh is..

needless to say. 

I never know mua-chi can be served hot one lo. XD

so so so soft and delicious. 

also needless to say, he is another F-tard. 

Bella said

I know you might ask, who is this? Without looking to the lens makes me even more terrify. 

Fine! now I look into the lens, look into you eyes, so, how you feel it? I'm Bella-patra from Italy, Mia chosen and bought me among thousand stalls in Venice, she said I caught her eye. She said bought me more than 6 months, but never show me to others, that's why I'm here, also I'm assigned with an important task---update her blog. Maybe in the following days, I'll be doing updating on behalf of her. 

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Nothing much to say, I know she is tired, let her rest =) I'll do her part of blogging, to be more accurately, updating, update her life within this few days.  

Just attended a LOA class, Law of Attraction, pretty useful if you think logically; amazingly powerful if you believe it completely. LOA simply takes the principle of "LIKE ATTRACT LIKE", universal react to your unconsciously/ consciously wish by giving you more of the same, if you happy and wish for more happiness, the vibration you emit attract more of the same--which is happiness; if you are sorrow, keep mood down, JIALAT, the vibration emitted attract more of the same---which is more SORROWFULNESS. 

XD, if you wake up, look at the mirror and say: why do I looked so yong shui one? Congratz, you wish come true, you will looked as what u wish--YONG SHUI. 

Basically how it works, for Mia,  in short, is to be positively believe it will happen, of cause you have to put in effort. Think logically, sometimes the hope you wish might be a bit unrealistic, but believe it will happen, at least you do it completely with you heart, and be positive and optimistic to the outcome is forever better than think passively and be pessimistic. When one is optimistic and positive, the one is vibrant; vice versa, the one will be live dully.  This is think logically.

This is the photo of Mia's colleague, partners etc etc. They also attended the LOA class. 

Soon, was weekend. Mia treated her panda aka Doraemon aka Jumbo aka Feixiang aka Fei Zei...dim sum breakfast. This is the..within fingers of a palm of Mia treating him. Reason being: he promised won't let Mia take money from wallet what, better keep your promise! Else I stare at you when you are sleeping! Remember how I look like? Scroll up and see! Imagine if I'm right in front of you and staring at you in the midnight when you feel like waking up to answer the nature call. hee hee hee hee~~~

I don't understand why did he look so reluctant? Probably just finish work in the early morning? =/

These 2 creatures finished all....phew....=.= Now I understand why does Mia always want to have diet plan. 

 Soon......is Monday again.
Does it look familiar? SUBWAY. The bread that accompanied them for quite sometime. This is super cheap in UK, 99p only (untill 11.am). Mia's mates always eat it in between the slot of lecture and tutorial class, there is a SUBWAY located near by their Uni, after they had lecture class(finished about 10am), they will walk to another venue, on the way will pass by the SUBWAY. Every morning there are bunch of Asian students queuing to grab the cheap breakfast. Mia didn't consume always, for her, 99p is RM 6, still expensive. =p
Still,SUBWAY leave her a lot memories.
When she was queuing to buy the localized bread, she was actually flew back to the SUBWAY, which just mentioned.

Taste? Globalization standardize the taste, but she still like the UK's most.

Lastly for this entry, Mia likes to post foods' pictures. Good or bad.
This is from one of the stalls that she has tried and agree with its quality. Located at PJ 222 , don't ask her direction, she can't tell. Such a road idiot. 
Her boss tried this when he was having dinner+supper there. Guess what? Extra nutritious FLY! Her boss found it in the Hokkien Mee that they ordered. Aiks....
I think her boss,as a smart consumer, will fight for his right... 

Lucky Mia didn't consume. XD
She had tried once in Wangsa Maju, there is a stall near by the round about, called 'SaKorBua' (3.50), because most of the fried rice, mee,  special cook for the day were sold RM 3.50(story few years ago). She ordered Rice with egg gravy, the fourth or fifth bite, she found an 'object' which look like cockroach, then she raised her hand up and ask...who knows the fella took her plate of rice, straight walk to kitchen, few minutes later give her back the same plate of rice and said: just a prawn head. When she looked at the so called prawn head, has already out of shape, she can't recognize it , end up, leave without finish it, and yet paid for it. Sometimes she is just this stupid. =p

update complete. good night.

One Night Stand

Shock and excited to read when see the title? I have a habit, a real weird habit of using what ever thing I glimpsed at to be title. i'm listening to a song- Daniel Powter- Free loop, the title is mentioned in the lyric, so.....

Ok,please proceed to reading. 

Life won't change until you've made a move, same to fat. 

I'm thinking to use 'same old same age' as title, but it is not a truth, i'm making changes, at least, i'm take initiative to change.  

Sometimes i'm really angry with myself of being careless. you know how it feels? 

You already remind yourself in the heart, already checked the things that you gonna to do, already.....You thought you've done it. You thought things are settled. In the end, you realized, you were told...things are not going this way.  o.0

We should have own secret,don't we? 

So that's all for this. next I'm gonna show how life is going.

With my colleague. Don't you feel the chicken and charsiew look familiar? They just appeared in my post few days ago.  

That is a song with lyrics "what hurt the most was being so close", by Rascal Flats- what hurt the most. Absolutely correct. The guy closest with you hurt you the most. 

how does it relate to this photo? Do you think you use a gadget with care, then the technological product won't spoil? I spent thousand over to buy a phone 18 months ago, after 2 or 3 months, it had problem, until last month, the phone protested its determination of wanted to be kept in drawer with idiotic action, it doesn't functions well as a basic phone, I can't even make a call - ERROR CONNECTION every time when i attempt to call people. I don't make call for fun okay? i can't find any reason to keep it. 

There were a lot stories after this which I feel lazy to describe, the end result was i bought a new phone. 

I was telling my friend :I dont feel any excitement of owning a new phone. which is true. I don't feel any, until now. I hope this could accompany me for a long time.

Lastly, I'm listening to music, music that accompanied me the most in another side of the globe. i thought i got back to the place with big wind and cold weather.

I realize i can't use word to describe the place anymore, perhaps at this moment only. Hopefully it isn't because of feel faded away. I'm moving on, but wishing to bring the memories with me. 

It is always in the top of the list, in my notes of happiness.

再不堪回首的，曾经也是快乐和值得珍惜的回忆。